Crashing and Burning

STUBBORN

Breakfast was awkward the next morning. Ally forced the food down her throat as they sat in a crowded diner.

-Well, you certainly passed out last night, are you feeling better? Did I wear you out too much? – Robert asked, taking a sip of coke.

-Yeah, no… I guess I was just tired. I think I had too much to drink, and the hot tub got me very relaxed and groggy - She lied. The truth was she hadn’t slept a wink last night. When he finally realized she wasn’t waking up, he resigned and went to sleep. She just kept her eyes closed, wondering what in hell was wrong with her.

-That´s a shame. I would have loved to spend more time with you before I go back – Robert said sadly- I’m leaving in a couple of days.

-Well, at least we got to do this for a bit and see what it was like... right? – Ally gave him a half smile, reaching out and patting his back - Something to scratch off the bucket list, you know… Anyway, I gotta go Robs, talk to you later. Please give your parents my love.

She grabbed her purse and took out the money to pay for her breakfast, leaving it on the table. She stood up leaning to kiss him on the cheek.

-See you later, brat- He said.

- See you soon... Travel safe - Ally sighed as she turned around and walked away without looking back.

-So, are you a s*x addict now? - Jo asked, looking at her intrigued.

-No! I don’t know… Maybe? – Ally shook her head in confusion.

They were sitting cross-legged on the living room’s floor as they downed a bottle of Rosé wine Jo had brought back from her last trip.

-Ok, let me see if I can get this straight - Jo said while lighting a cigarette and taking a long drag - So, you were hurt about Marvin being an asshole and obviously horny cause he hadn’t touched you like in… forever and the best thing you could come up with was to go and f**k three random dudes?

-Just one of them was random, the other two I already knew them - Ally reasoned defensively.

-So what? You got some, well done girl! What’s the big deal then? – Jo asked- and why are you only telling me now? Clearly, you’ve been banging them for months.

-I don’t know, I think… I’m confused. It was supposed to make things simpler, but last night was awful.

-Wait, did he hurt you? Did he force himself on you?

-No, no, of course not. It was consensual, it just… sucked I guess - Ally winced at the memory- I ended up spacing out and fantasizing about this other guy I told you about, Gus. It was weird as f**k.

-Well, there you go. If you are thinking about him so much, then just go for it! For fuck´s sake, you even said he lives nearby. That would surely make it a lot easier than going back and forth to your hometown for hook-ups every time – Jo rolled her eyes, fanning her long brown hair backwards.

-It’s not like that, Jo. I’m supposed to diversify… keep my options open to stay cool-headed.

-If you say so- Jo, replied unconvinced, taking another sip from her glass - So, what you mean is that you think you can still f**k that guy Harry, maybe add up another one and get back to your game?

-Well, I hope so… last time with Harry was fine.

-You said your previous night with Robert was okay too. Don’t you think that maybe meeting this… Gus, is a little of a game changer?

-No... I think maybe it’s just because Robert and I have grown apart throughout the years - Ally dismissed her

-I think you are just being stubborn.

-I think you’re just being a b***h - Ally stuck her tongue out playfully.

-Whatever Ally, but if you keep going down that road... Remember you might crash and burn.