Chapter 4
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"What are you talking about? That's impossible!" I shouted out of shock and Anger.
I don't seem to understand what the hell is happening right now. Bakit nangyayari lahat ng to ngayon.
"Manager K. Our Baranch there is very important and the President and Board assigned you there. All the money you needed, accommodation or anything, the Company will provide everything. Just do this one, okay? You know, how important this Project is. Submit your visa later after work and the paper I needed to get visa for your Daughter. "
"Secretary Jo! I didn't say I'll go. "
" You must not neglect this. Even if the President admired you' you can't neglect your responsibilities Manager K. "
" Where's Mr. Delious? Let's talk later. " Nanakit ang sintido ko sa biglaang patong-patong na trabaho.
Seriously? Bakit nangyayari to? Ilang taon akong nag-ingat at umiwas.
"What exactly happened to your past in that country that you hate it so much." I heard Secretary Jo's question and everything came back to my memory.
I close my eyes and turn my back at her. No' I won't go back to philippines. I managed to escape from there, there's no reason for me to go there and so is Karissa.
"You don't need to know. And I'll tell you this again. I won't go there."
That's what I said pero halos manlumo ako sa narinig ko ngayon' kay Delious. Naiwan akong walang karapatang huminde' Pakiramdam ko pinaglalaruan ako ng tandahana. Na kahit anong gawin g iwas o takbo ko, hinihila ako pabalik ng nakaraang iniwanan ko.
"I'm sorry Kaly." He's crying out of frustrations and I really want to cry too.
Who will thought that this nonsense is going to happen right now. Halos manlumo ako nang mas mabasa ang mga report tungkol sa Branch na nakatayo sa Pilipinas.
"You really need to stop your hobbies, Delious. Look what happened now. How can you trust one of our Branches to some stranger? "
" H–he told me he like me and that time I'm tired checking and reading papers.. He .. I—I thought he's different. " napahawak ako sa batok ko.
" You know what happend to my past' yet you still believe Men, like they are some loyal creature." Matabang ang bawat linya ko.
" Kalisa.. it's not like that. It doesn't mean nangyari sayo ay mangyayari narin saakin—" I cut him and snorted out' I am so mad right now.
"You're telling me that' while here we are, trying to figure out' what to do, to that Branch that nearly collapsing because of some random trash guy you just met and trusted?" I scan the report about the branch.
This is a mess. Halos iuntog ko na sa mesa ang ulo ko' kung ibang bansa to' I'm willing to go' I'll fix it kahit mag-isa lang ako. Pero yung idea'ng babalik ako sa Pilipinas.
Hindi ko maiwasang matakot. Our Work nature is close. Imposibleng hindi kami magkita. I— I don't want to see him.
I felt my anger risen when I read that there's a big clothing fashion show and the trash guy that managed the branch invited all of the famous model in the Philippines using The Company's name.
I glared at Delious. He's still looking at his phone. Is he waiting for that trash guy's message? Haa.. huminga ako ng malalim at pilit pinakalma ang sarili ko bago ako magsalita.
"How... can you do that? You gave him a full authority to managed that Branch? What nonesense is that—.... sigh' I'm sorry. It's just... You know exactly why I dipise the idea of going back there." Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at tahimik na inipon ang mga papel.
Aalis na sana ako nang makita ko ang pag-alog ng balikat niya. I clench my fist and run to hug him.
"Shh.. I'm sorry.. it's alright. He's not a good guy, stop crying because of him. I'm here.. calm down." I heard his cry getting louder and it makes my heart hurt too.
Delious loved so much. Kapag nagmahal siya siniaigurado niyang ibubuhos niya lahat, tiwala' pagmamahal' pera o ano pa.
But in the end, lahat ng minahal niya iniiwan siya' and he can't do anything but to cry.
He's too kind to take a revenge or get mad at them. He has the power and a good family but he's still looking for someone na magmamahal sakaniya.
"I'm sorry Kalisa." I nodded and hug him tightly.
