AWAKENING HER DESIRE

Part one

For the bold step of taking matters into my hand, I prepared for it. So for this night out, I decided that I will be anything but myself and that is why I have a very sexy short strapless purple gown waiting for me to grow the courage to put it on.

I stared at the gown like it was a Cat hiding by the corner waiting to jump out at me and take a chunk of my flesh off.

I know that seems like a weird bizarre analogy but that is how I was feeling at the moment.

" Grow a pair, " Ego whispered into my mind, her tone mocking.

" No you are going to look like a slut, attracting unnecessary attention, " Prude countered.

I know is kind of corny naming the voices in my head but that is me, corny and moreover with how often they argue in my head is kind of hard not to.

Ego is that brave, impulsive bad part of me that hides within my mind that I can never let out but refuses to be hidden away and makes its presence known by chirping into conversations even when her opinion is not needed. Prude, well that is the one that makes me me, if that makes sense, and who I usually listen to but tonight is all about not being me so I will go with Ego this time around.

I slipped my slim frame through the gown and pulled it from the down up. Tucking in my breast encased in a matching sexy bra into the cup of the gown.

I moved my hand to the back and drew the zipper up.

A view of the gown in the mirror proved to me I made the right choice when I decided to buy the gown even though it cost quite a lot.

You have to know as an accountant I am quite frugal with my spending always making sure that every penny I spend is off good course.

I usually get teased by friends about my miserly spending attitude. I don't mind because that is the reason I have a hefty saving stocked away for rainy days.

Alright back to my dress. The gown fit me to a T showcasing the little curves I have, bringing them out to a tempting display. I was already feeling sexy and I can't wait till I am fully ready with my hair and makeup, I am sure going to be rocking tonight and unrecognizable to my friends.

I put on silver heel sandals with open toes that gave a peep show to my dark red painted toes.

I decided to let my hair down leaving it pouring down my shoulders in soft waves, instead of the usual severe tight buns I usually wear them.

my hair is one of the things I love about myself. it is brown silky, soft, and shinny.

As for the makeup, I have zero sense on how to go about that, and if that doesn't clue enough then I might as well be blunt here.

I wear my face oh naturale. And please don't say no wonder you don't have any dates. I am frankly aware of that but I am a disaster when it comes to making up that is why for tonight I am going with very minimal make-up, no need to be adventurous, we wouldn't want a repeat of what happened at Linda's birthday party. Story for another time probably with a lot of alcohol in me.

I completed my ensemble with a teardrop silver earring with a matching necklace.

I have just entered my car when my phone rang. It was Linda calling. Probably at the club and wondering where the hell I am.

Linda is a party animal and spends almost all her Friday nights at the happening parties.

For tonight we are crashing a new club that just opened in town. To hear Linda say it. The club is going to be epic. Me, I just hope is epic enough to supply me with enough men to try out my new bravado on, I thought with a brave grin.

If there is one thing Linda knows how to pick is good clubs and once again this one didn't disappoint. The setting was amazing, with good lighting and music that already has you moving your body before you are even ready to dance. But one disadvantage to nice clubs is that it is always packed with a lot of human beings and if you 5.2ft like me you will see how navigating through the pack of bodies could be a challenge.

I tried as much as possible to move with the wave. I find out when I try to insist on shuffling through the crowd I get shuffled around like some damn basketball, so I learned to flow with the flow. Usually, it doesn't work out for me cause one time the flow lead me to the bathroom, very far from where I was seeking but tonight I got lucky, the flow threw me out to an empty space.

Out from the suffocating crowd I breathed in fresh air and fresh air breathed me in. I began to use my eyes to scan for my friends. This area had tables set for those that are interested in drinking more than dancing, with the bar not far ahead.

I decided to move to the bar because it looked a little creepy standing in the middle of the club looking around.

" What can I get you, beautiful lady, " a deep voice said from behind the counter.

I didn't respond he wasn't talking to me but when I didn't hear anyone else speak and turned and behold the handsome gentleman behind the counter was grinning at me, with his white sparkling teeth on full display.

