The Billionaire's Ex Wife

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Abbigail's POV

I wish someone told me when I was younger that growing up was not as glamourous as people thought it was, it comes with one thing you cannot run away from, that thing is responsibility, part of being responsible means that you have to make decisions and sometimes very hard decisions, then comes consequences. Very much like the ones I was faced with right now. I hate everything that is happening and I don't know if I can stop it.

I think that the hard part about making difficult decision is the fact that you have to live with the decisions you make. I am not sure how my marriage with Theodore would have turned out but I know that when I decided to leave, I thought that I was doing the right thing, not only for me but for children as well. If only I could convince myself that I know that I did the right thing, for my heart to accept what my head already knows.

I also wish that there was an on and off switch that I could use to control the way I feel about Theo, I wish falling out of love with someone was as simple as hating him or being angry at him. I hate that I have to pretend like he was not the love of my life, to pretend that he never mattered to me when I knew that he meant so much to me. I have told everyone that I am over Theodore and I have had to keep up with that appearances.

"I still think that you should just let it go, I mean you got what you wanted right?" Linda asked me.

After a serious talk with my mother about me going to confront Theodore about the divorce papers, she convinced me to stay and really think about what I wanted to do and the impact it could have on my life, especially now since Theodore is said to be in a relationship. Ever since I saw that article, my mind has been Theodore and his new woman, I know that this is what I wanted but it really hurts to see him in love with someone who is not me.

I don't agree with the way Tracey handled things the first time around but I can't say that I blame her. I was fine all along because I didn't know what was happening in his love life, I chose to ignore him completely and now it looks like things have changed for me in a big way. I can't help how I feel and that is why this is so hard on me. I can't be happy knowing that he is happy with someone else, what scares me the most is that I think it's really serious.

I have been waiting for him to sign the divorce papers for weeks, infact I was eager for it, I wanted to close that part of my life, to forget about all the things that happened but I can't do it no matter how hard I try to. I didn't think that he would ever sign the papers but now that he did, I had a lot of questions suddenly popping up in my head. Questions like why he signed the papers now? Linda called last night to tell me that she had good news for me, this was the last thing on my mind.

We were now sitting in my living room with the divorce papers on the table, they had Theodore's signature on it, Linda told me that Theodore had made changes of his own and I haven't even checked them. I saw his signature and my heart sank, I couldn't hide it from Linda, she knew that I was not okay, even if I pretended to be.

"Yes this is what I want..." I said and put the paper back in the pile with others.

"Well atleast take a look at the changes... I thought that it was a good thing that he did." Linda said.

"What do you mean by that?" I asked her.

"Well first let me ask you this, how much money does Theodore have because this might be the biggest divorce settlement I have ever seen. " she said.

"What do you mean by that? I told you that I didn't want anything, please tell me that you didn't demand a settlement because I was clear when I said that I don't want you to negotiate anything on my behalf when it comes to money." I said.

"Relax... I know what you said you wanted, I would never go behind your back like that, Theodore agreed to sign the divorce papers only if certain conditions of his own where met, that includes the money and the properties." She said.

"He what? Why would he do something like that? I don't want his money." I said.

"Well you can return it but then your marriage contract would be broken and that will mean that you two are still married." she said.

"Wow! you see why I had to leave him? you see why I had to go? I mean he always has to have the last word! like I can't win with this man." I said in frustration.

"I don't even know why you are angry when the man is clearly trying to be nice to you." She said.

"No, it's not about him being nice, it's about him having the last word, having the satisfaction that he got to have the last laugh Afterall, he is practically forcing me to take this money. I don't want it." I said.

"Then that means that you two are both still married." She said.

"No... I will take the money but I won't use it, I will save it for the kids, you said something about property?" I asked her.

"Yes there's a house in the Hamptons, a house in Italy and finally a house in Hawaii... wow girl, that is very generous of him." she said.

"Or maybe it's not generosity at all, maybe it is his guilt that is eating him up inside, you know that man lied to me about everything! I mean so maybe he is just to make himself seem less shitty by trying to buy my forgiveness." I said.

"Maybe but either ways, you now have money, a lot of it." Linda said.

"I guess you are right." I said.

"Well you know I am..." I said.

"You know what? I think that it's time we went back home for good, I think that it's time that I stopped hiding from Theodore." I said.

"Please don't tell me that you are saying what I think you are saying." Linda said.

"What? he signed the divorce papers and he is moving on with his life, I like this place but I miss the city. I also think that I have punished Greyson enough, I think It's about time he saw how big our boy is." I said.

"Are you sure that you want to do this?" she asked me.

"Yes I am, Martin is going to be a teenager soon, I think that he needs his father in his life by then. " I said.

"What about the twins?" she asked me.

"What about them?" I asked her.

"Well are you going to tell Theo about them?" she asked me.

"You know, it you asked me this few days ago, when I was sure that I wanted to go and confront him maybe I would have said yes but that is not the case now." I said.

"So Greyson gets to see his son and Theodore does not get the chance to meet his babies?" She asked me.

"It's different okay? Greyson already knows that he has a son with me and even if he was a shitty person, I knew for sure that he is a great father but if I would have had things my way then I would have never told him about Martin, things would have been so much easier that way." I said.

"No, we both know that they wouldn't have been, I mean you have had to know that you had to tell him the truth at some point." Linda said.

"Look the twins are too young to ask questions, they have a full time nanny that means that I don't have to take them with me anywhere, if anything I could keep them in the house and no one would even know that I have kids." I said.

"You know what? that is crazy people talk, I think that you need to think this through first." she said and stood up.

"And where are you going? we are still talking here..." I said to her.

"Nope, I know you, you have already made up your mind, you are going to New York and now you want me to give you an opinion to validate your decisions but it is not going to work because I won't do that and I don't get why you are still this mad at Theodore." Linda said.

"You know what? You are right. " I said and then an idea popped into my head.

"You know what? I think that I am ready to work with your dad, for real this time." I said with a smile.

"So you want to join the company?" Linda asked with a smile.

"Well not really babe, I want him to join my company and work with me, I am going to New York and this time I don't want to work for anyone." I said with a smile.

Another I have been thinking about was going back to working full time, I love my babies but I think that now is the time I went back to doing what I love, being a house mother was not the plan. I need to get back on my feet. I think that when I left New York two years ago, I left behind my dreams and focused on being the best single mother I can be, I think that I might have even forgotten who I was and I need to get that woman back.

"Okay... good luck with that one." Linda said.

"You know what? I think that I better start looking for a place to live in, something nice, I am thinking about a nice house or a loft..." I said and sat down.

"Well worry no more, I have a friend who can sort all that out for you, I need a glass of wine, want one?" Linda asked me.

"Sure..." I said.

"One glass of wine coming right up." she said and went into the kitchen.

Is it crazy that I am hoping to see Theodore when I am back in the big Apple? I hope that I have that chance, even if it is for a short while. I just can't let anyone know about my true intentions as far Theo is concerned. I was mad at him and I never thought that I would ever feel anything for him again but I now know that I was wrong in that. That I had to do better for all of us. He is with Diana right now and that is one bitter pill to swallow.

I guess the knowledge of him being with another woman has forced me to rethink about a lot of things, it has forced me to faced feelings I didn't know I still had, to face the fact that I loved my husband no matter what his past was like. I mean I guess I could have been more understanding, maybe I should have given a chance to redeem himself but instead I ran away. I have never had to regret the decisions I make but now I am ashamed to feel that way. I have to think about the future, to think about the things I really want when I get to New York, I need to have a solid plan for my life and my children.