White Roses, Black Doves

The love you want-8

Roman

i wait for her to fall asleep and then i slip out of the bed quietly and grab my phone sending Rey a message.

hey did you see what ring size she is?

yeah a size seven. Are you going to tell me what it's for?

not yet, but I'm sure you'll hear tomorrow before noon.

Are you proposing to her Roman?

good night Rey

you are a buzzkill

zzz zzzz zzzz

I sent a message to my jeweler to let him know that the ring that I picked out yesterday needs to be a size seven and needs to be ready within the hour. I slip on my clothes and I head out to retrieve it.

When I get back she is still asleep and none of the alarms that I set while I was gone were tripped. she never woke up and no one saw me leave the bunker, completely undetected, exactly how i want every move i make to be.

I make my way back into the room and undress, slipping into bed and wrapping myself around her once more. I take her left hand. I slip the ring on her finger and kiss her on her bare shoulder.

“i love you” i whisper to her and i place a hand on her stomach cradling the tiny little life i know is in there. I can tell that things are changing, I can feel it. This is all I've wanted and I'm not letting it go. thoughts of our life drift through my mind as i fall back to sleep.

I wake up before Toran as I always do. One thing about this woman is she sure loves her sleep and her pajamas. I slip out of bed and use the bathroom as quietly as I can. When I'm done I come back into the room and sit in the chair in the corner of the room in the dark. I want to observe her when she wakes up and see the very first reaction she has to the ring. I want the naked honest truths.

She can't take it back now but I want to see if she means it when she says she's all in. call it a test, if you will.

As I sit here and watch her sleeping peacefully I think of our future together. I think of all the things we can create and build and grow. She stirs about an hour into my thinking and turns over to notice that the bed is cold and I'm not there.

She sits up and rubs her eyes and looks to the bathroom and sees that its light is off and i'm not in there either. she reaches over and turns the lamp on beside her and grabs her glasses and then she gasps her right hand flies to her mouth in shock at what she sees.

her eyes well with tears and then a smile brightens her gorgeous face. She brings the ring closer to look at it and sniffles and sobs. She looks to the bedroom door and starts to get off the bed to go in search of me but i clear my throat halting her in her movements but her gaze shooting in my direction.

“Roman” she says with so much love in her voice “is this what i think it is?” she asks.

Of course it is, my love and you will never be able to escape me now.

I pat my leg, letting her know I want her to come and sit down. she jumps off the bed and saunters over to me,sitting in my lap. wrapping her arms around my neck and burying her face in my neck.

“if i got this wrong and it isn't what i think it is then i am so embarrassed” she says shyly into my neck.

I grip her hair and pull back lightly letting her know I want her to look at me.

“you are marrying me, you are most likely already pregnant, and no i am not asking because if you think that you have a choice you don't.” i tell her “i am not taking any chances especially with you and everything i do, i do to keep you with me where you will be safe and happy.” I tell her.

“So just to be clear you arent asking me to marry you, you are telling me to marry you?” she asks me.

“Do you want me to ask you baby?” I lean in and brush my lips against hers “i can ask you but the only answer there is going to be is a yes love” i whisper against her lips.

“Ask me.” she whispers back.

I lift my hand and move one of her curls away from her face, resting my hand on her cheek “Toran, the love of my life, will you marry me?” I ask.

“no” she said.

What the f**k!

i can feel the anger in me boil, my hand shakes with adrenaline, and my hand cleanches.

“you don't get..” I begin to say but she cuts me off with a kiss.

“I was kidding, you said that there was only one answer and I wanted to say no. Yes, I will marry you Roman. I just can't believe this is actually happening. A few weeks ago I thought you didn't even know who I was.” she says and laughs sweetly.

“i almost had a f*****g heart attack” i let out a loud exhale. cupping her face and kissing her hard only stopping because I need air and I don't want to kill us since I just got her.