" Oh, you are talking to me, " I said blushing like a fresh virgin which in my case is true. His smile grew wider as he nodded his head.

Wow, the word beautiful has never been used in the same sentence with me from the opposite sex, obviously, I get that all the time from my friends but who says that their opinion matters in this case.

I was about to answer the gentleman with something witty to pretend as if I was used to being chatted up by handsome mouth-watering bartenders but the sound of my name proved to be a good distraction from the fool I would have made of myself had I opened my mouth. So I gave what I hope was a sexy smile and turned around to see my best friend waving at me and smiling as if she just went to the dentist last night.

I picked up my clutch purse on the counter and headed over to my friend's table.

When I got close my new look got the desired response I was going for. The four women around the table had their jaw to the table at their eyes wide as they took in my new look.

Having all that gaping attention on me made me a little nervous so I quickly hurried to the only empty seat at the table.

Linda was the first to snap out of her shock.

" Damn girl, you look hot tonight, " she said sounding as if she was surprised by the prospect of using that word to describe me.

" Yeah girl you are rocking it tonight, " Amber said turning to check me out again as if to make sure I was the one in the dress and not some alien that came down from Mars to inhabit my body.

" Wow, I didn't know you had it in you, " Susanne said

" Yeah, you are usually looking like my dead grandma, so what is the occasion? " this was coming from Franca with a mocking glint in her eyes.

Have you ever had that one friend that constantly makes you wonder why the hell you are friends with her because for the life of you you can't stand her and only tolerates her because for one reason that you can't remember she found herself in your cliques? That is Franca for me. She is the type of person that feels the need to put down some else just to feel good about herself and her usual target moi.

My usual response to her taunting was always silent but tonight I am not me so I gave her a response that she wasn't expecting.

" I am looking for a fuck tonight. "

My lips curved into an evil smirk when I saw the shocked look on her face. Didn't expect that one, I thought patting myself at the back.

But she wasn't the only one I was shocked by my response.

Susanne choked on the drink she just took.

Amber's bottle that was heading for her lips got suspended in the air.

" What! " Linda exclaimed.

Franca's shock didn't last long as her usual cocky smirk reappeared on her lips.

" So you have decided to discard your badge of honor and here I thought you were waiting for the one, " she said with her fingers raised in the quote and her tone mocking again.

I wasn't going to let her irritate me this night with her words.

I held her gaze before speaking.

" Since the one is taking it's a sweet time coming maybe is high time I helped things along, " I said with my fingers mimicking her quote.

The tension between us rose.

My friends are aware of our rivalry, not that I was dragging anything with the short blonde but it seems she was, because she is always picking on me, so someone was quick to change the subject before the situation escalates.

" So how do you plan to find this lucky man tonight? " Amber asked wiggling her brow at me.

" I know, why don't we help you pick out the good candidates, " Susanne interrupted before I could respond with so much enthusiasm like a kid in a candy store.

My friends thought it a good idea and already have their hunting look on.

I sighed and decided to go with the groove, it was pointless arguing once they get an idea in their head there was no amount of argument, and saying no that was going to stop them.

Before the game ensued because that it is what is feeling like I decided I needed some liquid courage.

I opened my beer and drank almost half of the bottle as if I was perched, forgetting one very important fact. I am a lightweight.

My head swirled around like I was a ceiling fan before returning to its baseline. I gave my friends a loopy grin as if to say bring it on.

The one to open the floor was Linda. By the obvious grin on her face, she looks as if she was going to have fun with this.

" What about that one says, " she said pointing with her finger to a dude leaning against the counter with a lewd grin that was making it obvious he was on the prowl tonight.

Nah, I said shaking my head as I took another swing of my drink.

Is not that the guy is not attractive but he is very muscular with tattoos all over his body looking huge

Ya, I want to be fucked not torn apart I thought with a shiver.

I and my friends got into the groove of things. They will pick and I will find some fault that will make him unsuitable.

