My Love, Darkness

Chapter 47

HINDI alam ni Titus kung anong ginagawa ni Phoebe sa kaniya. He was so confused as he keep his eyes shut closed while Phoebe continues to shamelessly rub her covered mound to his bulge.

"Fu-f**k, yes," he said as Phoebe continues.

He is seriously torn and confused. He doesn't know if what he is doing is right or wrong. Hindi niya alam kung ano ang ginagawa ni Phoebe sa kaniya at pakiramdam niya ay mababaliw siya sa mumunting sarap na dumadaloy sa katawan niya.

What Phoebe's doing is something he's feeling good but also felt so wrong because he was never this close to a mortal woman. Kahit kailan ay wala nang nakalapit sa kaniya na babae sa buong ilang taon na nagpaka-busy si Titus sa trabaho niya bilang grim reaper.

Now that he met Phoebe again, he knows everything that he has managed to control is back at zero. Hindi na naman siya mahihiwalay lalo na't sa nakita niya ay hindi napabuti si Phoebe sa ginawa niyang desisyon.

He felt like he just wasted those years. Dapat pala ay hindi na lang niya ito iniwan. Phoebe could have been the teenage girl who is serious and not into adventures that leads to danger.

Ngayong nakilala niyang muli si Phoebe bilang babaeng lakwatsera at pasaway, gusto niyang sisihin ang sarili niya. Pakiramdam niya ay naging walang kuwenta lang ang sakripisyo at desisyon niya para sa dalaga.

Seeing Phoebe again in a nightclub where people mingle mixed with danger also wearing sinful clothes and looking like a b***h, his mind is totally blown away.

Because for the past years he suffered thinking of Phoebe and what's the best comes into a waste.

Kung ganito lang rin pala na mag-iiba pala ang Phoebe na nakilala at prinotektahan niya ay hindi na lang sana siya umalis. Hindi na lang sana nasayang at sana ay nabantayan pa rin niya si Phoebe.

Now that the Phoebe he's with right now changed, he became pissed.

Mabilis niyang ibinuka ang kaniyang mata at tinulak si Phoebe paalis sa ibabaw niya.

Phoebe stumbles down from her bed and her butt hit the hard tiled floor. "A-aw! s**t!" Phoebe cursed.

Agad na nakaramdam ng pag-aalala si Titus nang makita na hinihimas ni Phoebe ang pang-upo nito. Mabilis niyang nilapitan ang dalaga at hinaplos ang braso nito. "Damn, sorry. Does it hurt?"

Phoebe looked at him, anger is visible in her eyes. "Why the f**k did you pushed me?!" Phoebe abruptly stood up that made him step back, suddenly feeling nervous again.

"Yo-young lady, don't you raised your voice on me."

Phoebe smirked that made him gulped again. "The hell I care..." Phoebe walks toward him and slides both of her arms to his neck before looking at him straight in his eyes.

"I want to kiss you," Phoebe said, making his eyes widen.

Even before he can say a word, Phoebe's soft lips brush to his. Napakalambot ng labi nito habang mainit siya nitong hinahalikan.

He felt like his being malfunctioning. He doesn't know what to do. He doesn't know what is right and wrong. He doesn't know if he wants Phoebe to stop or not.

All he know is that he was so drawn to Phoebe that he wants to give her what she wanted.

He kissed her back. He snaked both of his hands to Phoebe's waist and hold her closer to him. He sighed as he continues to taste Phoebe. Tongue-seeking and smoochy kisses, Titus felt so lost by pleasure for the first time.

Phoebe pushed him again to sit on her bed. Hindi siya nagsalita at pinanood ang dalaga sa gagawin nito.

He did not speak when Phoebe unzipped her ripped pants. Matapos nitong hubarin ang ripped pants, Phoebe stood proudly in front of him.

And Titus gulped as he takes the enticing sight of Phoebe in front of him. Phoebe is really beautiful indeed. Sobrang layo na nito sa thirteen-year-old na Phoebe na iniwanan niya noon.

kung dati ay maliit at medyo may pagka-payatin ito, ngayon naman ay mas lalong nadepina ang mga kurba ng katawan nito. Phoebe gained height and her body looks so sexy for him at the moment.

Fuck, how come she's this beautiful? Titus blows a loud breath as he watches Phoebe's next move.

Hinawakan ni Phoebe ang lock sa likod ng suot nitong brassiere habang hindi pinuputol ang mainit nilang tinginan.

Phoebe was supposed to pull down her brassiere but before she can even make it, Titus quickly stops the time.

