Lavender

Chapter 19 - Daisy

LAVENDER'S POV

I mean, who would not? Damon made it clear to me that he also needed my help when he asked about helping him to be connected with his sister again. And I'm not heartless to not help him. Even if he is the one I humiliated back then for running away from him, clearly rejecting his confession, I will still help him with his sister because why not?

It feels good to help people and help them be happy again, but what I'm not sure about is Daisy's reaction once she found out that I have this goal to help them be bonded again as brother and sister. As I know that some people wouldn't want to be helped until they ask someone to.

And it's valid to Daisy to think that Damon just hired me to have him connected with him as it is true but it doesn't also mean that I don't want to be friends with her. It just this idea that Damon wants me to help him be connected to his sister that is making me hard to be honest with Daisy but just like what I have thought earlier, being honest with my thoughts to Daisy can be a reason to make her start her trust on me as I really do want to be someone Daisy is able to open up.

Sighing, I look up to Daisy who is now continuing to put colors on her canvas. I moved a little forward to take a peek at what she was painting and I couldn't help but feel amazed as I watched her blend the color of blue and purple.

"Daisy, is it okay if I ask you something first?" I said, watching her stroke more colors of purple and blue in the canvas in front of her.

"Yeah, sure. You know, it's okay if you don't want to answer my question earlier. I will not force you to answer me, I'm just curious. I respect you and whatever it is that you're thinking," she said, smiling as she continued to do more strokes on her canvas.

"No, no. I will answer you but it's just, I just want to know what your thoughts first about what I'm going to ask, is... is it okay with you?"

"Yeah..." Daisy said nonchalantly. "Sure, Lavender. Ask away," she said, not stopping on what she was doing and continuing to put colors on her painting.

"Uh, just like I said earlier. What I'm thinking about are you and your brother. Uh, I know how messed up the sibling relationship you had with Damon but..." I inhale deeply before exhaling. "Do you still want to fix this sibling relationship you have with Damon? Are you still hoping that one day, you and Damon are able to bond together as siblings?"

After Daisy heard what I said, she stilled and lowered her brush and palette away from the canvas. Her eyes stayed at the canvas in front of her, making me scared, big time. Oh, s**t! Did I make her angry with what I said?

Damn it, Lavender. I cursed to myself as I could feel my heart beating fast because of nervousness. Damn! I should have stayed silent. Now, Daisy is not going to trust me. s**t!

"I want to fix my relationship with my brother, Lavender," Daisy suddenly said with her low voice, making my eyes widen.

Oh, god! Daisy still wants to be with Damon. She still wants to fix her relationship with her brother but what makes me confuse is why she stayed quiet about it.

Daisy turned to face me, her face was now sad as she looked at me with her eyes that I know is showing longingness for her brother. "I want to have the moments where I can freely hug Damon as he was the sweetest brother to me, Lavender. I may have hated him but I miss him, Lavender. I miss my brother," she said as I watched her eyes start to water.

I immediately stood up from the round sofa, feeling my heart clenching as I took steps towards her and instantly hugged her as she also hugged me back. Oh, god! I can't see this girl cry. I feel like my heart has also been stab. I want to protect her from any harm or pain but this girl has also been through a lot. She has dealt with it even if I'm not still her caregiver, so I admire her.

I love how strong a woman Daisy is, and she may be feeling down because of her condition that is limiting her move forward but starting today, I will do anything also to help her move forward. As I am here now, I will do everything to keep Daisy safe from any danger.

"Shh, now, Daisy. Sorry that I asked about this but don't worry..." I trailed off as I let go of Daisy and looked at her eyes, that is kind of enticing for me. "I will help you with Damon. I think Damon is still the same as he is back then, Daisy. He's just, finding it difficult to express his feelings and thoughts to you because he feels ashamed that he wasn't there when you need him the most."

Half guesses. Though I think, maybe I'm right as it can be one of the factors on why Damon can't even talk to his sister. I noticed how Damon reacts whenever Daisy is sarcastic towards him for the days that have already passed. He's always stern and serious but I can see it in his eyes that he is affected by Daisy's words. That he was hurt but he was only hiding it for I don't know what his reason is.

I mean, isn't it weird that he wants to have a good relationship again with his sister but he stayed silent and stern that is so unlike the Damon that everyone used to see. For me, Damon should have realized this. He should have known that his relationship with his sister must be fixed as they are the only ones left for each other.

My forehead creased when suddenly, Daisy started shaking her head, making me confused. "What? What is it, Daisy?"