" Oh my God pick one already, " Susanne snapped when she felt that I was taking more than my sweet time to make a choice, impatience bleeding from her voice.

I rolled my eyes at her, I think I did, but with my head getting a little foggy from the alcohol I wasn't sure of my actions anymore. Susanne is always impatient. Wanting things to happen now.

" Have some patience my darling, when I see the right candidate I will make my move, " I slurred before taking another drink.

I should probably stop because it seems I am way past my limit but I wouldn't stop. Tonight is all about passing my limits.

The words have yet to leave my lips when my eyes caught sight of a guy sitting at the bar.

To say he is attractive is an understatement, the guy is very handsome, he tall about 6ft slim muscled but not muscular nice cut hair olive skin with a tattoo on his arm dressed in leather he has this aura of a bad boy that will make your wet dream come true.

" That one, " I pointed with so much focus even though my vision was seeming a little blurry. I wanted to make sure I was pointing at the right man.

Franca scoffed. " Yeah right, as if he will go for some like you. He will probably see the V card plastered across your forehead from miles away and take flight for the hills, " She mocked.

" Mmm, Susanne moaned licking her lips as she took in the man in question. " If you don't go for him I definitely will. "

" No, you don't! I found him first, " I yelled flying to my feet. My drunk state preventing me from hearing how loud my voice was.

" Okay dorky, have at him, " Susanne muttered with a light chuckle.

I staggered a little giggling as I steadied myself, before setting off.

Here we go siren Norah, I thought moving with what I hope was a confident gait.

" I think you are going to make a fool of yourself. "

" Shut up Prude, now ain't the time, " I snapped at my sensible inner voice.

Walking towards him I could feel my body shaking with nerves wondering how am going to approach him, what to say hoping above everything that I will not embarrass myself.

Damn it Prude you have made me nervous now.

I took a deep breath. " I can do this, " I muttered to myself before I approached him.

" Hi, " I mumbled you could hear my voice shake.

" What the fuck! what are you a whimpering virgin? " Ego mocked.

" For god's sake, I don't need you guys' opinion right now, " I snapped in my mind then cleared my voice before trying again.

" Hi, " I said with more confidence and that got his attention.

Hi, he said with a sexy grin.

My eyes fell into his own and I was captivated. It was blue and clear like the sky I felt like I was drowning.

He was even more gorgeous up close.

I stood there staring at him like a fool not saying a word.

" Snap out of it you moron or he is going to think you are retarded, " Ego snapped at me.

I was still trying to will my brain to snap my mouth open when we got interrupted by a golden sexy female voice.

" Hi Tony, I can't believe you are here, the female said.

I blinked at the beautiful woman that was grinning at Tony like he hung the sun and she was an adoring worshiper. My mood deflated.

The woman was hot. She was blonde with a face of a model and an hourglass figure, looking like a bloody nymph, or is it siren.

" Yeah, you got no chance, " Ego helpfully supplied. Note the sarcasm.

I ignored Ego and tried to insinuate myself back into the conversation, I wasn't going to let some bimbo bombshell from nowhere steal the hottest man in the club from me. But it felt as if in the face of all that beauty and sexiness I was rendered invisible to gorgeous Tony.

I didn't want to give up that easily so I tapped him on the shoulder. " Hey, " I said.

" Yeah, you are pretty but I am kind of busy right now, " he said rudely, his tone dismissive and insulting, which made me angry.

I imagined myself tapping him and when he turns around giving him a dirty slap. I smirked at the image and that kind of placated me and decided to cut my losses and go home.

Yeah, go home, because if I stay one more minute I don't think I could stand the ribbing I will get from Franca.

Being shut down the way I was kind of cleared up my inebriated state. I walked back to my table with my head held high hoping against hope that no one witnessed me make a fool of myself.

When I got to the tables my friends had a lot of questions but I ignored them and picked up my purse and headed for the entrance.

I slumped back to my seat with a defeated look. Despite all my get-ups and the sexy dress I still couldn't get laid.

The night was a fluke and I am probably going to die a virgin I thought bitterly before driving off.