JOSHUA I see Lucy talk to the doctor and then collapse on the floor , and I feel like all my determination collapses with her , I immediately run to her side and try to get her to talk to me and explain what is happening , but she is sobbing so hard that it is impossible to distinguish a single word of what she is saying , so I turn my attention to the doctor with a questioning look and he seems to doubt for a moment whether it is appropriate to tell me or not , but in the end , my gaze persuades him to do so. " The studies that were carried out are not conclusive , but there is a high probability that his cancer has returned, " the doctor tells me in a low voice and quickly as if trying not to disturb Lucy even more. Shit. This is worse than I imagined. " Lu? " Ben's sm