“I saw you the whole time.” i tell her “what do you say we go out there and tell everyone the news?” I ask her lifting her hand and kissing her ring finger now adorned with a three carat pear diamond with emerald and diamonds along the yellow gold band.

“This looks good here,” I tell her.

“Thank you, it feels right.” she smiles at me and its one of my smiles. one of the smiles that she reserves only for me and my heart beats wildly in my chest.

—---------------------------------------------------

We get dressed and make our way to the kitchen where everyone is already seated. I take a seat in my chair and sit Toran in my lap, her leaning her shoulder into my chest and snuggling in. I grab her hand and hold it up for everyone to see as she turns her face into my chest shyly.

“what the f**k is that?” Violet says as a loud gasp comes from Rey.

Derin looks stunned with his mouth hung open.

Tyler is smiling ear to ear shaking his head “right on man” he says.

“Let me see that!” Rey shouts as she comes over and takes Torans hand from mine.

“Good job Rome” she says as she inspects it.

Tyler spoons the cereal into his mouth and watches, already giving his approval.

“So what, you guys are getting married now?” Violet asks.

“Yes, I asked and she said yes.” i tell them.

“Well I mean he asked but he also told me that i couldn't say no.” Toran said and i pinched her side making her giggle and then she leans over and gives me a kiss.

Violet stands from Derins lap and walks to the sink. She fills a glass full of water and takes a few sips of it before slamming it down on the counter and laughing maniacally. turning around and looking at us all at the table and then walking back over to us with her hands on her hips, shaking her head back and forth.

“I was going to do this in private. I was just trying to find the right time to do it but I guess since Roman wont pull his head out of Torans ass for a single moment i have to do it now, seeing as how fast things are escalating.” she says pacing back and forth, physically not looking good.

“what are you talking about?” i ask her, confused.

“I'm pregnant with your kid Roman, that's why i've been so sick. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I throw up constantly. I took a test and I'm pregnant.” she says as her eyes frantically bounce from me to everyone in the room, gauging everyones reactions no doubt.

In that same moment Toran looked at me with her heart broken and tears welling in her beautiful green eyes and the monitor wall lights up red, our logo coming across the screen, someone falling into our trap.

Toran looking from me to the wall. She stands but I grab for her hand and she yanks it back.

“we have to get in there, this could be a big one.” she says in a voice so small and defeated that my own heart breaks into two knowing that i am a part of the reason she is hurting.

“you don't have anything to say?” Violet asks.

“We will talk about this after.” i tell her “come on team, get in position,” i tell the crew.

As everyone takes their seats in their stations, I gear up with my headset and mobile hand controls. I activate the monitors and we are in.

We have three traps pinging and they are all from the same buyer. Torelli Montiago, a Fortune 500 module that has his hands squeaky clean. so clean that no matter how many times he is raided there's not a single crumb, but it looks like Torans' traps looked legit enough for him that he thought he was still flying under the radar.

hes wrong though, he is flying so far away from the radar that the radar no longer exist. he has been on the FBI watch list for years with hundreds of images of him with his shipments and cargo. the amount of women and drugs he has shipped in is one of the biggest that ive ever seen and ive seen some f****d up s**t.

“Toran, this is your trap baby, you take the lead and communicate back with him for the sell.” I tell Toran. she doesn't respond back to me she just throws her screen to the wall so we can all see her work.

“Rey, contact your people and let them know what's going down. Tyler just like last time see if you can get anything that we can use without tripping anything up. check out his software systems and see what security he is running. its gotta be good for him to be so undetected for so long, ill take over there once you get. Derin can you get the location or get close so that toran or i can finish?”

“yeah i can get in there and get it. if i can't then i'll get as close as i can.” he says.

We are in awe of Toran as we watch her work her magic. her fingers flying over keys and coming up with information for him that not only sounds legitimate, it sounds like she's done this a million times. We watch as he falls for everything my girl is “selling” him.

“We need a coordinate Derin now” I tell him.

“there.” Toran says as she throws his coordinates to the wall on a monitor and Derin just looks back at her. she is still typing away and immersed in her set up.

