ANASTASIA FERRARI
As soon as the church came out, Maurizio was now the one driving the car and I was sitting at the back with the kids. I feel like things were offloaded on my shoulders when I asked the pastor to pray for me. It has been very difficult for me these past three months to accept what happened then when Lillian's uncle took my son away from me. I know I did not kill them, but because I am involved in their death I feel so guilty and tainted. My husband is used to this I mean, not that he does that for a living, killing people, but I know that if anyone becomes a threat that puts me and our kids in danger, he will not hesitate to eliminate them.
But then, even if he is used to this, I am not. I really was hoping that he would get that I am slowly losing myself over this. I ha
