I don’t want to sit or stand, or to even move. I just want to stay laying on the bed after what happened. I wanted to pretend to be sleeping because of so many things.
First, I’m embarrassed, and I think that reaction was acceptable considering I also couldn’t believe how easily I let myself surrender to Yves’ seductive advances. Second, I was exhausted. I don’t want to count, but I know it’s enough for me to be exhausted. It’s enough to take all the strength I gained all day thinking of talking to my cousin.
It turned out, the strength I was trying to build up was used for another purpose, and it’s not to push him away from me. Third, I have no idea what will happen next. I should send him out because that’s the right thing to do. He shouldn’t be here. Another fight between him and Dio
