“When I was a child the present I aspired to have the most had been a Barbie dream house. I had only gotten one once and Lucy had broken pieces of it, as to what I still think was on purpose. But after being given what I had by Sawyer, I found myself confused against my own heart, body, and mind. I hated him for what he did to me, but the gift,the way I still felt so strongly for him...it tore at me like razors to the skin. I wanted to connect with him in every way to the point that it was driving me mad, but I also wanted to have a life away from him. But I found myself constant in thinking of his hands on me, of his kiss on my lips...but I was also not going to give Lucy another reason to try and ruin my life. So I knew I had to keep my distance.”
This Christmas began with Lucy waking e
