Knight in Shining Tuxedo

3 [SPG]

Tulala akong nakayakap sa sariling tuhod sa ibabaw ng katre, I was only wearing the most erotic dress (I don't even know if you can call this skin-showing cloth a dress) that only covered my private parts, tulala pa rin ako dahil sa aking nalaman, ako? At ang lalaking iyon? That man who is claiming me to be his wife now?

We will be having a honeymoon? Tonight?

Ngayong gabi?!

Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, I tried searching for something to escape into, hindi ko hahayaang mawala ang pinakanatatanging dangal ko. That's all I got. I lost everything. I can't lose myself now. I can't lose my virginity now. I looked around frantically, but to no avail-the only two holes of the room were the windows which unfortunately were barred and the door was locked, I had no escape. This feels the same like the time I was auctioned. How I was caged like a tiger and trapped like a bird.

I felt helpless. Somebody get me out of this hellhole! But who would? If my father was still alive, he'll probably come to my aid, but he dead now. I saw it right in front of my eyes.

If there's something I probably need to do, kailangan kong magpakatatag. I can't lose my sanity. Tinuruan akong depensahan ang aking sarili. That's probably the least thing I can do, I should defend myself and stop depending on other people.

Wala akong magawa kundi magpakatatag, so this is how I end up? A p********e? A b***h? Someone lower than a dog? I just cannot swallow it... it feels like swallowing my pride. A mafia boss' daughter has been sold to a stranger who now claims himself to be her legal wife!

I bit my lower lip, trying to suppress my tears. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, tinignan ko ang kwarto, tanging kama lamang at vintage na wardrobe na may salamin ang naroroon. There were no other furnitures nor decorations. Ang sahig ay itim at ang pader naman ay krema. There's nothing I can use as a makeshift weapon. Nothing.

Sinuksok ko ang mukha ko sa aking tuhod habang nakayakap sa sariling binti, matapos ang ilang sandali ay narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pinto dahilan upang umangat ang aking mukha.

Agad kong binaling ang aking tingin sa pintuan, ramdam ko ang pagbilis ng pintig ng aking puso, mas lalo kong niyakap ang aking sarili nang mahigpit. My body was tensed and agitated. I wanted to just disappear here. Gusto kong kainin na lang ako ng kama upang hindi na mangyari pa ang mga dapat mangyari sa gabing ito.

Iniluwa ng pintuan ang lalaki na bumili sa akin. Magulo ang kanyang buhok at tila matalim ang kanyang mga tingin sa akin, o siguro kaya ganoon na lang siya makatingin dahil walang bakas ng emosyon sa kanyang mga mata. Napakalamig niyang tignan.

He entered the room, he carried his masculine figurine with elegance as he paced to my whereabouts. Sinara niya ang pinto, the ligneous door eerily creaked as he slowly did it, I heard the sound of it clicking, he was locking it.

The way he eyed me was different but I saw there was desire, an utterly cold desire. I felt his aura tell me that what he wants, he gets. By force. By any means. I'm still curious what must be his desire if he seems to have everything? So, I don't know what desire it was, perhaps to have a child? I guess. I mean, that is the purpose of having honeymoons...

Agad kong kinuha ang kumot at ginawa itong pantakip sa aking katawan, wala akong magawa kanina nang ito ang isuot sa akin ng tatlong kasambahay. It was either I wear this erotic dress, or wear nothing at all. Iyon daw ang inutos ng Young Master nila, which happens to be this man who bought me.

Naglakad siya palapit sa akin, seryoso ang kanyang mukha na nakatingin sa akin, ramdam ko ang kanyang mata na pinapasadahan ang aking katawan. Walang bahid ng emosyon sa kanyang mukha, but there was something I saw in his eyes, it was something warm, like a fire burning with passion, or perhaps lust. Yes, it's lust. Most probably.

Tanging ang ilaw mula sa lampshade lang ang nagsisilbing panlaban sa dilim ng kwarto pero sapat na ito upang maaninag ko siya.

Oh god, please save me...

"You have no right to resist me." His voice was deep and velvety. I watched him take his shirt off, he had a toned chest just the right chiseled muscle on the right places. My gaze went lower to his deep v-line, then down there. Nakita ko ang umbok mula sa pantalon niya at ako'y bahagyang napalunok.

After that, he took his pants off, ang natira na lang ay ang boxer niya na nagsisilbing saplot sa kanyang kahabaan.

I looked away.

I felt his weight press against the soft bed, umurong ako upang dumistansya hanggang sa nasa dulo na ako ng kama. Wala na akong uurungan. I have nowhere to run to, I have no escape.

Nagulat ako nang hablutin niya ang kumot na nagtatakip sa aking katawan. He threw it into the cold marble floor, revealing my body.

"Please, huwag..." My voice cracked as tears come out. "I'm not yet ready for this."

Tila hindi niya ako narinig, agad niyang hinila ang paa ko, forcing me to lay down on the bed, mabilis siyang pumaitaas sa akin, pinning and trapping me down with his bulk, I looked at his eyes and saw nothing. I was mistaken when I said I saw a flicker of lust, there was nothing there, no emotion. No lust... no passion, no nothing. It was hollow and void, the more you stare, the more his dark orbs seem to suck the life out of you, like an abyss.

"Please, stop..." Nagpumiglas ako ngunit masyado siyang malakas at mapwersa. Nanghihina pa rin din kasi ako dahil sa kagagaling ko lamang sa sakit.

I felt his weight press deeper against me, making sure that I can't budge, "you are my wife and you will give me a child." He said coldly, he stated it a matter-of-factly... as if it was also an order in which, I, his property, has nothing to do but comply even if it was against my will.

Nanginig ang labi ko at nagsilabasan na ang mga luha ko, I felt their warmth streaming down on the side of my head, cascading my skin and bare senses. I told myself I was more powerful than this, but this man just overpowers me. "Please, no... don't do this, please."

"You're mine, you will not dare to resist me. I shall not repeat myself again."

I felt him pulling my panty down, I gathered all my strength and pushed him out of my top, kinuha ko naman ang tsansa na wala na siya sa ibabaw ko upang bumalikwas sa kama at tumakbo papunta sa pinto. This is it. This is my chance to escape.

Habol ko ang aking paghinga nang tumigil ako sa harap ng pinto. Marahas kong pinihit ang busol nito ngunit ayaw umikot. I tried twisting the knob again but it won't dislodge.

"You want to do things the hard way?"

I gasped when I heard his cold voice. It sent chills down to my spine, lumingon ako at nakita ko siya na matalim ang tingin sa akin. I hopelessly tried to twist the doorknob once more but to no avail, it won't shunt. Beads of sweat started to form on my forehead. The fast beat of my heart was making me nauseous as well. My vision seems to distort and my chest felt so heavy.

"Please, I don't want to be your wife, or your baby-maker, or your slut." Pagmamakaawa ko, "please, spare me. Gagawin ko ang lahat, just please... not this."

I don't want to be his wife but I signed the paper willingly? No... I did it because I was afraid of what this man can do. He seems to not take no as an answer very well. Now, I am legally bound by this beast.

"Gagawin ko ang lahat, huwag mo lang akong galawin."

"Don't tell me what to do." He snapped, umupo siya sa gilid ng kama, ang kanyang siko ay pumatong sa kanyang tuhod. I saw how his muscles tensed, his jaw poignant as if he was clenching it, "come back here, don't test my patience and wait for me to come there, believe me, you won't like it when I make the move."