ALEXANDER

Chapter 32

CASSIDY:

Two reasons why I thought of Lance as creepy were his mustache and his hair color. I was not judging him by his physical appearance. Or, maybe I was.

Currently, we're in the shady area under the trees as we're sitting on the cemented chair attached to the tree trunk in front of the wide soccer field.

I've been staring at his face for a while and he's been wiggling his brows. Maybe he wanted me to laugh as he's looking at my poker face. He didn't speak, so did I. We just stared at each other. He really looked familiar. I think I have seen him before. But can't really tell when and where. It's just my gut feeling told me I had seen him somewhere else aside from the airport.

It's weekend and have nothing to do, but to just review my lesson. I'm tired going around the campus, since I had done that these past days. I decided on taking a rest for today. Besides, I have a year to spend here, I will still get familiarized to everything as days come by.

Gabbie told me earlier someone was outside the door looking for me. I was surprised when it was him. He wasn't in the class for two days and that made me wonder why? I don't have his phone number until now, not that I'm interested to know.

It has been a month when I broke down in front of him, and he had never asked to stuff more food in my plate since then, even I had explained to him that it was alright.

I also remembered our conversation when we went back to class.

"Whatever the reason for your cry, I will not ask why..."

"Thank you."

"But do you want to go to the infirmary instead? Did you get hurt or you feeling sick and whatnot?"

"No, I'm okay. I'm not hurt or anything. I just--- Ugh! Can we not talk about it?"

He shrugged and motioned me to go out first before him.

But on that day I also spent thinking about Alexander for the entire classes I had. I totally closed off my mind to everything in my surrounding. I didn't even know if the teacher had called me or not, and if Lance was talking to me.

My mind that time had automatically remembered everything. Every word I said to Alexander before I left The Mansion building.

Flashback...

“No! You’re my girlfriend. You will not get rid of me easily, princess."

“I’m giving you a favor, Mr. Montavo. Go back to her. She’s waiting.”

"Damn it, Cassidy!"

He kissed me instead. So rough like my lips are going to bleed. Pushing him away while avoiding his lips, but he deepens it further.

I taste blood, yet he doesn’t stop claiming my lips and my tongue. Pinning me to the wall of the elevator. Just only when the elevator dings open that he stops and we’re both panting.

I had closed the elevator and I thought it will go down but after it closed, it also opened quickly and Alexander instantly went inside. He saw me crying. He f*****g did and too late for me to stop. My body had been trembling. He just held me. I felt comforted instantly by him hugging me tight.

After his possessive kiss, I realized we have reached the ground floor and pulled me out with him. Still holding my hands so tight.

“Where are you taking me? Let go of my hand, Mr. Montavo.”

“It’s Alexander.”

The valet immediately stepped out of the car and handed him the key.

“Where are we going??”

“Somewhere we can talk properly.”

I turned away as I immediately wiped the tears that have been unwantedly escaping from my eyes.

No one talked. I only heard his heavy sighs throughout the ride. Until the car stopped.

We’re in the flower garden again. We’re sitting on the same lawn chair we had sat before.

He has heard no word from me since we arrived. I remained quiet. Until he stood up and then kneeled in front of me.

"What are you doing?" I hissed.

"I just can't let you go like this."

"Alexander, this has nothing to do with what I saw anymore. I overreacted earlier which I shouldn't. I was not expecting you with her whilst inside your apartment-."

"Believe me, princess, I didn't know how she got in or maybe I opened the door for her?? f**k! I now remember! I didn't bother opening the light as I thought it was you. She smelled like you.. I was too dizzy after I took two shots from the event. I headed straight into the apartment after I asked the driver to drive me home. I remember I was dreaming about you while I was sleeping. I knew you'll be coming home tonight that's why I was so excited to leave the party but a friend insisted me to drink."

Now that he mentioned that, I also remember what Cheska looked like earlier. She's wearing a wig with the same hair color as mine. Her make up and eye color were just like mine!

Oh, God!

Did she imitate me??

But the damage has been done already.

I'm too hurt after what he did. His explanations didn't change anything and the fact that ours is just a sham and will end sooner, voiding the contract was the best.

Oh crap! I am only bullshitting myself!

It's damn worst! Never the best!

He kissed my hands then stared back at me. I'm so torn right now.

My thoughts were also battling.

'You will still leave him, Cassidy.'

'Your relationship with him is not real.'

'You better call it off right now, while you can!'

'Save your self from hurting more in the future.'

Closing my eyes as I sigh. Then stared back at him after, with stern look. This is the hardest decision I am going to make in my entire life.

"Let's not think about what happened, Mr. Montavo. I don't care who you're with anymore. This is already about us breaking up because this is what will happen soon. We already did everything indicated in the contract and two weeks left won't do anything or change anything. We'll still come to this act. We have your ex as our witness, too. She believed we really have a thing and I think she believed about the break up, too. So let's put it that way."

"Listen--- moya milaya. I don't-" Alexander paused and took a deep sigh before he continued. "I don't want us to end. "

My heart leapt. "What do you mean?"

"I have plans for us. Breaking up with you is never my plan."

"Don't be ridiculous, Mr. Montavo. I know you enjoyed my company and so did I. But I can't leave my life like this. Pretending to be someone I am not. Pretending in front of anyone. Just go back to her. This will be the last time you will see me."

"Damn it! No!"

"We were once unknown to each other. Let's stick to the plan."

I stood up. He held me as he also stood in front of me.

"Don't do this, Cassidy. I have a lot to tell you. Please give me time to tell everything I planned to tell you."

I shook my head. I can't stay longer with him. Any moment I will burst out crying again. Afraid to betray myself and fall into whatever his plan again.

"Please, don't. I don't want to hear it. Whatever it is, just save it. I'm not interested. Don't make this more complicated for both of us." I told him.

'You're a f*****g, liar, Cassidy!' I scorned myself.

Pain flickered on his face. "Is this really what you want?" He asked when I pulled my hand from his hold.

"Yes. And don't say more please. I don't want to hear it."

"Fine! If this is what you want. You will not see mee again."

My heart ached by what he said. "Okay. Goodbye, Alexander."

I was the one who walked away first. Leaving him there. I heard him cursing, but my heart was also mourning. My tears are almost blurring my way to the exit.

"Don't look back! This is for the best, Cassidy." I said to myself. But it didn't help me at all.