I Love My Husband But....

Chapter 25

*  (I can't come back) I think to myself as I crank up my jeep. I jump when I hear a knock on my window. I roll down, but he opens the door. "Please, don't," he says with sad eyes. "Don't what?" I ask still surprised to see him. (I figured he would have gone back to sleep)

 "You're thinking about ditching me" "I-" I start off, but I can't lie. "You don't have to say anything, I can tell buy the look in your eyes," "Remember, it's all my fault not yours," I don't say anything, because I'm trying to hold back tears. 

"Come here," He says as he helps me out of my jeep when I start tearing up. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asks as he hugs me tightly. "No, I'm fine" "Jess... you're not fine baby," "It's bad to keep things bottled up, and even, if I am the cause of your frustration or problems" He blows out a slow breath. "I want to help you fix them" I pull back and look up at him surprised by his words. (Now I'm sleeping with my therapist) 

"Another day, I really should be getting home'' "Okay, but I mean it" "Please don't cut me out of your life," I close my eyes as he caresses my cheek then he kisses my forehead. I nod and I give him a small smile then I turn to leave after he gives me a hug.

As I pull out of his driveway I see him rub his hand over his face and then he grabs his hair. (I'm just complicating both of our lives)

I sit in my car just looking at my house, because I don't want to go inside right now. My husband isn't home but I still need to think and I don't even know what to think about. I decide to take a quick shower and then I will do a breathing exercise. 

When I got out of the shower I felt a whole lot better. I took out the food and put it out then I tell the kids to play outside while I do my breathing exercises under a tree. (I should do this at the park) I think to myself as I lean back against the tree. After I'm done, I join the kids and we play until Luci gets tired. 

I warm up dinner and I eat as she naps, then I get to work. I'm not surprised when my mind wonders, and I, can't help but to blush when I remember the way he made me feel. (It was magical) I doubt I'll ever feel like that again, because I've decided not to go to his house again. I will still meet him at the park and we'll be friends but that is all. He will have to understand and if he wants to stop being my friend that's fine. He's already helped me with so many things. I just can't offer him anything more than a friendship. 

I blink when my husband waves his hand in front of my face. (I did not hear him come in) "What is so interesting about those books that you can't even hear me come in,?" (I am working not just reading books right now) 

"I get lost in the books that I read sometimes" "Well I said 'Hey'," "Hi Alex, you usually don't greet me when you get home so I'm not used to it," "Are you hungry?" "Yes, but I want to shower first," "Okay, I'll warm up your food" I say as I close my laptop. 

"I'm really hungry!" he yells to me from the living room after his shower. "Okay," Maybe he didn't eat much for lunch, because he says I make his plates too big, and today he asked for seconds.    

As he finishes up his second plate I get back to work and pretend to interested in the movie he's watching. (I've always pretended to be interested in the movies that he likes, I just don't comment anymore, which he hates anyways) 

I leave Xane and his friend Chuck to watch Luci while I go around a few times. I'm pretty sure Willis will be here by the time I'm finished. I look at my watch to see how many steps I have before I start and I yelp when arms wrap around my waist. 

"I'm sorry Jess," says Willis as he kisses my cheek and hugs me tightly. "I'm fine, I just didn't expect you until later" "Why later?" "I don't know" I say embarrassed. He chuckles as he turns me around, then he grabs my chin as he looks into my eyes. 

"I'll race you," I say as I poke his stomach and take off running. (I need to put space between us, because I can't give him enough time to feel me up, when just anyone can see us) 

He catches me by the waist right as I am about to go behind some trees in a wooded area. Then he walks me the rest of the way into the trees. When he stops, he hugs me from behind as he kisses the top of my head. I enjoy is hug and I lean back against his chest as I blow out a relieved breath. (It feels so good to be in his arms, it's like just this simple hug has erased so much stress)

He slides his hand into my pants, then he sucks on my neck as he plays around inside of my panties. "Willis" I whisper as he slides his fingers around. "Yes Jess" he says as he walks us even more into the wooded area. 

"Not here... someone could see us" say weakly. He pulls his hand out of my panties and he grabs my hand and leads me to a part of the park I've never seen. "No one comes here" He says as he takes off his shirt, then he lays it down and helps me to sit.

 "Do I get on my knees?" I ask as I turn around. "No Jess, I want to feel your body close to mine," "Sir, I don't want to take off my pants, I'll be naked," "Come here," he says as he helps me up. Then he leads me over to a big tree.

 He slides his hand into my panties again and inserts a finger as I lean back against a tree. I hold on to his arm as I try not to moan too loudly. He gently kisses from my neck to my face as he keeps his rhythm, finally kissing me to stifle my moans. (At least that was what he told me he was doing) "Jess baby, I want you to come see me tomorrow" he says against my cheek as I catch my breath then he sucks his fingers and puts his lips against mine. 

We walk around the track a few times not saying much, then we race on our last lap. (He let me win even though I told him to go faster) "Let's go relieve Xane and his friends so that he can play" he says surprising me as I catch my breath.

"Okay,'' I say as I point to the air behind him, then I laugh as I run over to the boys and Luci. "Were you guys racing?" asks Nolan one of Xane's many friends. "Yep," I say as I put my hands on my hips. "And you beat him,?" "Yep," I say as I flex my muscles. "I cheated, but I still won" I say proudly. 

"That's impossible," says Xane as Willis chuckles. "Don't start with me Xane," "I don't mean because you're a woman and he's a man," "He's just so much bigger and buffer" ''That's why I cheated" "Calm down short stuff," laughs Willis along with everyone else.

 "How'd you let her win?" "She is so short" "I was tricked" He says as he shrugs with his lips plastered with a smile. 

I send the boys off to play before they start with the boys against girls competitions. He goes and gets us an ice cream to surprise Luci as I watch her play in the sand. He is trying to be best friends with my children too and that's the way to her friendship.

We had so much fun at the park that the kids didn't want to go home. (Not that they ever do)