LAVENDER'S POV
My trauma. The memory of my mother leaving back then has made me emotionally traumatized. Autophobia which at first, I’m denial that I have it and that Mom leaving me has only made me think of myself but who am I kidding.
Although the past few years have made me get better, I’m still unable to form any kind of relationship. I have made myself busy. Only thinking about passing any test to achieve being a certified caregiver and working so that I can help Dad with his medical needs. I’m in denial that I am terrified of being hurt again because of the person I have been allowed to be with. And I hate the fact that I can think of helping others while I can not even help myself.
But now, I want to help myself. I want to help myself before letting myself be happy again. I don
