Blake

Chapter 5

Catleya doesn’t leave, but she stays in the other room, which is her office, while I am watching the twins sleeping here in her sleeping quarter.

Her boutique has a wide space which is enough to have a private office, a mini sleeping area and the production area where her designs are visible for the clients

It’s been an hour since Catleya went inside her office, which I now wonder if she’s also sleeping or she just doesn’t want to see me.

I should be grateful that she’s avoiding me, but deep inside, I still want us to be okay. Ugh! This is harder than I thought.

Suddenly, a text from Cierra pops up on my phone, asking if I’m with Catleya and the twins right now. After replying to her message, I decide to check on Catleya. The door isn’t locked, so I slowly open it. There she is, sitting at her desk, while her eyes and hands are on the laptop.

“Hey...”

“I don’t want to talk to you, Blake. Now get out.” She responds without even looking at me.

“Can we talk?”

“No.”

“Cat- I’m-“

“I said no, Blake.”

She cut me off while now glaring at me.

“I understand you’re mad at me. I know it’s my fault. But can we at least talk?”

“Had you even given me a chance to talk before? Huh? Had you?”

“I’m sorry, Cat. There were no other excuses about what I did in the past. I was wrong. But I did it for your best interest.”

“Best interest? Did you hear what you just said? Do you think leaving me there was the best? You just left me there, Blake. You were such a douchebag! You left me alone by myself! You let me feel I was a schmatte that you could easily use and toss away! Was I really that kind of woman to you?”

Guilt commanders on my entire being by what I hear from her. That was not my intention before. I only wanted her to be free because I knew ours was just temporary.

“No, you're not. I’m sorry. I swear my intention was not to complicate things between us. Most especially once we find our mates. We both knew that we would have fated mates."

“Was that it? Was that the only excuse you could come up with? That’s a bullshit, Blake. I waited for you to come back, hoping you didn’t mean it. But you’re so cruel to just left me alone there. I waited for you...”

I am lost for words.. There's no f*****g words to justify what I did. I deserve her anger, moreso the way she's treating me.

Now that it comes out of her, I want to punch myself, too. I want her to hit me, yet she stays on her seat. The pain in her voice adds to my guilt and regret. I feel how she deeply hurt.

“I’m really sorry, Cat. I mean it... But you’re still young and-“ Still trying to explain and I'm not good on this. Damn it! I only make her mad at me more.

“Oh! Young??” Catleya sneers as she stands up and saunters towards me. Her scent does somersault in my whole body when I smell it again.

‘Blake, let me out. I miss her! Let me out!

I mentally groan, trying to defy Madic’s powerful urge to shift.

“Cat-“ Madic says. He tries to take control.

She stops and stares at me. “Ma- Madic?”

My body just automatically moves closer to her.

‘What the heck are you doing?!’ I mentally ask Madic.

‘Doing what is right.’ He answers while Catleya is squinting her eyes as she gazes at me.

She steps back and asks. “Who am I talking with right now?”

“It’s me. Blake...” I answer after controlling myself from shifting.

“Was that Madic a few seconds ago?”

She really knows him well.

I smile and nod. “He... Uhm, he just missed you. He’s been bugging me since yesterday to see you.”

The corner of her lips twitches. “I missed him, too.”

Sadness flickers in her eyes again, while imlistening to her feeble voice.

“I miss you too, Cat.” Surprisingly, Madic takes control. Maybe his strong urge to get close to her makes him to get out of my control.

“Madic?”

Her brows furrow once again. I let Madic to fully take over this time, except the shifting. Just like Skye, I have the ability to let my wolf take control without shifting into my wolf form.

“Hi. It’s been awhile, Cat.” Caressing her face while she’s having mixed emotions.

She steps back again, but my feet step forward, to get closer.

“Don’t- I can’t do this. I can’t pretend that everything is still okay. Just please leave.”

“Can we at least be friends again?”

