Paradoxical Love

Chapter 36: Another attempt

What was storming from within my mind was all the things Matilda did to me, it's twelve o'clock midnight and it is almost half-past one, I'm still wide awake unable to have a proper slumber.

In addition to my insomnia, my sister's weight doubled recently, she was on my chest as if I'm her pillow and she was dribbling down her cheeks sideways. To top it off, her hair's getting on my mouth causing me to get it out of my face every minute she turn over me again.

I moved meticulously so that she wouldn't wake up because she also had occasional insomnia, it's a good thing for her she could sleep before past eleven o'clock, now I'm the one who's suffering unable to fall asleep.

She's gripping on my arm harder than when she's awake, I can't attend to the call of nature as she has chained herself into me by embracing me as tightly as possible. I still attempted to move my arm away from her, I don't want to get muscle cramps, no one does.

It was an inch before I can get back my arm but then she grabbed my wrist and then she placed my palm on her soft chest. She's moving while she's asleep, I yanked my arm back to me yet she purposely set my forearm in her chest, between her mountainous bosom.

From my position, I could clearly view her cleft, her pale smooth skin just like her hair was a highly attractive point of her. I'm not dumb enough to not see my sister as a blossoming girl, it's just my respect for her reigns supreme than my manly instinct.

Either way, having her here sure is bothersome in every possible circumstance. Sometimes I think about what could happen if I sleep in her bedroom, she'd realize how annoying it is to have her sibling sleep in her comfort zone.

As if I'd be able to do such a thing, I closed my eyes before I get distracted again and have sleep deprivation in the morning. I'd better rest my mind for another day.

The next morning, the roosters from our neighbors were crowing endlessly, I woke up reaching for the alarm clock so that it wouldn't ring again.

I suddenly felt chills down my spine, my heart's beating faster when something cold touched across my chest up to my collarbone. I realize what was going on the moment Kiana bit the grape atop my chest causing me to recoil.

I'd never mistake it; she's faking her sleep again and taking advantage of the fact I will just forgive her afterward. She's taking it too far lately I should halt this before she puts another hickey on me.

"Get off Kiana!" I tried to get her off as softly and gently as I could.

My sister won't listen, she's way too immersed while she's nibbling my chest harder than she could. I shook her many times before it's too late, I don't want Matilda to suspect me that I'm sleeping with someone.

Technically my sister's beside me the entire night, but the motives aren't the same. I pushed her forcibly whether she'd like it or not, I won't tolerate her rash steps any further. 

"Kiana!" I flicked her forehead, that's what she gets for acting asleep. She better not make an excuse this time.

"Brother...? Why so loud early in the morning." Kiana's rubbing her eyes innocently, here I am helpless as I can't just blindly accuse her, the possibility that she's doing it completely conscious was plausible, though her acting's apparent and clear.

"You're doing something on your own while asleep again. Get a hint." I'm embarrassed to say she's nibbling my chest, I still have delicacy when it comes to such intimates points.

"Huh? What is it?" She's winking, I doubt she'd come out and tell me that it was her habit from the start.

I kinda sighed and let her off the hook, she's getting out of control lately I got used to it. I can't bring to ruin the day just because of my stupid hunch.

"Nevermind, aren't you the one in charge of the morning routine now? I want noodles with garlic; a few cloves will do." Getting ready early before going to school should be my priority now, she'd be the one to prepare our breakfast and lunch might as well take it easy from here.

"Yes, brother! I'll prepare it right away hehe." Kiana got up tiptoeing off my bedroom.

"Get it done," I told and she turned around flipping her ashen hair, she winked a few times and gave me some flying kisses before going to the kitchen. She's hyperactive as usual it means today will be a normal day.

But then she came back sticking out her head on the corner. "I almost forgot, good morning brother! Where's my morning kiss?"

"Get me breakfast first and you'll get it after." I simply agreed so she'd stop bugging me around.

"Really?!" Excitement was clearly visible from her wide grin, about to form a heart that seemed to have been struck by cupid. She really has a fondness for our relationship as a family and I'm glad she fancies someone like me, but there's always a limit to what she can cross.

I simply discerned that because she is my sister, Kiana wanted to become closer than we already have romantically. I'm not dense to not see her affection towards me, it's just I tend to ignore it in order to protect my familial connection with her that can't be replaced by anything in this world.

Eventually, I got up on my bed and went straight to the shower, I'll get late once I get drowned in my endless thoughts.

Until it was already noon, gazing at the encompassing skies, accompanied by the gentle breeze blowing on every falling flower petal, the leaves getting swayed along the tree branches were astonishingly mesmerizing.

I feel like I'm in a paradise. It's just annoying every time these leaves land on my head; my hair gets messy when it happens.

I'm here now, chilling outside Saint Barbatos' Hall, the title of our building. Of course, I'm in the usual spot where no one knows except that mischievous Crimson Princess.

I'm lucky she's not here to disturb my peace, she's busy farming materials in the game with the other club members. The Council President is also there right now, she should have a break from her responsibilities from time to time.

I turned the SPS on while I'm opening up this bag of lunch Helenia gave to us, it's the ham and egg sandwich that I should have eaten earlier but I got too absorbed in the game I forgot to partake alongside my carbonated coffee.

Looking at the green indicator from the network, I got impressed by the speed of the internet that it can reach even from here outside. She could be connected online within the campus wherever she wanted; convenient for her considering SLU might just be her playground.

Either way, the pop-up whisper-type message appeared on the screen which means someone sent a personal message. Before I joined their party, I checked whoever wants to speak with me in secret, hoping this isn't Helenia's attempt to make me fall for her.