Titus looks away at Phoebe's nakedness in front of him as he realizes what he is doing is wrong.

"What the f**k am I doing? I can never touch Phoebe..." Napabuntong-hininga siya habang kinakain ng kalungkutan ang isip niya. "I can never touch Phoebe the way I wanted. She was so out of my league."

Malungkot na tumingin si Titus kay Phoebe kapagkuwan ay kinuha ang comforter nito sa kama at ibinalot ito. Pagkatapos niyang ibinalot ang dalaga sa comforter nito, inihiga niya ito sa kama.

Dahan-dahan siyang umatras palayo kay Phoebe kapagkuwan ay napabuntong-hininga. Titus continues the time. Phoebe looks surprised to see that she's inside her comforter, secured and covered.

Masama na naman siya nitong tinapunan ng tingin. "What the f**k is wrong with you?! I wanted to--"

"You will not remember meeting a jerk who you kissed in your room. You will remember running alive out of the nightclub shootout and made it into your room safely," Titus said as he erases Phoebe's memory who is now quiet and has a blank expression on her face.

Mabigat ang loob na tumalikod siya kapagkuwan ay nag-teleport sa tapat ng bahay ni Larid.

Nang makapasok sa bahay ni Larid, agad niya itong nakita na nakahiga sa couch habang kumakanta.

Every night in my dreams

I see you, I feel you

That is how I know you go on

Napakunot-noo siya nang makitang ang mukha ni Larid habang dinadamdam nito ang pagkanta.

Far across the distance

And spaces between us

You have come to show you go on

Titus smirked as he enjoys to watch Larid sang. Nakapikit pa ang mata ni Larid habang kumakanta. Hindi niya talaga ito mapipintasan dahil na rin sa maganda talaga ang boses nito, mapa-rock o mellow.

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more, you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

Naiikot ni Titus ang mata kapagkuwan ay napatawa.Titus saw the bottled water just near Larid's head. He smirked before manipulating the bottled water to drop on Larid's head.

"What the f**k?!" Larid said as his eyes turned to Titus. "The heck is your problem, dude? And why are you here so early?" Tumingin si Larid sa pambisig nitong orasan.

"Something happened," ani Titus na ikina-angat ng tingin sa kaniya ni Larid.

"What is it? Did you accidentally kill someone again? Or did you steal? I swear, I'm gonna f*****g turn you over to the poli--"

"I met Phoebe again."

Titus expects to see Larid confused or what but Larid did not show him any emotion. Nakatingin lang ito sa kaniya na para bang alam nito na mangyayari iyon.

"Don't you have any reaction? Question?" tanong niya na sinagot ni Larid ng pag-iling.

"Saw it coming. Maliit lang talaga ang mundo, Titus," ani Larid kapagkuwan ay napatawa. "So what does Phoebe looks like right now?"

Agad na napailing si Titus sa tanong ni Larid. "She changed, big time."

"Dude, nothing is permanent in this world except change. But how much she changed? Was it bad? Does your decision of leaving her alone paid off?" Larid said with a curious tone.

Titus shook his head as he takes the seat in front of Larid's couch. "No, she changed in a bad way, Larid. And I'm pissed. I thought leaving her will help her for good."

Larid sighs with sympathy for him. "That's okay, bud. Don't blame yourself. It's not your fault that she changed. It's normal for mortals to change the way they wanted. And she wanted it so cheer up, okay?"

"Nah, I don't know if I'm gonna be okay right now," Titus said that made Larid laugh.

"It's okay not to be okay, mate." Larid stood up. Lumapit ito sa refrigerator sa kusina kapagkuwan ay naglabas ng dalawang beer nang bigla itong tumigil at tumingin sa kaniya. "Wait, beer or scotch?"

"Can I get both tonight?" problematic pero natatawang sabi ni Titus.

Umiling naman si Larid tila natatawa rin sa inaakto ng kaibigan bago inilabas ang scotch at kumuha ng isang babasaging baso pagkatapos ay inilapag sa mesa na nasa harapan nila.

"Let's drink, all right? Forget Phoebe then remember her tomorrow. Just what I said earlier, it's not your fault," sabi ni Larid na sinagot naman ng pagtango ni Titus.

"Okay," he said before taking his first shot. Titus slightly cringed when the bittersweet taste of the beer stayed on his throat.

Napatawa si Larid sa reaksyon niya. "Still not used, I see?" Then Larid continues to laugh.

"Of course, hindi naman ako pala-inom, stupid," sagot niya na mas lalong ikinatawa ni Larid.