Fire is Blazing

He might be right

I woke up with pain in my chest the tight sad sensation is so overwhelming that I could feel the tears falling on the side of my face going into my ears cause the sound of my cries louder than the sobs that came out, before opening my eyes with one heavy hand I whip them away and rub my eyes. I take in a deep breathe with a heavy sigh cutting it into two. 'Who was that sad boy?' I wonder to myself finally lifting my lids that felt like a ton spots doted my vision as I survey the room it's dark, and the air is frigid, I curl onto my side and remember the warm feeling from the guy's hands, from the tips of my fingers up my arms the warmth slowly creeps it way through my body wrapping me up in a comforting embrace. I let out a breath of relief the heat that came out and into my hands raises my temp a little more my skin starts to untense. The deep ache at my wrist easy slowly not waiting to feel the bitter breeze that keeps sneaking it way into my blankets I let out another breath. Satisfied with the new warmth I take my hands and touch my face imagining the feel of his rough knuckles against my cheek it was a gentle touch I had almost missed it when I woke up with Nicholas here but now the soft touch is all I feel on my face it makes my heart flutter. My face gets red as I think back to the kiss I had with him I don't know what got a hold of me the feeling of worry and anger had washed over me as I looked at him my focus was so intense that I could almost feel the pain he was experiencing it was a bit overwhelming a thought crosses my mind and I don't think twice I knew that I had to show him that I was okay he was freaking out even if he didn't show it I could feel it. The only thing I could do was place my lips against his he was so focus on what could happen and not was happening and it worked he was able to see me there in front of him. I didn't expect him to deepen the kiss I was going to back away when his grip on my waist had tighten and pulled me closer or I pulled in I'm not sure. When we released from one another he starts to feel like his body was losing its form and he warns me about the people I'm with resurfacing the already apprehensive feelings about them. The ticklish feeling from before starts to get mixed with confusion and anxiety. The fact that I kissed someone I didn't know without thinking about it start to be replaced with the blond boy that also calls me Bunny my heart becomes heavy uncertainty think about his empty eyes he looks at me with trying to mask it with fake care, but I could see it when we look at each other long enough. I think back to the last few days this isn't the first time I had a dream about him, I am not sure if they are actually dreams that last one felt so real, and I know already I wasn't going to say anything about it to anyone because where it was such a natural feeling to be with Mr. Dreamy that I was having a hard time believing in the stuff I was being told from Ricky and the other. It's strange that somewhere in the back of my mind I didn't second guess myself talking to Mr. Dreamy telling him where I was, or where I thought I was that part is starting to become more than a passing thought. I take a deep inhale of the chilly air glad admittedly slightly embarrassed we shared a kiss since it seems to have been the right thing to do though now that I can feel so warm to my surprise the pain, I was feeling last time is leaving me, and I feel better than before the ache in my hand and feet subside a little. Finally feeling the ache disappear I take my blanket with me and get off the bed holding the heat tightly around me with the blanket. I go to look outside the dark sky shimmers as the ocean in the background reflexes the skies above. The night breeze comes through the cracks of the window making my chilly room colder and the curtains billow. I open my curtains fully tucking my blanket around me more to keep all the warmth I had close to me, look up at the sky the bright moonlight danced on the ground, but I couldn't see the moon at all, and the strangest thing was that most of the stars were missing, making some of the constellations incomplete. After minutes of staring at the sky I go to my drawer taking out my sketch book and a pencil that is in it. I flip through it quicky to my surprise it was empty, tucking the thought to the back for now I take my chair and seat in front of my window to begin filling in the gaps of the stars. By the time I could get a few roughly drawn-out sketches it was morning, the sun started to peek out in the horizon, getting rid of the stars. Even though I did my best it seemed at some point I had dozed off, a knock on my door snaps my eyes open waking me up I catch myself before I flinched out of the chair and without causing loud sounds, I quickly put my chair back than jump into bed getting into a sitting position before telling whoever it was that they could come in. In walks Sky and Ricky, Sky has a tray in her arms with a big smile she sets it on my bedside table and takes a seat on my bed.

"How are feeling?" She asks looking me over, "You have more color in your cheeks." She says with a weird edge to her voice her smile wavers a second as I notice her eye wander to the corners of my beds before returning to a smile as she gushes. "Yay, looks like out Aphei is feeling better." I blink not convinced by her performance however I play a long and smile thanking her for the food look away from the forced face I look up at Ricky who was smiling by the door if Sky's expression is forced Rickys is calculated. I return to focus on Sky,

"I am feeling better, what has the doctor said? Do we know if I'll me okay?" She glances to Ricky then back at me,

"Not such yet there was a storm, and the doctor hasn't arrived yet, we live pretty far from the town. On the phone the doc said he will be visiting as soon as the roads are cleared but to make sure your well hydrated and we've been asked to keep you in your bed and get lots of rest." She touches my forehead and the cold sept into my skin slow and painfully, but it was a quick feeling the warmth from when I woke up came rushing in the moment her hand was off my skin. She scrunches her brows and mummers,

"You're on the warm side."

"I don't feel hot. I actual feel much better than the last time I woke up. How long was I asleep?" I reach over to the tray to see what was on it, a bologna sandwich with a bag of chips and a drink. I munch on the chips before getting started on the sandwich I look at the insides it was just bologna and mustard it seemed to be fine, so I take a bite. The second I bite into it my stomach rumble as if I haven't eaten for days, it was gone before anyone answered. I looked at the two of them as I finish off the chip, Ricky finally answers as he takes the tray but left me a new small bag of chips and can of pop.