“thank you Toran.” Derin says but he looks just as confused as the rest of us.

“Rey, send the coordinates to your people and get me an ETA” i tell her.

“on it.” she says.

I walk over to Torans station and step up behind her looking between her screens and the monitor wall, my eyes falling to the ring on her finger that is sparkling and shining from the glow of the screen. I move her hair off her shoulder and grip the back of her neck, leaning down, I place a kiss on her pulse point and stand back up. “you are doing a great job baby, keep it up”.

“They can be there in fifteen minutes, we need to keep him stalled for that long,” Rey says.

“should be simple since he wants all three purchases that we posted and sourced out.” i say. “Tyler, you got anything for me?”

“man, not really.. its f*****g clean in here” he says not being able to find anything.

“It's downloading now in the file marked as his name, Roman. You can send it over to Rey to send to the FBI in one minute and forty-three seconds, get ready.” Toran says and once again we all look at her in awe and confusion.

I move to my station and start going through his systems since no one else made it very far other than Toran. As I'm searching I'm able to bypass his security system and unlock all his archives and files so they can be accessible if he was to be caught.

“hey guys, swat was faster than fifteen minutes, they just pulled in.” Rey says.

“It's only been ten minutes.” i say.

“Well I guess they don't like this guy that much,” Rey says with a laugh.

“Can we do the thing boss?” Tyler asks.

“I love this part,” Rey says.

“yeah.” i say.

We all look to the monitor wall watching him type away in his office thinking he is buying shipments of fresh women and drugs. i black out the monitor and tv in his screen room that he is sitting in the middle of. I hit another control and our logo pops up on his screen. it takes him a second to register what is going on but once it clicks he rushes to start unplugging monitors, tv, camera, anything he can get his hands on. he panics running his hands through his hair, his security rushing into the locked room and closing the door to check on him thinking there is a threat.

A few seconds later the door blows inward and a flash goes off followed by a smoke bomb. We can see all the men pulling out their guns and crouching down but its too late. SWAT floods the room, they roll into his location in a huge number of convoys filled with men strapped to the nine in gear.

minutes is all it takes to apprehend the suspect and have everyone locked down for transport. we sent over all our information and closed down the screens. i looked back at torans station but she's gone. i panic and walk out of the monitor room in search of her but Violet stops me, stepping in front of me.

“We need to talk.” she says

“no we don't, not at this moment.” i tell her

“I'm pregnant with your kid and you don't want to talk to me?” she scoffs

“I don't believe a single thing that comes out of your mouth. move out of my f*****g way” i tell her as i side step her in search of my girl.

I have a feeling that she wants to be alone so i check my room but nothing so i try her room and its locked.

“Baby let me in please i need to talk to you” i bang on the door and no answer. I stick my ear to the door and I hear nothing.

“Let me in or i”ll rip this door from its hinges.” I growl out.

I expect her to yell some remarks at me but again there is nothing but silence.

“Toran, if you are close to this door i suggest you move. i'm coming in there one way or another!” i yell into the wood of the door and i slam my fist into it.

I step back, gripping the door frame in my hands, lifting my leg up and bringing my knee to my chest and then kicking out, the door splintering and opening. I step through the now ruined door and expect to see her curled up on the bed but she isn't there. I checked her bathroom and closet but nothing. I ran out of the room and double checked mine again only finding nothing again so I stormed through the entire building. I look in everyone's rooms and nothing, no sign of her.

“where the f**k is she?” I shouted coming back into the main room.

Everyone looks at me like I'm a creature from a bedtime story.

“where the f**k did toran go?” I ask again.

“I thought she went to her room like she always does after a win like we had.” Rey says as she gets up and heads off in search of her.

“After swat apprehended our guy and we shut off the monitors, i noticed she wasn't there but i didn't see her leave either. I thought she was in the room pissed off because of Violet.” Tyler said.

I turn my attention to Violet and Derin sitting there talking amongst themselves.

