Tearing Apart

LEVERAGE

-I hate her- Ally stated, exhaling a puff of smoke and pouring herself another whiskey.

-You´ve only met her once- Jo smirked, amused at her ranting, she´d been at it for at least an hour.

-And that was enough! – Ally glared at her

-Well girl, you wanted him to get a job, now he has one, and that comes with new acquaintances- Jo shrugged- even some that you won´t like that much, you can blame him for that.

-I know- she replied, tugging at her hair – and I really don´t want to dwell on this that much... but Jo, you didn´t see her, she´s gorgeous!

-Awww hun, you´re gorgeous too- Jo cooed

-No, not like her! She´s like a Greek goddess, s***h Victoria´s Secret model hot!

-Oh, stop it Ally! He´s not gonna cheat on you!

-How do you know that?

-Because he loves you. And because he is a man, not a little dirty feverish boy looking to get into any girl´s pants. There are plenty of beautiful women around the world, Ally, you can´t spend your life worrying about them all.

-Oh, trust me, I´m only worrying about one- Ally scoffed.

She knew Jo was right. She´d never felt like the jealous type before. In fact, she felt pretty confident with her looks most of the time. She´d never imagined herself as the crazy toxic b***h shooing the girls away from her man like flies… and she was afraid to turn into one just now.

She was fully aware it was not Gus´s fault to have such a beautiful coworker and she would rather rip her own throat out before even thinking about pestering him with this bullshit. But picturing her perfect frame made her feel kind of insecure and she hated it. She stopped her mental rambling and pinned that thought.

That was it! She felt insecure, she felt that she needed some kind of leverage over that monument of a woman. She needed to feel sexier, cause in the end, she knew that regaining her self-confidence depended only on her. That Lauren b***h could do whatever she pleased and she wouldn´t be able to throw her out of balance if she got her s**t back together.

-Jo…- she turned to look at her smiling- Would you dye my hair red?

Two hours later she was inspecting her looks on the mirror, Jo smiled at her widely sitting on the bed, admiring her job. She had also given her bangs to cover the scar on her forehead. They´d removed the stitches already but it was still very fresh..

-You look stunning, hun!- she clapped laughing – Oh god, I´m so talented!- she cheered.

-You are- Ally agreed- It looks like the work of a pro.

-Well, I took some lessons back in the day- Jo admitted sighing- back when I still thought I would have a normal life like everybody else…

Ally winced. She knew it was a touchy subject. Something she tiptoed around every time it came out. Deep inside, she had always known all Jo´s traveling was nothing but an attempt to feel less empty.

-Wouldn´t you want to try working or something someday? Even if it was just for fun? See how you felt? – she asked carefully, glancing at her through the mirror.

Jo shrugged – I don´t know. I don´t do well with authority. Besides I´ve never done it before.

She walked up to the bed and sat beside her, wrapping her around her arm – Well, you still have your finance degree, you might wanna dust it off a little. Didn´t you say Saul was a little lost with his private office´s economics? You could offer him a hand just for practice.

Jo´s face lightened- That sounds awesome! – she beamed – and I would get to see him work all day! He looks so sexy when he´s all concentrated on his thing!

Ally smiled at her excitement – Aww Jo, he´s got you good right there, hun!

-Oh yeah!- she admitted, blushing- I love his long black hair and that he is big as a bear but so nerdy at the same time… and I love that he plays the guitar too, I find it sooo sexy!

-Yeah, I´ll totally back you up on that- Ally winked at her.

-Speaking of… we´re gonna be late for the gig!- Jo exclaimed, jumping off the bed- C´mon on girl, let´s go and make your man jizz his pants… you can thank me later for that!