Sa Kama ni Bayaw

18

Sebastian’s

Fuck! Why did you do that, idiot?

Mahina akong napamura. In my mind’s eye, I cursed myself for acting recklessly. This whole drama thing was getting out of hand. This was supposed to be about Niu only, not Claire. Pero p*ta, hindi ko talaga kayang pigilan ang sarili ko. Her scent alone was enough to stir the little buddy down there.

She’s not my type of woman, I want my woman to be strikingly sexy and dominant in bed. Hindi gano’n si Claire, kahit na isang siyang pageant title holder, I see her as a humble and submissive woman. She didn’t even argue when her parents married her off to my brother. She’s too kind for my taste. She’s too pure to be in my bed.

It was her weakness that poked something inside me, it was the trigger point wherein I felt the need to protect her. Her vulnerability made me want to possess her. Her innocence makes me want to taint her.

Damn, you’re like a horny teenager hungry for s*x!

Ang sarap kastiguhin ng sarili ko dahil sa aking naging reaksyon noong isang araw. I saw red and I was livid when I thought about Claire being pregnant with my brother’s child, and f**k me for getting jealous.

Inubos ko ang natitirang alak sa baso. Alcohol makes my nerves and my mind calm. The bittersweet taste of the alcohol soothes my throbbing nerves. I already have enough stress from that stupid brother of mine, I don’t want to put on another brain-cracking stress on my plate.

A soft and warm hand caressed the base of my thighs sending sweet sensations on my center. Mahina nitong pinisil ang hita ko kaya napatingin ako sa babaeng katabi. She was one of Andrei’s women who like to be shared.

Maganda ito at mala-anghel na mukha. She looks so sweet and innocent but I knew better that than.

Ngumiti ito ng mapang-akit habang patuloy pa rin ang paghaplos sa hita ko. Her spaghetti-strapped low neckline dress made her cleavage visible.

I wanted a good f**k, I do, but I have someone else on my mind. Ayoko ko man aminin ay malaki talaga ang epekto ng babaeng ‘yon sa sistema ko.

The sweet scent of Claire’s neck, her suppressed moans when I sucked and licked her neck in the powder room aroused the hell out of me, and it took me a huge amount of self-control not to undress her and f**k her brains out.

Alam kong mali itong nararamdaman ko para sa asawa ng kapatid ko. Hell, I can have any woman I wanted pero bakit ako nagkaganito sa babaeng iyon.

“You wanna go somewhere else?” The woman beside me seductively rubbed my bulge as she whispered on my ears. Inilapit pa nito ng husto ang katawan sa akin. Her big breast pressed on my arms.

Mariin kong hinawakan ang kaniyang kamay na humahaplos sa akin, pinigilan siya sa kaniyang ginagawa. She looked confused for a moment, but she understood it anyway. I’m not in the mood to bang someone tonight. Walang gana ko siyang tiningnan.

“Some other time,” usal ko.

“I need to go,” paalam ko sa mga kasama. They all looked shocked when I stood up leaving the woman on the couch.

“What? Ang aga pa, dude. Are you not enjoying these women?” reklamo ni Andrei. Itinuro pa nito ang ibang babae na nasa couch.

On other days, I would’ve already taken one or two of these women, but not tonight. I prefer to be with myself alone in the room thinking about those sweet smiles I’m slowly getting addicted to.

“Is there something wrong, man?” tanong ni Winston. He looked serious. Naninibago sa mga kilos ko, at hindi ko sila masisisi. They knew me how I was to women.

“I have a client meeting tomorrow. I need to review the proposal tonight,” dahilan ko. Tinanguan ko sila at agad na umalis. I made my way out of the club and drove my car to Niu’s house.

Hindi pa gano’n kalalim ang gabi kaya marami pa ang mga kotse at bus sa daan, mas binilisan ko pa ang takbo ng kotse ko. Nang makarating sa subdivision ay agad ko ipinarada ang kotse sa labas ng bahay ni Niu.

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinatay ang makina. Sumasakit ang ulo ko kakaisip sa lahat ng mga nangyayari.

Lumabas ako sa kotse at tinungo ang gate. Agad akong pinagbuksan ng guard.

“Sir, ipapasok ko po ba ang kotse n’yo?” tanong nito.

“Yes, please,” walang gana kong sagot. Binigay ko sa kanya ang susi at tuloy-tuloy na pumasok sa loob.

F*ck, I need a cold shower!

Stopped in my tracks when I saw Niu. He was drinking alone in the bar. Nakaupo ito sa stool habang mag-isang umiinum ng alak at malalim ang iniisip. He was drinking directly from the bottle.

“Hey,” I greeted him.

“Ikaw pala, kuya,” he said. He tapped the seat next to him telling me to sit with him.

Inagaw ko ang bote ng alak na hawak niya at uminum. The sweet-spicy flavor of the alcohol strolled down my throat. The best thing about a good drink is that it has contradicting taste.

Talking. Maybe this is good. Niu has his own problems and demons to deal with and so am I. He was torn between love and his responsibilities in the company and as a son. Being his older brother, I feel like I need to help him out in order to solve my own issues.

“She’s pregnant, kuya,” mahina niyang saad. Nakayuko ang ulo niya at tila ang laki ng problema na dinadala. I’ve never seen him this weak, as the heir of the family, he was always so sure about what he’s doing. He handles himself well in any difficult circumstances.

I froze on my seat, my chest ached with the thought. Then, anger filled me when I digested what he told me.

F*ck!

“What the hell did you just said?!” I shouted at him, unable to control my rage. I gritted my teeth, the muscles on my back stiffened. Just the thought of Claire being pregnant with some other guy’s child unleashed the inner demon in me, the jealousy was too strong it was eating me.

I grabbed him in the collar and curled my fist around it. Hinila ko siya patayo.

Niu looked confused with my actions, his eyes told me so. He wanted to speak, but no words were uttered. He was speechless as he stared straight into my eyes.

“Gago ka talaga, Antonius! You promised me you won’t touch her!” nanggagaliiti kong sigaw sa kaniya. Wala akong pakialam kung magising ang mga tao dito sa bahay. Gusto kong magwala at manakit. Hinigpitan ang hawak sa kuwelyo niya.

Mariin akong nakipagtitigan sa kaniya. Pain and betrayal clouded my rational thoughts. I wanted to beat him to death.

For a moment, curiosity and confusion were written on his face, until it was replaced by a mocking smirk. Umiling siya at pinagtawanan ako. Mas lalo akong naisin sa inasta niya. Hinigpitan ko ang hawak sa kuwelyo niya. In my mind’s eyes, I was strangling him to death.

“What? Wait, you got it wrong,” natatawa niyang saad. He pushed me a little but I didn’t let him go. “I was not talking about Claire, kuya. Masyado ka nang halata, bitaw na nga,”

Not Claire? But who?

Then, a realization hit me. I was dumfounded, and relieve I must say. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag sa sinabi niya.

Niu was laughing hard at me, pulang-pula na ang mukha n’ya sa kakatawa at halos kinakapos na ito ng hininga. I glared at him but he just continued laughing. Inis na binato ko siya ng ice.

“Stop laughing, idiot! Walang nakakatawa!” inis ko asik. This mother*cker is making fun of me.

“I can’t help it, hindi ko alam na tinamaan ka na pala. Damn, you should’ve seen your face, kuya. You look pathetic,” tumatawa nitong sinabi.

“Gago,” I uttered silently.