Being two different people is stressful ,and painful to the heart. But for me I didn't even sweat ,it was easy to me. I know that I've changed ,being Madison was like living a different life until it wasn't. You cant escape you're past or the future. If I continued to be Madison I could be with Jermaine with my kid and keep having friends no one would know who Crystal is ,and most importantly I Could continue to being sisters with Mary. but my childhood f****d me up and the reality is there are so many things that could go wrong. If I go back to being Crystal I would have to give the baby up for adoption and decide if I want to continue my life working with Lori and be rich ,basically my life would be made.
Two Different choices ,Multiple Life scenario's that could occur and a handful of people could either get hurt or be put in danger.
But saying it to my self in my head makes me think about my choices more.
Crystal was born out of spite ,her mom was a determined woman who could never be without a man of wealth. Her mom did everything in her power to trap men including Crystals father who took his life when Crystal was 4 for reasons know one knows. she was never there for her children a way mother's should be there for her children. Crystal has and older half brother ,who tormented and abused her sexually and mentally but never physically. Crystals brother is an intelligent person he abused her mentally which messed with her ability to tell the difference of emotions of Love. Simply because he didn't want her to interact with feelings of lust and romance. He never physically abused her because he didn't want any physical proof of what he had been doing to her ,not that her mom would have noticed anyway. when he first started sexually abusing her it was a mind game to him ,he would make her think she was doing something wrong if she wasn't. He made her think that is she was sexually active with anyone else besides her she was a disgrace. She thought oh this is my brother he has my back so every time she would get into trouble she'd run to him because he filled her head with thought's that he'd protect her with the price always being s*x after. She never knew what made her brother the way he was. But him and her mom is what made CRYSTAL.
Madison was Born out of a Lie ,But a lie that was meant to save and spare a baby's life from Pain and suffering. Madison has a life where she can laugh out loud ,smile on the regular and be normal. she could help organize events ,participate in charity work (ok That's a Lie ). Madison has two loving people who think of her as a daughter ,they don't ask about her situation ,or why she is the way she is. Madison lives in a world where there's a Mary and a Jermaine At her side even when she doesn't want them there. There's true Love and possibility of a good life for her.
I think about if I could would I Throw Crystals life in the trash ,I say no because if Crystal didn't go through what she went through in her life growing up Madison would have never came into the picture.
Present Day
I wake up exhausted to a room with nobody else in sight filled with balloon's and presents. I try to attempt sit up but I'm Just to tired and weak I just slump right back down. I start calling out irritatingly "Maryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy"
Jermaine comes rushing in . "what's the matter do you want me to go get the doctor?" ,I look at him in confused. "Jermaine why do you have on All Purple"
"Mary wanted to take pictures with all of us and the baby ,and I figured we should match with the Gender of the baby ,they didn't have Pink so I just grabbed Purple"
"........................" ,I started to feel a tear trying to form in my eye which is weird I didn't have any emotional outbreaks during my entire pregnancy why now. Jermaine notices my tearful eyes and comes over next to me.
"What's wrong" "I didn't know it was a Girl" ,he looks at me in shock and then a little guilty. "I didn't know you didn't know the Gender" "it's ok" "No really ,I'm sorry" ,he takes my hand into his and gently caress it. "you'll be ok" ,he say's. "what did you want Mary for" he asked. "oh I forgot I even called for her ,can you go and get her" ,he shook his head and just before he was about to leave I shout out "Oh and tell her to come alone ,no one else" ,he looked back "do you want her to bring the baby?" "no one " ,he relied back saying ok silently for no reason.
Mary comes in the room out of breath and gasping for air. "Are you ok?" ,I said she looked up and smiled "You did it" ,I looked at her confused and concerned. "Did what?" ,she smiled at me wickedly and came close "Mary you're really concerning me" ,"Babes you just Pushed a kid out of you're ****" ,I couldn't help but to laugh ,"what's so funny?" ,"You are come here" ,she came and sat on my bed. "can you go get the doctor for me ,and send him in alone" "why?" "ill tell you later"
-Thank you guys for reading ,this is a cliff hanger of Crystal's Part this season. her story will Resume :)