Fear has rendered me addled. The same fear that I felt the first time he got us, the same fear I felt the second time, the same fear he has carved in me on that night I decided to run away from him.
With this too much fear, I couldn’t even shed a drop of tear. Nakatitig lamang ako sa kamay na humihila sa akin, nakasunod lamang sa mga taong sumumpa at nangakong poprotektahan ako. But as I look around at them, I realized how much I hated to see them hurt, I knew how I didn’t want to be protected, how I hated always having someone risk their lives for my sake.
But I knew more how much I wanted to be just with them, too; to never let go of this hand tightly holding me like he doesn’t want anybody having me; to never not see these faces again. Because I knew like no other how I only wanted t
