Red Dawn - Book 6

Chapter 6

I stood at the back of the boat, watching my reflection distorting in the beautiful clear water. Here and there little fish would swim by causing my reflection to break. Then Nic's reflection joined me.

"Hey." I smiled as I turned to look at him.

He pulled me into his arms and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around him as I rested my head against his chest.

"Did you really want to swim?" He asked me.

Without breaking my hold I looked up at him and slowly shook my head. "Yeah, I'm sure." I lied, as I let my arms fall to my side.

"Are you sure?" he asked, taking my chin between his thumb and index finger and turning my head towards him. "You seem to be under stress."

"I'm just uncertain about," I glanced over my shoulder at the butler who just joined our sides, holding a platter with smoothies. I waved him away. "I don't like the servants."

"They are just here to help us out so we can spend more time with one another, that's all." He reassured me.

I moved to sit at the back of the boat, allowing my feet to dangle into the blue waters below. Nic mimicked me, taking a seat beside me.

"How long is our honeymoon?" I asked, as I glanced out over the gleaming waters.

"It can end whenever you want it to, my love, but the itenerary sets the travel for two months. We should be back in time for the Winter Holidays." He moved his hand to my leg. "You aren't having a good time are you?"

I shook my head. "I'm having a wonderful time, I would just prefer that we did everything by ourselves. Cooking, sailing, cleaning.... those are all bonding times that we won't get for the next couple months. Nic, I haven't had much life experience but I know these times are the most important."

"I can make them go away, if you like."

I smiled. "I would like that." I leaned in towards him and placed a modest kiss on his lips before I got to my feet.

"Okay, but first how about a swim," Nic asked as he got to his feet and kicked off his sandals.

I glanced over at the water and felt my heart speed up.

"Daddy, mommy. Please! I don't care about being safe I want to be with you!" I screamed over Ethan's shoulder in a last attempt to persuade them into stay before I disappeared into the house.

Then the boat was gone and I was swimming after it.

"Renesmee?" Nic called, shaking me from my flashback.

I took a deep breath and looked over at him. "Are you ready?" I said, as I took off my bikini sarong.

For a second I thought I saw his eyes lighten, or maybe it had been a trick of the light. Turning my back on him I bent slightly before diving into the Pacific Ocean waters. Treading under the water I stared around at the rainbow of coral that hosted shelter for several exotic fish and some starfish. It was so beautiful.

I turned to my left and Nic was there, staring at me.

As I felt my lungs begin to ache for air I rose to the surface and inhaled. Then I was in his arms and his lips were on mine so passionately. I could tell he hungered for me as I did the same for him. I wanted him, I wanted all of him.

I resurfaced, taking in a lungfull of air. Just like under the water, Nic's lips were on mine again as we treaded towards the boat. Then were up on the sundeck, our bodies entertwined.

"You have no idea how beautiful you are Renesmee." he crooned into my ear, he nibbled at a neck a few times before getting to his feet. "Come," he said, holding out his hand to me.

"Where are we going?" I asked, lacing my fingers through his.

"To kick out the help so we have the entire boat to ourselves," He winked, flashing his beautiful white smile.

My stomach erupted in a million butterflies.

"That can wait," I breathed, as I pulled him back into my arms. "I want to go to the moon and back with you." I bit my lip, nervously, in a perfect immitation of my mother.

I don't think we could have reached our room any faster than we did. We undressed it a colored blur and then our bodies entertwined on the bed.

"Just think," Nic began, his heart beat beating into my chest, "one day we will be doing this to start our own family."

My throat tightened, as if I was being choked and my mouth went dry. I quickly pulled away from him and grabbed my silk robe before pulling it secrely around my body. Then I left the room.

I ran through the hall until I found myself infront of a random door. Without thinking I opened it, pausing only to close the door behind myself. I searched along the wall of the dark room for a light source and found a small switch. Flipping it, the room lit up instantly.

It looked like the inside of my grandfather Carlisle's medical supply closet. Boxes upon boxes of first aid gear lined the wall.

Suddenly I was homesick. I missed my family.

"Renesmee?" There was a knock at the closet door. "Renesmee, love I am sorry." Nic said.

I went to the back of the supply closet and took a seat on the floor before pulling my knees to my chest like a child.

"Renesmee?" He called again, his voice worrisome.

I took a deep breath and responded, "I-I just need a moment Nic," I could hear my voice wavering and knew he noticed it too.

"Okay," There was an unsettling pause, "Do you need anything?"

"No, no I am alright. I just need a few moments and then I will-" before I could finish the door opened and Nic entered.

"I'm so sorry, I just can't leave you alone not knowing what is going on." He explained as he came over and took a seat beside me.

Even though I wanted so badly to just be alone I admired his presence. It showed alot, him going against my wishes just to make sure I was alright.

Sighing, I moved to lay on my side, resting my head in his lap.

"Kids." I said simply.

He began combing his fingers gently through my hair. "I'm sorry Renesmee," he apologized, "I wasn't thinking when I said that."

I nodded my head, "It's alright, I was just being stupid. It's an irrational fear and I need to get over it." I inhaled quickly, three times before sitting up. "Let's have a baby."

As I looked into Nic's face I expected to see a smile but instead it was a frown.

"Renesmee..."

I took his hand into mine and brought it to my lips. "Nic, I love you and I know you want children. I want to give you children, I want you to be happy."

Nic pulled his hand from my grasp and brought it to rest on my cheek. He just stared at me, brushing his thumb along my jaw. "Renesmee, you have no idea how much your proposal of children means to me. I just don't think it is a great time, not only for you, but for us."

I took a deep breath, feeling slightly put out.

"One day you will make a great mother, Renesmee. But now is not our time."

"When?"

Nic pulled me into his lap and kissed me, "When it is our time nature will let it happen. For now, lets just enjoy life together."

"Together." I repeated.

"I think the we should relax for the rest of the, maybe take a swim in the pool or relax in the jacuzzi." He said as he rose to his feet. "Ready?"

I looked at him and then to his hand before I held out mine. He pulled me to my feet and then we left the room.

This married life, it had its ups and downs but I wasn't afraid anymore. Not when I had someone as amazing as Nicholi in my life. He was my equal. He was born to understand me, to love me, to be patient with me. I was born as his equal, to understand him, love him, be patient with him and to give him children.

We were meant to spent all of eternity together. That is why we met when we did. Though I didn't believe in myself I was ready and so was Nic. We could have met twenty years in the future, or even five but didn't.

We were ready to take that next step, and soon we will be ready to do it again.

Fate never makes mistakes.