“this is your fault and for what some attention that i'm not giving you. I should have kicked you out the first time but like an i***t I let you stay and this is the outcome!” I shouted at her.

“Hey man, don't yell at her like that. you got her pregnant, toran didn't take it well and you guys are fighting now. this is normal ass s**t man, this kind of thing happens all the time and it isn't the end of the world.” Derin says.

i narrow my eyes on him and walk into his space, getting nose to nose, gripping his shirt collar in my fist “you want her then fine she's all yours, but i want is Toran and because of Violet and her drama i don't know where she is so i can fix this.” I side eye Violet and notice the shake of her hand and the sheen covering her clammy looking skin.

“she isnt f*****g pregant,” i sneer as i release Derins shirt and push him back “shes coming down off the s**t shes taking.”

I watch Derin as he looks at Violet and watches her, his eyes widening with realization.

“i bet she was in here whispering all kinds of promises to you. telling you i wouldn't want the baby she was pregnant with and then you would get to be a daddy.” i laugh “if i know her like i think i do, i bet she spent the past couple days telling you she was pregnant but she was scared to tell me. telling you that i wouldn't believe her and painting a picture of me being a piece of shit.” i tell him and laugh even harder.

he looks from her to me then back to her with scrunched brows and eyes darting around piercing it all together.

Rey comes back into the room out of breath and stops in the main area placing her hands on her hips.

“Rome, remember when we placed those escape routes hidden under the floor for emergency evacs?” Rey asked me.

“yes, i f*****g remember, get to the point.” I told her.

She looks from me to Tyler and he gets up and runs to his station in the monitor room pulling up the surveillance camera of the underground garage of our cars. the same garage that those tunnels and the tunnels all throughout the bunker lead too.

“Rey, tell me something. she didn't run through did she?” I ask as I race over to the monitor room and look at the footage that Tyler is rewinding through looking for her.

“There” he points to toran coming out of the door hidden in the wall “twenty seven minutes go” he tells me.

“press play” I tell him, slamming my hands on my work station in the middle as I'm watching my girl run from me. The wall of monitors mocking me as every monitor on the wall shows her running to her car and getting in, I catch a glimpse of her face. her swollen red eyes filled with tears.

She starts her car, pulls out her control panel in her car, types something into her system, then the tint on her windows darkens until she is no longer visible and leaves. The garage door opens for her and she pulls out.

“That doesn't make sense, when she opened the door to the garage it should have sounded the alarm. hell, as soon as she was outside and motion was detected the alarms would have for sure gone off.” I said opening my own control system and logging in to see what she did.

After typing in a few algorithms and codes I can see that she bypassed the alarms and went undetected. she more or less made herself invisible.

“Tyler tracks her plates on any street cam you can use. Rey tracks her car, I want to see where she is going." I command.

Tyler types away on his station and Rey rushes over to do the same.

“Boss, I'm not getting anything here,” Tyler tells me.

“the cameras we have scattered out there, not one single camera caught her?” I ask in disbelief.

“nope, she must have done something” Tyler says “let me keep trying”

“Rey?” i bark at her

“Her tracker isnt working. i tried to go around it like she showed me once to reactivate it, but it wont even show up for me to access. it's like she's completely ghosted.” Rey said, panicking.

“She can't have gone invisible, she is out there somewhere. it's only been half an hour!” i yell.

“She isn't here, she isn't out there, she doesn't want to be found.” Rey says.

I turn to the nearest station and punch the desk, throwing the monitors and modems off the desk, shattering everything. “That's not good enough for me!” I yell , flipping the desk over.

“Roman, calm down, we will find her.” Rey tells me and comes over close to me but I lash out like a wild animal.

“Get out!”

“Roman, please.” Rey says, trying to calm me down.

“GET OUT!” i shout “Get Violet the f**k out of here, Derin to if he wants to f*****g go with her!” I'm foaming at the mouth and gritting my teeth so hard I taste copper.