Bethany POV
Reading the journals almost made me cry; I had to pretend I was reading a book instead of something else rather than something Cynthia had written about her life. It answered so many questions about why Cynthia changed so much around that time. Mother blamed it on her becoming a woman, and I naturally assumed it was the monthly bleed.
Reading this helped me understand that I was the one with a safe life, and Dad told me about Cynthia not being his child. If Cynthia knew this, then she would hate me even more because I had my father's love, and we were close and only got closer as I shared the love of sports with him and Thomas. Looking back, she was a sort of outcast, never wanting to join in, and often went on holidays with Mother when she never wanted either Thomas or I to
