My Love, Darkness

Chapter 70

NAPANGUSO si Kellan matapos makita ang mabilisang pagte-teleport ni Titus sa kung saan man lupalop ng mundo.

How dare that ungrateful punk left me here, of all places, in the middle of Larid's rage? Napabuntong-hininga si Kellan kapagkuwan ay naglakad palapit sa couch at humiga.

Pagod na pagod siyang inihiga ang kaniyang sarili para maging komportable ngunit agad din siyang napabangon nang maramdamang may tumama sa noo niya. Naasar na napahawak si Kellan sa nananakit niyang noo pagkatapos ay napatingin sa plastic na bottled water.

Nanggigigil na kinuha ni Kellan ang botilya kapagkuwan ay niyupi ito sa kamay niya. "Who the f**k just threw this bottle in my face?!" he furiously said before darting his gaze to Larid who is grinning at him nonchalantly.

"Don't you have anywhere to go?" nakataas ang kilay na tanong ni Larid habang nakangisi.

"Just let me rest for five minutes, okay?" Muling itinumba ni Kellan ang kaniyang sarili sa couch at napabuntong-hininga. "I'm so tired I feel like my energy is draining if I used it once again."

Larid tsked in annoyance. "I don't care. You have your barracks but you kept coming to my house!"

Napapikit si Kellan pagkatapos ay ipinatong ang kaniyang ulo sa kaniyang braso. "It's because it is colder in here. I like cold places. Unlike the Philippines, it's so hot in there. I wish my papers can be processed so that I could transfer in here."

"Tsk, tsk. Go throw yourself in Alaska if you like cold places, idiot. You can even dig a grave and bury yourself in there," asar na sagot ni Larid sa kaniya na narinig naman niyang ikinatawa ni Leila.

"Why so harsh to your friend, Larid?" natatawang tanong ni Leila na agad naman ikinangiti ni Kellan.

Larid is so lucky. Kellan envies him in a good way. Seeing both of his friend having their lover back from their past lives again, it is making him feel a little out of place and envious with the fact that his friends have a reason to live normally while he was only roaming around, hunting and reaping and collecting souls which are so boring because he was used doing it for many years.

Nasanay na lang siyang gigising ng maaga, kakain at pagkatapos ay iikotin ang buong siyudad para maghanap ng kakaluwang kukunin para ihatid sa barko ni Charon. He have grown tired of his daily routine until he had a chance to enter the world of mortals.

Inside a nightclub, that's where he met a woman who made him feel different things for the first time. Feelings that he shouldn't be feeling. Thoughts that should not be running circles in his mind after the night he shared with a mortal who enticed him in just one glance, eye to eye.

He admits he can never forget the woman. The woman who helped know to know what kind of life mortals have. A dancer who has nothing to lose after being alone all along. The mortal woman he met is someone who isn't living with anyone.

No family to rely on. No partner to share her feelings with. No friends to help her survive.

Nalaman niyang lumaki ang babaeng mortal sa bahay-aliwan na walang kinikilalang magulang kung hindi ang babaeng nagturo dito para sumayaw ngs sensuwal sa harap ng mga lalaking ginagamit lang ang mga babae. A hooker.

The woman was embarrassed about the life she has to the point she doesn't want him to know her name, that's why he would only call her beauty. By the time she told him everything. Every dark secret and sad moments, it wasn't her only options and choosen paths in life that made him put his distance towards her, it's love. He's afraid he has fallen in love with a mortal.

Love that Kellan must not even waste time thinking. He's a grim reaper. He chooses to be a grim reaper by the time he ended his life. Of course, hindi niya alam ang rason. No grim reapers remembered their past life unless they have been chosen to be played by the Gods.

He met some grim reapers who remembered who they are, what kind of life they playing, and the people who are connected with them but, all of them ended up being convicted because of disobedience and being connected to the persons whom they shouldn't be connected.

For Kellan, being a grim reaper means being restricted, tortured, and enslaved. Slave by the fact that they are only reborn to serve the God of Death without knowing how long they needed to work just to have a chance of being reincarnated. In his case, he's been reaping souls for almost three hundred years and counting.

