Dear Mate, I had never been so f*****g afraid in my whole life until I saw your notebook in a cliff. The mere thought of you crying and killing yourself because of what I've done felt like hell. It was just all a lie. There was no f*****g bet. I was just being a coward. Scared that you' will reject me if you find out about my secret. That I am a freak. A monster. I love you so much and it hurts so much. I regret everything! I'm such a fool to push you away. Please forgive me. Please come back! QUIN