I knew that revenge would only end up in further heartache, but my anger was enough to blind me from this reasoning. Instead, I had a plan to give into my desire for Luke…
We eventually decided on a Holiday Inn a few miles from the apartment. With Lila already asleep in my arms before arriving into the room, we placed her to sleep for the night. Keeping her eyesight away from the bed, I then directed my attention to Luke, who seemed nervous to be alone with me. He reminded me of a young man losing his virginity as he paced at the base of the bed-unsure of what to say or even where to look. His fingers fumbled between all the others as he looked to the fabric of the sheets before him until finally giving in to his curiosity to see where my eyes fell as well.
“You must be happy to have Ja