Matagal na siyang naglalakad sa mundo ng mga mortal ngunit hanggang ngayon ay hindi niya pa rin napagbabayaran ang kasalanang ginawa niya. Iisa lang naman ang dahilan kung bakit nagiging grim reaper ang isang tao. Ang pagpatay sa sarili ay napakalaking kasalanan ngunit ang haba ng kanilang pagtatrabaho ang tanging bagay na naiiba.

He doesn't even know what kind of judging and process their higher-ups do to know and vary how long will they need to wait to be reincarnated.

Noong panahong namulat siya at nag-train para hasain ang kaniyang sarili sa paggamit ng sarili niyang karit, wala siyang pakialam sa kung anumang napagtatagumpayan niya dahil matatawag niya lang na tagumpay na siya sa oras na tanggapin na ng kataas-taasan ang haba ng panahong ibinigay niya para pagsilbihan ang panginoon ng kamatayan na walang iba kung hindi si Thanatos.

Kaya naman naging mabait siya at masunurin sa kahit anumang mission ang kasali siya. He always makes sure that he does his best but after knowing the woman and the night he has with her, he became more addicted to seeing her each day.

It's like, she became the first-ever reason to make him a bad boy. To break every rule his boring job has. To be more sinful every time he shares a steamy but rough making love with a lovely mortal. To be normal and happy with the simple things he shares with a woman. Indeed, he became the bad boy he never thought he will be.

Lagi niya itong binibisita at kahit papaano ay pinasaya siya nito hanggang sa may nangyari sa babaeng mortal. For the first time in his life being a grim reaper, he never felt scared just like what he felt after seeing that the beautiful hasn't come home yet.

Every midnight is the only time they own each other without being interrupted. Kaya naman labis ang kaba na nararamdaman niya habang naghahantay sa pag-uwi ng dalaga sa nirerentahan nitong bahay Morning came but the beautiful mortal isn't still home.

Mali na hinintay niya ang dalaga na makauwi pa ito dahil ang mismong matalas niyang pakiramdam sa paghahanap ng kaluluwa ang mismong naghatid sa kaniya sa unang babae na minahal niya. Nakaratay ito sa kama ng isang hospital. Malamig ang katawan at walang buhay.

That day was the first day he felt so gloomy. Hindi siya umiyak at tila mas lalong naging madilim ang buhay niya habang nakatingin sa katawan ng babaeng minahal niya habang nakabalot ang buong katawan nito sa puting tela.

She died because of a gunshot that goes straight to her heart. Natagpuang patay ang babaeng mortal sa isang kalsada habang pauwi ito. Habang nag-iiimbistiga din ang mga pulis, napag-alaman na ninawakan ang dalaga. May patunay ng paglaban ng dalagang mortal para sa buhay nito ngunit iyon rin mismo ang sinasabing dahilan ng pagkamatay nito.

By the time the woman he loves is going to be buried. He saw her as a soul. Siya ang naatasang magdala sa babaeng mortal patungo sa napakalaking barko ni Charon. He was hesitant to let her go to the point he became irrational and asked the woman he loves to stay as a missing soul but it seems like the woman he loves is already tired.

Ang pag-amin nito ng pagmamahal sa kaniya ang nakapagpatigil sa kaniya para udyukin itong manatili sa mundo ng mga mortal. Hiniling ng pinakamamahal niyang babae ang isang bagay na kahit kailan ay hindi niya matatanggap.

Gusto ng babaeng mortal na pakawalan siya nito. Gusto na nito maging malaya mula sa paghihirap at kalungkutan na ipinaranas ng tadhana sa mga oras na iyon. She made it clear to him that she can't stay in the living world because if she does, she may never be reborn again.

Mawawalan ito ng pag-asang mabuhay muli sa susunod nitong buhay.

And that is something that Kellan doesn't want to take away from her. He knows that if someone deserves anything, it is the woman she loved. She deserves to be reborn again as someone who is super lucky and blessed.

Kaya kahit pa nasasaktan siya sa pag-alis ng unang babaeng nagpatibok ng puso niya, itinatak niya rin sa kaniyang isipan ang kasalanang hindi niya dapat ginawa simula umpisa pa lang.