''Did I do something wrong?'' he asked and I took a deep breath.
''You didn't, I- l just, I'm sorry,'' I said moving back and just creating some distance between us because I lost control and I may have brought all this upon myself.
''Did I make you uncomfortable? You initiated the kiss so I thought it was OK. He was blaming himself and he had nothing to apologize for because I wanted the kiss and he didn't make me uncomfortable in any way I just can't handle what I felt.
''It's not you it's me I'm just not ready to--.'' I couldn't even say it. I don't know what to say because I don't know what happened between US and what I'm not ready for. I can't say that I'm not ready to love him because I already love him but I also can't stand here and say that I'm ready to see my feelings through
