THE SUN was already high outside when I woke up disoriented. Agad ako napapikit nang makitang mag-isa lang ako sa kama. The bittersweet relief that went through me was palpable. I don't want to face Alex with this guilt I was feeling.
I was surprised to found him at home when I came back from the hospital yesterday. Maaga siyang umuwi dahil gusto raw niyang kumain sa labas, pero hindi rin kami natuloy dahil nagsisimula ng dumilim nang dumating ako.
I was already thinking of what to tell him if he started to ask question where I went. But to my surprise, he never did. But I knew he was just waiting for me to say something. I guess he’s trying to tell me he trusts me, and that I should trust him too.
But it's not him that I don't trust―it's me.
Sa isang buntong ay bumangon ako at nahagil
