Sa Kama ni Bayaw

13

Claire’s

Pathetic. If there is one thing to describe what I’m feeling right now, I feel so pathetic. Growing up surrounded by people who showed their care, support, and appreciation towards me, it’s so funny that Claire dela Fuerte is jealous of some woman she didn’t even know personally.

Because that woman was Sebastian’s girlfriend!

And her boobies are way bigger than yours, that’s why!

I groaned in annoyance and threw the crumpled paper into the garbage bin. I’ve been trying to come up with a beautiful design for hours now, and to my frustration, I couldn’t create one.

Masama na ang tingin ko sa basuran na umaapaw.

Maharas akong bumuntong hininga at kumuha ng panibagong bond paper at inis na nag-drawing ng kung ano-ano na lang. Doon ko inilabas lahat ng inis at galit na nadarama ko.

I don’t think this would work. I’m stuck here the whole day but all I do is think about what I witnessed last night.

Nakakadiri ang lalaking iyon! Hindi na nahiya at gumawa pa ng kalaswaan sa mismong party ng mommy niya!

These are all new to me. I’ve never felt such kind of insecurity when I got the chance to see the girl who was with Sebastian. Mama Amalia introduced her to us and imagine my shock when I learned that she was Sebastian’s girlfriend. A Mexican model and endorser, she was his girlfriend for a year now and mama said Sebastian was going to propose to her soon.

Tumayo ako nag-tungo sa banyo at tiningnan ang sarili ko sa salamin. Not contented with what I saw, I stressed off my clothes until I’m naked. I have a slender body like most of the models. Mas matangkad lang ng kaunti ang Sylvie na iyon dahil foreigner siya.

Hinawakan ko ang magkabilang dibdib at pinisil iyon. My breast may not be that huge but it is round and full. Hindi naman ako flat. And I got pink n*****s.

I turned around and wiggled my butt in front of the mirror. Now, this is what I’m talking about. Hindi ako mahuhuli kung balakang at puwit ang pag-uusapan. This is actually one of my assets, having wide hips and round buttocks.

I stopped wiggling my butt when I realized I look like a fool, comparing myself to that woman.

You’re really pathetic, Claire!

“Claire?” I heard Niu entered the room. Agad kong inayos ang sarili at lumabas sa banyo.

I saw him sitting at one of the vacant couches, and there’s a glass of milk on the table.

“Thought you might need this,” he said and pointed the milk.

“Thank you,” I said as I settled myself beside him. I admit Niu is a good husband. Mabait naman siya ay maaalahanin. I never heard rumors of him having an affair, and for that, I feel guilty for having this kind of attraction towards his brother.

“Manang said you were here the whole day.” Kinuha niya ang kamay ko pinatong ang mga ito sa hita niya. His hand is warm, and it somehow made me feel good.

“Yeah, may tinatapos kasi akong design,” sagot ko. He caressed my hands with his big and warm hands.

He scooted beside me; our thighs touched.

“Is there something bothering you?” tanong niya sa akin.

Umiling ako at ngumiti ng pilit sa kanya. Much as I wanted to let out this feeling, I can’t tell him that I’m attracted to his brother.

“Wala naman, hindi ko lang talaga makuha ang saktong desinyo para d’yan kaya natagalan,” tugon ko.

Humilig ako sa balikat niya at ipinikit ang mga mata. Ngayon ko lang yata naramdaman ang pagod sa buong araw ko na pagtatago dito. I did not exert physical effort but my mind and emotions are stressing me out.

“Know that you can always tell me whatever’s bothering you,” anito. Sumandal kaming dalawa sa couch. He started to caress my hair with his free hand.

What if we’ll make this marriage to the next level? Alam ko na hindi namin mahal ang isa’t-isa pero baka iyon lang ang paraan para mawala itong nararamdaman ko. I wanted this gone because this will make things complicated.

“Niu?” mahina kong sabi sa kanya. Kinakabahan. “

“Hmm?” he hummed, still caressing my hair.

“Let’s make love,” bulong ko at humarap sa kanya. Tiningala ko ang mukha niya at nakita ko ang pagkalito niya sa sinabi ko.

He was shocked.

“Huh?”

“Ang sabi ko, let’s make love. You wanted a son, right?” patuloy kong sinabi at unti-unting kumalas sa kanya.

“Yes, but I know you’re not yet ready. And you ask me to give you time to think about it,” alanganin niya tugon.

I know this is an impulsive move but I’m not thinking straight right now. All I wanted is to get this insecurity out of my system.

“Well, I’m ready now,”

“Are you sure? Wait, okay ka lang ba talaga?” taranta niyang tanong. Parang gusto niyang dumistansya sa akin pero pinigilan ko siya. I was clouded with jealousy to even think about morals.

Gusto kong gumanti.

I didn’t give him time to process everything I said. I straddled him and attacked his lips.

Niu was shocked by my bold move. For a moment he was rendered immobile but when I poked his closed lips with my tongue, that’s when he responded and opened his mouth. I used that opportunity to explore his mouth with my tongue. Niu became aggressive and our tongue fought for dominance.

Maybe I could get rid of this feeling if I get physical with Niu. I need to divert this.

Niu tightened his hold on my hips as he devoured my lips.

Mainit ang halikan naming. Our tongues danced in lustful rhythm. Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi niya at tinumbok ang kanyang panga patungo sa leeg niya. He tilted his head giving me the space I needed to kiss and lick his neck.

He moaned when I sucked the crook of his neck. Mahina siyang napamura sa ginawa ko.

“Claire, wait.” He pushed me a little making a distance between us. Nakaupo pa rin ako sa kandungan niya. His face is flushed and I saw confusion with a hint of arousal written on his face. Parang hindi niya alam ang gagawin. It’s like he wanted to stop me but he can’t.

“Let’s just do this, please,” I begged him. I needed this.

His eyes bore into mine, for a moment I saw the hesitation on his face but it was replaced with burning desire when I started to grinned my hips on his growing bulge. His hard manhood was poking into my entrance and he groaned when I slipped my hands inside his shirt and started to play with his n*****s.

“You asked for this,” he said before he crashed his lips into mine with raw passion and intense hunger. Hindi ko alam pero sa paraan ng paghalik niya ay nakadama ako ng takot. And for some reason, I felt guilty for using him.

Patuloy ang halikan namin hanggang sa ihiga niya ako sa couch. He settled above me and pressed his raging hard-on on my stomach, he moaned again at the contact.

I closed my eyes and welcome his every assault on my lips. His lips traveled down to my neck and he lowered the strap of my top. My breast was exposed to him since I’m not wearing a bra. Agad niyang isinubo ang tuktok ng dibdib ko. I felt his tongue danced at the crown of my breast.

I just closed my eyes when he sucked and nipped my pebbled n****e.

I know this is the right thing to do. This is what I need to do.