JAMES
I’ve been tidying up the kitchen for over an hour, picking things up, sweeping broken glass, and trying not to wake Grace in the process. My muscles ache with the movement, so I’ve given up and decided to make coffee instead. It’s only four AM but despite being exhausted, I haven’t been able to fall asleep. For a few hours I lay, content, in Grace's arms, finally getting up when I realised Grace was holding me and I felt…nothing.
If anything I felt a little restricted, and definitely too hot. Since meeting him I’ve always found solace in his touch, but in that moment I couldn’t feel him anymore. I can’t feel anything. Comfort, love, even anger and sadness…it’s all gone.
I’m numb.
Has my mind given up? Have I reached the destination I always knew I was travelling towards? Is this