Daisy steps back a bit as she brushes off the tears forming in her eyes before wiping off her soaking wet cheeks. She was still sobbing, however her tears started slowing from streaming down her cheeks.

"Sorry about that, Lavender. Now, your clothes have paint on them," she said, chuckling that also made me laugh a little as I looked at my tee-shirt and track pants that were painted because of the paint color that was also on Daisy's white XL tee-shirt.

"Oh, that's okay. Don't worry," I said and Daisy just nodded as she looked at me before turning her back on me and sitting on the other round sofa and sighs.

"I'm angry with Damon, Lavender. But of course..." she smiles when she trained her eyes on the ground, playing both of her hands unconsciously. "... Damon is still my brother, Lavender. I just, got tired. Getting his attention. But it doesn't mean that I hate my brother forever. It's childish to be angry with him forever if it's Uncle Earl I must be angry with because he's the one who took Damon far away from me. I admit that I was really angry when I found out that Damon never really visited me at the hospital but I know that it was Uncle Earl's fault. Since that day that he took Damon away, I started seeing how a bad man Uncle Earl is."

"This Uncle you keep talking about, where is he now?" I asked, curious because if their Uncle Earl has been really helpful to Damon, he should be the one rooting and sticking beside Damon.

I don't know but I have a bad feeling about this Uncle because, only a cold, heartless man will not let his nephew go visit someone important from Damon's life. Only a man like that will be careless if Damon and Daisy's sibling relationship has been more messed up because of the distance he has put between Damon and Daisy. I don't want to judge but while I'm not meeting this Uncle Earl, my expression with him isn't going to change.

"When successfully took over the CEO position on our Dad's company, I never really saw Uncle Earl again but from what I heard from Larry, Uncle Earl flew out the country has been managing Dad's other company since then," Daisy said that made me nod my head. "But still, right after that I realize everything, everything that happened to Damon and me. It is only Uncle Earl I see as the bad guy. I'm only keeping it to myself because I think, Damon will not care. He became business-minded after all but I have been thinking of sharing it with Damon."

Well... I think it's okay if Damon shares her thoughts about their Uncle with Damon. I think it's a good conversation to start with as I think that Damon will also think that way. After all that happened to Daisy and him being locked to the college school his Uncle Earl put him in, I think Damon should have hated their Uncle too.

"What if..." I said as I put my left hand to my left waist. "What if, you tell that to Damon? I think it's good to start a conversation about your Uncle, he's the one that made you two apart anyway," I said, only suggesting but I instantly raised a brow when Daisy started shaking her head again, a half-smile creeping into her face.

"No. I'm not the one who's going to start a conversation with him. Damon has been an asshole and even if I have been sarcastic to him, he was used to that attitude of mine. He was also talkative back then and we are used to bantering to each other but after being far away, it's his choice to be cold like that, Lavender. And I will not talk to him unless I know he wants to."

Only if you know. I said in the back of my mind as I remember Damon's face when he was asking if I can help with his sister. I know I hit a nerve telling him about being more focused on his job as the Chief Executive Officer of Ellington Enterprises but Daisy was also correct. I was fascinated to know that Damon is used to Daisy's sarcasm back when they are still both okay but it's his choice now always to walk away when Lavender is just teasing him to talk.

It's Damon's choice to act cold with his sister even if it's clear that Damon cares about his Daisy.

"Okay, well..." I said as I lightly scratched a part of my forehead

I decide to be honest with Daisy. I want to be honest with her though I choose not to say the part where Damon asked me to help him with his sister. I just wish to Daisy to know that my intention is clean and that I really want to be friends with her even if Damon just hired me to be her caregiver.

"To answer your question earlier, I am thinking about you and your brother because I want to help you two to be okay again," I said, my eyes on the ground as I could feel her stare at me. "Sorry about that, D-daisy. I know I shouldn't get myself involved because I'm just someone your brother hired for you but I do want to be a friend to you. I really want to help you with everything but I understand if you don't want my help. I will stand down as only a caregiver to you. I'm sorry."

My eyes stayed on the ground as I wait for Daisy's reaction until suddenly, I felt Daisy's hands on mine. Making me flush as I feel my heart beating faster than usual.

I look up only to see Daisy smiling widely at me. "I know you can help me, Lavender. I'm not dumb, you see," she said that only made me raise a brow even if I can still my heart beating erratically, trying to breathe properly as Daisy is in front of me.