"About a good five hours going on six. I'll get you some more food." He smiles and heads out,

"He's been worried you've been sleeping on and off for the last three days, we've been trying to keep you hydrated while you were sleeping but there were not many things we could do for you, we couldn't get you to eat so he's happy to see you doing better. So am I actually when we last spoke you were very sickly, we weren't expecting that."

"Um, okay?" Her last sentence was a little off, but I mentally shake it off, I knew I wouldn't be able to get Ricky to tell me much, so I need to try to get so information from Sky. "How long do you think we will be waiting on the doctor?" I watch her look as she thinks before answering me. She was biting her lip, and she had to watch her words.

"I'm not sure she has to good few hours from here plus the boat." I nod like I already knew this. "I am famishing so I'm thankful for the food. I'm going to go freshen up a bit can you go tell Ricky to make sure to have three sandwiches with muster and lettuce." I get up and go the bathroom. I hear the door close behind her as she leaves, I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. I really am hungry, but the dreams were filling my head, so I mindlessly wash my face and brush my hair, thinking back on the boy with the brown hair, tired eyes, and worried expression was imprinted in my mind's eye. He seems so familiar, by the time I finished doing what I need to do in the rest room, including drinking some water from the sink I go back to my room and take a seat at my desk, still lost in thought looking at the bright sky I barely register the knock on my door. It came twice before I got up and opened it, Ricky was on the other side with the tray of food I asked for. I tried to smile but it was halfhearted, I reached for the tray with a thank you ready on my lips however he pulls the tray out of my grasp.

"Trying to get rid of me so fast, thought you might want some company." He walks pass me into the room and takes a seat on my bed with the food. I follow him but I don't sit I take the pop and crack it open with a hiss the fizz sprays like a small set of fireworks, my attention was so focuses on the sizzle I didn't notice that he stood up and came to stand in front of me until he touches my cheek, I jump at his sudden appearance.

"Hey, are you okay?" He asks gently forcing my head up to make me look at him with his finger under my chin. I blink and take a step back the chill from his touch reseeds and the warmth comes back in force avoiding his gaze I take a drink; it tasted like sandpaper I try my best to hold back the gag. It gave me a second to register that just like Sky his touch hurt slightly and made me so cold I was thankful for the heat that the dream guy gave me because I would be freezing if it wasn't for him.

"Bunny?" He asked worry in his voice, but the way it sounds was sickening and my stomach goes into a knot, my thoughts go back to the sad person the way he said my name and my nickname was like a melody and right, but Ricky was calling me, and my head begins to race the thoughts of being in trouble starts to bubble over and he starts to sounded far away.

"I'm okay." I lie as he tries to catch my eye. I look around the room than back at him as he takes my hands and makes me sit down. The tray is placed on the side table I look over it and the bag were closed but I don't think I should eat the sandwiches.

"We ran out of the bologna, so I made a peanut butter and jam sandwich. You are starting to look pale are you sure?" I did my best to keep the fear out of my eyes as I look back at him thinking about what was said about something be made with berries so I nod thinking about what I can say to get him to leave so I do my best to look tired which wasn't hard because I was tired,

"Yeah, I just think I moved to much after all that laying down." I give a weak smile and take another sip hoping the sugar will help me, but it was flavorless and rough against my throat as it went down. He smiles then gently placed my head on his shoulder My spine got rigged and I start to get this severe pain. I move within seconds of contact and chug the rest of my drink. The plan was terrible, but it was the best I could think of was.

"Can I get another drink?" He nods and touches my cheek before leaving." The air gets lighter once he leaves and a weight is lifted from my shoulders slightly. I place the empty can on the nightstand and lay on the bed. Staring at the ceiling I concentrate on the smoothness of it and wish to do nothing but sleep so I can see the dream guy once more. I feel so confused and uncertain of everything, but he is the only one that makes sense, and I don't know why. I need to find out if I don't I think I might go mad. My eyes get heavy, and I hear someone call my name at first, I thought it was Ricky back from the strange request but then I hear it again clearly this time her voice was soft as silk it in cased me a sense of protection and purity my heart races in anticipation hopping to hear her speak my name one more time and she does. My eye fall shut, and my body jolt out into a black void, then into a white hallway with doors, there was a silver door then a red one then one that look like it was made out of things you can find in a forest. The purple tent entrance catches my eye, and I try to peak in, but the flap wouldn't move with a sigh of disappointment I keep moving until a reach a door with the goddess on it she was bowing her head in a prayer and her halo lite this space in a blinding light. I open the door and there stood a woman her silver hair makes her black dress a dark empty space in the already bright room. I sigh, 'What is wrong with these people and bright f*****g rooms?' I groan and rub my eyes trying to adjust to the brightness. I hear that angelic voice chuckle and the light beings to dim. I mentally thank the goddess once again the voice rings out around me,

"You're welcome." I nearly jump ten feet high finally seeing the woman indeed a goddess, the goddess. I open my mouth to speak but then I hear my name being called from behind.

"Apheina!" I turn to see Angelo running towards me a large weight of reliefs washes over me and I run to meet him halfway my heart leaps out of my chest I was so happy to see him.