A Night to Regret

Chapter 1: Positive

I blinked. Maybe I am just mistaken. Perhaps I am wrong from what I am seeing. I took a very deep breath before I looked into it again. I bit my lower lip and my eyes started to water as panic gripped me. I stood up in no time, agitated. I paced back and forth. I don't know what I am going to do. I let the tears flow through my eyes. I couldn't think properly because of this result that would crush my whole world.

"You're an idiot, Sky! You're such a fucking idiot!" I scolded myself. Even though I found it futile for me to do this, I still scolded myself. It already happened. I couldn't revoke what happened. There was no time machine invented in this era.

I heard the door opened and met Allison's eyes. Her eyes widened upon seeing me in my condition. "Sky? Why are you crying?" She hurriedly rushed beside me as she placed her hands on my shoulders. The confusion was all over her face. "Sky, what happened? Do you have any problems? What? Answer me!" She panicked and shook me.

That made me cry again seeing how worried she is. I couldn't help but mourn and hugged her. "Allison!" I cried to my heart's content. I need comfort right now. I need someone who will hug me right now. And I know that's Allison who could give me what I want. She's my comfort zone and my best friend.

I felt Allison's hand caressing my back, comforting me. "Shh. It will be okay, Sky. Shh. I'm here you know. It's gonna be alright." I cried more when she said that. It's not going to be fine. Everything is falling into pieces. Knowing the results scares me too much for my good.

I lulled after a moment. I placed a distance to our hug. She guided me to sit on the couch. She left for a while and brought me a glass of water. I drank until I consumed it. I fanned myself when I felt myself about to cry again. I took a deep breath as I calmed down myself.

I felt Allison's presence when she sat beside me. I know that she's waiting for me to explain but she just chose to be silent for a while. I felt like I wanted to cry again. My condition cannot be cured. It cannot be undone. I have to explain to her what is happening and why I cried.

"Here." I gave her the small thing that ruins my world just by seeing it. My hands were shaky as I gave that to her. She took, stared, and examined it. I waited for her to speak. But minutes passed, she hasn't talked. She's just looking at that thing.

"Allison, talk to me. Please... You're horrifying shit out of me." Tears started to pool my eyes when she said nothing but just looking at that thing I gave to her. What was on her mind? I wanted to know what she's thinking. I want to know if what I'm seeing is just an imagination for me and maybe for her.

"It's positive."

I think my tears retreated when Allison started to talk. I looked at her. She's not looking at me but at that thing, she was holding.

"A-Allison..." I called her name. I felt so nervous about her reaction to it. Just by thinking her reaction makes me want to cry then isolate myself from everyone because of humiliation.

"Sky, it's positive." She repeated it. Then, in an instant, she snapped her head to me. I almost fell back from my seat as she had this furious reaction. In my peripheral vision, I saw she clenched her fists.

I stood up and stepped backward. She stood up and placed her balled fists on my shoulders. I felt sickened from my place. My best friend is really angry.

"You're pregnant? How did that happen, Sky?" calmed yet scary asked Allison. Okay. I am really scared of her right after seeing her angry reaction. I didn't expect that she would have this kind of reaction like she wants to punch someone.

My tears instantly fell from my eyes and I removed her hands from my shoulders then I turned my back. I was just shaking my head not agreeing with what was happening right now. I'm going to be dead once my parents know about my condition.

"I-I don't know. Allison, I'm confused and shocked! This is your fault! Because of me being so fucking drunk, I didn't know that I had sex with someone I barely know!" I said angrily, emotions grilled me. I covered my face with my hands as I cried in shame. I don't know what I am going to do now. That pregnancy test result started to ruin me now.

"But... But you said..."

I faced her. I pointed my finger to her chest. "I lied, Allison. It's just a lie that I told you that I slept here in the apartment. I just woke up in a different room and found out I was in a hotel room. And I found myself, NAKED! AND THERE'S A BLOODSTAIN IN THE BEDSHEETS! ALSO, I FELT SO SORE DOWN THERE! Did you hear me, Allison?!! There's a bloodstain!!! It means, I'M NOT A VIRGIN ANYMORE WHEN I WOKE UP!!!" I shouted at the top of my lungs before I cried again. I roamed my eyes all over my surroundings as I was looking for something to throw away.  I want to throw something away that would ease this situation for a while. I am so annoyed and fucking mad! It's because of her! Because of her!!!

"I-I'm so..sorry, S-Sky. I-I didn't know that—"

"Because you're too busy partying and drinking liquor and you forgot you were accompanied by me." I looked away and tears rolled down my cheeks. Way back then, I saw how she did enjoy drinking and dancing to other men. She tagged me along with her and said things that I should relax for a while and she got my back. And that thing, I regret it. I regret that I went there. The result is me getting pregnant with someone I don't know who the damn guy I had sex with.

"N-No! Sky, no! No—" She tried to hug me but I kept on pushing her away. That ignites my madness to her so the next thing I did shock both of us.

I slapped her.

My eyes enlarged from what I just did to her. She held her cheek and looked at me, half-surprised, half-embarrassed.

I reached her. Guilt engulfed me as I saw the red mark on her cheek. "A-Allison... I... I didn't... mean to..." I immediately hugged her for what I did. "Sorry... I didn't mean to, Allison." I didn't mean to slap her. It's not my intention. It's just that my hand moved to its own accord and I already was too late to stop myself from slapping her.

I thought she's going to remove my hands from hugging her but I was shocked when she hugged me back. I heard her sniffing. "Ssshhh... I-it's okay, S-Sky... It's my fault for not taking care of you."

We both cried at what she said. I didn't expect she would understand me after all. And that, she accepted that it was her fault. But I contributed to what happened. I shouldn't have gone with her.

It's my fault I fell for the devil's words.

I shouldn't have been tempted. I should have chosen to study rather than partying with her. I didn't expect that going with my best friend to the bar would end the dreams of my parents.

I don't know what I'm going to do...