Kalai Learning that Rezzik and I lost our offspring felt like death inside of me, my very soul, that I was filled with incomprehensible helplessness, rage and irrational reproach, blaming him for what happened when in fact it wasn’t his fault. I had no idea if it was due to the spell I was under or it was just my own, from within, that I felt like this. However, when I realized it was actually Ydraz I hurt, and eventually killed, everything became clear to me. It was like the spell was undone because of what I’ve done. Earlier, I was the one who lacked the mental clarity. Ydraz’s blood was in my hands, and now I couldn’t accept it happened! But the ironic thing was that no one blamed me, not even