“It’s not that easy. I haven’t gotten over you yet. I shouldn’t tell you this. But that’s the truth. Your presence is making all my emotions coming back to life. You said I should stay away from you. And I’ve been trying. Until now I’m trying. But you’re making it difficult if you keep showing in front of me.”

Her scent doesn’t help me get calmed. In fact, all my senses go in haywire. I try to close my eyes quick as I take a deep breath just to release those intense feelings. Madic and I are now having the same thought about this, so I stare at her seriously.

“Hit me, Cat. Slap me. Punch me because I deserve the beating. I was such a jerk! Just hit me...”

But she shakes her head.

“Hurting you back won’t change anything. I am not like my brothers. Maybe if they knew about what happened, they would probably give you the beating you deserve. But I am not like them.”

My heart clenches as my fists do. I don’t deserve her. She has a pure heart. She has the qualities that most women haven’t had. She indeed has the blood of a royalty.

I mentally laugh at myself. I can’t continue talking to her like this. Even Madic feels her emotions. We want to hold her, but she doesn’t want us to get closer. She is younger than me but the way she thinks gives me a face slap. I don’t believe that woman is more mature than a man. But in our case, I guess I was wrong. Women think more maturely than men. She is an example of that.

I am expecting her to throw tantrums at me for hurting her, for pestering her life again. for showing up even I told her to stay away from me. But she’s just so composed even she’s hurting.

“I understand. I wish I am half as the way you perceive things and... I still wish we can be friends.”

She doesn’t respond. But then, as I turn around and walk towards the door, she speaks.

“I don’t want us to be just friends, Blake. It will never happen!” Her words stop me from opening the door to go out. Gripping the door knob, trying to stop myself from contradicting her.

“I understand. I will not-“

But she cut me off. I can feel our proximity is now so close.

“We can't be friends, Blake and I don't want to! I don't want to because I still want you, Blake. I don’t care if I’m too young for you. That doesn’t matter and I have missed you so much.”

Cat... Closing my eyes while trying not to delude by her words. I don't know why but her words make my heart rejoice.

Yet, I still turn around to face her. There I see her being so close, just two steps away from me. Her scent is so alluring and I'm almost getting lost of my thoughts.

“You have a good heart, Cat. You know what you want. While me? I still don’t know what I really want in my life. After the moon goddess removed me from being Skye's protector, I felt like I had no purpose anymore. And I don’t want to drag you down. I don’t want to make your life in hell by dragging you into my own mess. I’m a broken piece, Cat. All I want is to keep you happy, to somehow repay the love and kindness you had given me.”

“If you really want to repay me, then take me back, Blake. If you’re just after my sake, then take me back.”

“Cat-“

I’m losing sanity. I’m in between of my emotions and my rationale.

“I promise to let you go once you find your mate... But while we both have none yet, can you take me back? I still want you, Blake. I've been trying to stay mad at you. But my heart always falters and still wants you.”

I can no longer control myself, so I grab her by her waist and instantly connect our lips. I might regret this again, or might not. Ugh! The hell I care!

She immediately responds and arches her arms around my neck.

I feel Madic gets stronger, too. My wolf is so thrilled.

'You should have done this a long time ago, Blake! Oh, Moon Goddess! It feels homey!'

I mentally smile as I deepen the kiss. I agree to what Madic says. It indeed feels like home being with her.

I stare into Catleya's eyes which I loss in a moment. She's one of the few who has the most beautiful eyes I had ever seen.

"For the record, I had missed you too, Cat. I was such a jerk before and I'm so sorry. When I decided to come here, I was expecting you to hate me too, as I deserved that. But you're just being you, so compassionate and forgiving... and I failed to see that. I'm sorry."

"Nuh! No more drama... All I need is another kiss Blake, or a night with you." She smirks.

"Willingly!"

It's not our first time. In fact when we were in Florida I lost count on how many times I took her by the beach, by my room and of course by the couch.

Oh, Cat...