I'm NOT Playing The Pregnancy Game

Welcome To The World

I see the blood first ,but don't feel the pain ,why can't i feel the pain ,why am i bleeding where’s the blood coming from ? I call out for help as I'm standing in the middle of the lobby ,and everyones not noticing ,their not paying attention ,I spot the bell man Lucas ,for help ,Lucas , Lucas and finally I’m screaming at the top of my lungs Lucas Sssssssssssss! ,he looks over and rushes towards me ,”are you going into labor?” yes, I think so. “what do you mean you think so?” ,i know i’m Bleeding but cant feel any pain and I don't know where the pain is coming from , “can you feel the baby” ,i can't feel anything ,”that’s not good ,I'll call the ambulance” ,he rushes off to call an ambulance 

And about twenty three minutes later the ambulance rushes to the hospital. Two hours later, “I’m sorry miss ,but you had a stillbirth,''What do you mean? “You’re baby was born ,without any life” ,No i heard my baby, my baby has to be alive ,he sits down on the bed “you were bleeding because you were dilating they baby was just to big and ready to come out ,we suspect the baby was dead for about two weeks” ,I started to tear up no that can't be . I drop down to my bed and I can't move ,my eyes go blurry and i see a light the light turns dark.

And I wake up in my bed at the hotel, it was all a dream i put my hand on my stomach to feel my baby move. Everything pulls me to reality that every woman that gives birth has a chance of their baby not being born. The grief they feel i couldn't imagine going through that ,this is the fourth dream I've had since I've been here ,i wonder what it means. My baby is in danger ,But from who?. I just pray that god sees that i will protect my baby from anything ,whether its Lee and his gang ,this world or even me. ,I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom and while i was using the bathroom i felt like i was dozing and when I looked down I was bleeding i got up real quick to see Lee coming into the room. What are you doing?, How did you know i was here? he looked me up and down with a smirk on his face. “I’m not here ,You’re dreaming” ,and all of a sudden I wake up screaming.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ve been having dreams of my pregnancy going bad ,i think it's because I'm so close to giving birth i feel so much anxiety coming and i don't know how to not be nervous ,or how to not think the worse out of everything. I remember the dream I first had when I found out I was pregnant. It was a dream of a world where my mom didn't leave when I was two ,and my brother’s mom wasn't and ass so we grew up together. And i would be graduating college with my finance a Lawyer named something like Scott or Nate. ,But that's not the reality, the reality is I’m hiding from the father of my child ,because not only is he dangerous for my child but he’s dangerous for me. And on top of that for the rest of my life I’m gonna have to like to my child about the identity of my baby's father.

3 DAYS LATER -

Me and my dad are both at my last doctors appointment before I give birth and ,we just want to know what to expect. “Ok Sophie you got less than two weeks before you give birth ,do you have any questions”. ,Actually Doctor i was wondering if i could stay in the hospital until I give birth ,is it possible?. “well we do have rooms prepared for women about to give birth, and actually there was a woman who booked a room to give birth but her baby came early and she gave birth at another hospital ,her room is already paid for and it wouldnt do harm so you could take it if you want,''Yes I’ll take it. ,When the doctor leave i see an interesting look on my father’s face as if he’s been drinking. ,dad are you ok? “Sophie ,what was wrong with the hotel?” nothing i would just rather stay at the hospital. ,”Sophie I’m paying the hotel bill everyday ,it’s really expensive,''dad i just feel like ..”STOP IT ,IT’S JUST ALL EXCUSES ,I WORK EVERY SINGLE DAY TRYING TO PAY BILLS ,IM PAYING THE HOUSE BILLS THE GAS I PUT IN THE CAR TO DRIVE YOU PLACES WHEN ALL I REALLY WANT IS SLEEP ,ITS $936 TO STAY AT THAT DAME HOTEL JUST FOR A WEEK ,JUST SO YOU CAN STAY AT THE HOTEL AND I PAY FOR NOBODY STAYING THE ROOM ,BUT YOU KNOW WHAT SOPHIE ,I'M GLAD YOU’RE SUCH A GROWN UP YOU’RE MAKING DECISIONS WITHOUT CONCERNING NOBODY.

My dad storms out of the room and a part of me feels like crying but I don't ,I understand him completely i know how much he’s done and he sacrificed ,one day I will return the favor to him and that's a promise.

 All of a sudden I hear an ambulance siren pull up to the hospital which means someone is seriously hurt ,then there’s gunshots about five , I ran out of the room to find my dad ,and I don't even know where I'm going the hall way is empty and the hospital is so big i don't know where im going and i feel like i seeing the main entrance when i come up and when i enter i see Eight men men with guns 

One guy is holding a gun at a nurse the second one is pointing it at my doctor ,the third one is holding his gun at hostages ,the fourth one is pointing one at me ,he screams at me to get on my knees ,the fifth one is behind the desk on the nurse’s computer ,the six one is holding another set of hostages ,the 7th one is going down the hallway looking for more people and the Eight one is Lee 

I know he doesn't see me yet but he definitely see’s my dad. 

LEE’S “so one thing i want to know is how far your investigation is ,we’ve been tailing your’re car Officer and we;ve been to your house we know you’re up to something ,But one thing i want to know is Where is your dad in all of this?” 

My dad looks at me and then Lee follows his gaze back to me spotting me out ,When he looks at me ,its as if he had been shot in the stomach. Then he lifts his hand to the hallway ,”we need to talk NOW ,get up,'' I don't get up i just stay on my Knees looking at him ,which I could tell made him mad. ,he stormed over to where I was and lifted me up by the arm “I SAID TO GET UP” ,my father’s reacts in a harsh manner “DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HER “ and one of the guys with a gun smacks my father on the head with a gun And then my water breaks.

I look down and then my father then Lee and then my Doctor ,”Listen ,I’m her Doctor when need to get her to the delivery room.” Everyone looks at each other and the next thing I know I’m being carried down the hallway being rushed into the delivery room ,no no this can't be how my baby is going to come into this world ,nooooooooooo 

My talking turns into screaming and the pain progressed really fast it wasn't like how it was in the movies with contractions and slow blow’s no my baby was coming right now. Lee sits me on the recliner and the doctor yells at me start to push ,I see blood and my first instinct is to say noooo the baby’s dead ,my doctor asks why i think that and I couldn't answer for a moment i don't even bother to try to push because I already know my baby's dead, but then I looked at the people in the room ,it might not be like my dream where everything was perfect but my baby would at least have me to love …………………………………………………………………………………………

“Sophie hold out you’re arms to welcome you Baby GIRL”  ,Welcome my baby Miracle