" Stop saying sorry. The bad guy here is in the Philippines, L–Let's.. fix this. I'll help you." Tumingala ako nang nagsimula ng magbagsakan ang luha ko.
" What if... You see him there?" He's guilt is all written to his face. Umalis ako sa pagkakayakap sakaniya.
"I.. I don't know." Napayuko ako dahil kahit anong gawin ko, alam kong magtatagpo at magtatagpo ang landas namin.
Isipin ko palang na magkikita kami at makikita niya si Karissa, nahihirapan na kong huminga. What if' — what if Kunin niya si Karissa saakin? No. I don't want my child to get hurt.
"I have an idea. This is the only things I can do to repay you." I look at him and titled my head. Idea?
" What is it?"
" Let me pretend that I'm your Husband? And Karissa is our Daughter."
There's a long silence between us. Nagkatitigan lang kami and then sabay kaming napa-bunghalit ng tawa.
"Hahaha what are you saying? H-husband? Hahaha you? Oh my gosh Hahaha."
" Stop laughing haha. I'm serious okay? If the situation gets hard for you to hide Karrisa, Use me. Okay? I'm really am sorry for this one. So, let me do that." Oh' he's serious.
Tumayo ako at binitbit ang mga papers na kailangan kong aralin if I want to finish the job quickly and go back here. Tiningnan ko si Delious na nakatitig lang din saakin.
"Okay. Fine. Let's use that method kapag naipit lang tayo sa mahirap na sitwasyon with him."
" Okay."
" I'll go na. Go talk to your Mom and Dad. Beg them for forgiveness and make sure to say you love them. You see? Even if you make mistakes they're still there loving you. So' stop wasting your love for the men out there. We are here to love you endlessly ' you don't need Men like that."
"You see." mapait siyang ngumiti at tumingin sa kawalan. "I want to have someone right beside me, loving me and holding my hand. I— do.. want that kind of affection. But after this incident, I think' It's impossible for me to have that kind of—" mabilis kong tinakpan yung big niya.
"No. Stop it. It's not true at all. You deserve to be love too. And I'm sure there's someone out there na magmamahal sayo, katulad ng pagmamahal' na binibigay mo." I don't want him to believe something like that.
Ayokong maging love hater siya'. Hindi ganon ang Delious na nakilala ko.
"So, stop thinking that it's impossible for you to find someone. Just be carefull next time." He started crying again and we stay like that for another hour.
After giving all the Documents to Jo' for Karissa's Visa. Dumaan muna ako ng Mall to buy a small bag for Karissa. This is her first travel out of the country.
I saw a pink glittery bag and A pink winter coat and boots, napangiti ako isipin ko palang ang magiging reaksiyon niya pag nakita niya to.
She's too fond on Pink. She loves Disney so much but her love for Barbie is unconditionally haha. Napadaan ako sa mirror ng isang make up brand. And there I saw my reflection.
Round big eyes, white pale skin and a long straight hair. My looks is still the same after all those years
Kahit gusto kong magpagupit, everytime na maiisip ko kung
gaano ka- gusto ni Dad ang buhok ko, hindi ko magawang ipaputol.
And I understand my Dad now. Touching and combing my Daughter's hair gave me a happy feelings inside.
Pagkarating ko sa Bahay naabutan kong nanunuod ng TV sa Karissa while eating some grapes and apples. I kiss her cheeks na nakapag-patalon sakaniya. Natawa ako dahil kahit gulat' ang cute niya parin.
"Mommy you big minnie." Natawa ako at niyakap siya ng mahigpit.
" I'm sorry. Mommy just miss you and.. can I talk to you for a moment?" She look at me with those round big deep blue eyes of her.
"Owkey Mommy." Binigay niya saakin yung remote ng tv para patayin yung tv.
Binuhat ko siya' at iniupo sa kandungan ko ng nakaharap saakin. Her small body is so soft and fragile. I hold her small face and smile at her... don't worry my child' I'll protect you.
"We are going to the Philippines the next day. "
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