Biker's Redemption: Fallen Angels MC

Chapter 8 Dagger

Chapter 8

Have you ever fu.cked up so badly that you can see no way to un-fu.ck your life? That's exactly where I am right about now.

All I have thought about is my Gracie and Luci. Gabe has gone completely off the deep end, and Digit has completely let me down. He is about as much use as a wh.ore in a monastery right now. If I knew anything about computers, I would have realised how bad he was. Hell Gabe could probably do what he does, and that boy hates technology.

I was a fool for being an a.sshole to Luci. She is the perfect old lady. A nurse and a computer wizz kid. If I hadn't hated her old man so much, I probably would have given her a fair shake.

Hell, I should never have hated John in the first place. I should be fu.cking thanking him for getting Grace help and getting her the fu.ck away from me. She may have been dead if she hadn't gotten out. It is not something I am proud of admitting, but I remember my anger, and I can’t say she wouldn’t have gotten another visit from me.

My heart felt like it was being stabbed by a thousand needles when I thought about Gracie and our kid. I knew even if we found her, I knew it was over for us. I would settle for knowing she was happy and our kid was alive and well.

Yes, it would hurt worse than a kick in the balls if I saw her with someone else. But I had no right to be upset by her living her life. If my kid had survived, it would be around 18 now. I wonder if it knows about me and about its brothers.

I fu.cking hate using it to describe my kid, but I have no idea if it was a son or daughter. I hope I get the chance to find out. Surely, the kid must want to know where they came from and about their older brothers. It may be enough to give me an in with the kid.

Then there was Luci, another pregnant woman I made run as far as they fu.cking could. She is carrying my first grandchild. What if something happens to her? She is alone out there. Anything happens to her. I am done. No way, my boys will keep me in their life or in the club.

I can’t lose my family, and I can’t lose the club and my brothers. The club has been a part of me since the day I was born. I don’t know what I would do without it or them. I have plenty of cash to live off of, but I would die of boredom out there on my own.

The whole club had had a makeover. The brothers got drunk and had a bonfire out back with all of the broken furniture. The place looked less like a dive bar where you would wonder if they even had a clean glass.

It was like an upscale bar and comfortable living area all rolled into one. I was not sure I liked the change. Neither were some of the older men, but the old ladies loved it.

Thought some of the men were going to lose it when Gabe threatened to get rid of the club who.res. Thankfully, Iris talked some sense into him. Now, there were new rules to follow, and kids were around more.

I didn’t see the problem with the way it was. It never did me or my boys any harm growing up around all the drink and debauchery. I mean, maybe if I had a daughter, I may think different, girls need more protection and looking after if you dont want them acting like the club wh.ores do.

The only time Gabe and Mike would look at me was to give me a glare. I was damn sure it wouldn’t be long before they hauled me into the ring to sort our problem out with our fists.

I could still handle myself, so nothing more would make me happy than to get the sh.it over and done with. Usually, you punched it out, and then it was done. I knew that it wouldn’t be that simple this time. Some punches couldn't fix it.

I needed to do something. Gabe and Mike hadn't had any luck with John, so it was about time I did something about that.

John

I could shoot the Black’s right now, fu.ck being a law man, my baby girl comes first. I regret giving Gabe a chance, but he made Luci happy. Should have known he wouldn’t be much better than his a.sshole of a father.

Mike seems like a good boy still, but that could change easily. I always thought that Clyde Dagger Black was a decent guy for a biker. He didn’t always walk on the right side of the law, but he was honourable, at least until what happened with Grace.

I lost any respect I ever had for him after I saw the state of that poor woman. There wasn’t an inch on her that wasn’t bruised or bloody. I would have arrested him if I had sold proof, but Grace didn’t want to talk, and I knew as well as she did that he would have a mountain of alibis ready and waiting.

So, as a father, the last thing I wanted was my little girl getting caught up in that world. My girl has always been headstrong. When she sets her mind on something nothing gets in her way, it is both a good and bad trait to have.

Now, my baby girl was away from us and had her own baby on the way. Judy hated it. She wanted to be there for her. Going to her baby scans, thankfully, Grace video called so she could still be there, but it wasn’t the same.

A loud knock on the door brought me out of my thoughts. As I opened the door, I was stunned to see Clyde standing there. He was the last person I would expect to come and knock on my door.

“John we need to talk” he grumbled out. I would have slammed the door in his face, but curiosity got the better of me, so I stepped to the side and let him in.

“Let’s just get to the point Clyde, what the fu.ck are you doing in my home?” I asked in a firm, calm voice.

“Gabe did nothing wrong” he said, and when I went to protest, he raised his hand, ”just hear me out John” he said, I gave a nod for him to continue.

“I put something in his drink. He had no idea what the fu.ck was happening until he erm came to” Clyde said, the last bit making me smile just slightly.

“You do realise you just admitted to a crime, Clyde. I could lock you up right now. That is assault Clyde plain and simple” I say, getting angry before pulling it back.

“At this moment in don’t give a fu.ck. Lock me up if you want, got nothin to lose right now. Need to make things right, but I am fu.cked if I know how to do it. Your girl is a fu.cking ghost right now. Neither Gabe nor Luci should suffer because I fu.cked up, you are the only one that can talk to her”. He says he sounds like he is being honest, but I still dont trust him.

“I will have a think about Clyde” I say.

“Thats all I am asking for, John. I will get out of your hair now. You know where I am if you need to ask anything” he says before letting himself out.

I need to talk to Judy about this. If she thinks it is the right thing, I will call Luci up straight away. She deserves to know this, I just dont want to upset her if I tell her at the wrong moment. I know she is finally doing better emotionally, and I don’t want to stunt that progress.

I talked to Judy about it and was told that if I didn’t speak to our daughter, then she would. Luci deserved to know the truth, or at least Clyde’s version of it, so she could make her own mind up. So I picked up the phone and said a silent prayer that Luci wouldn’t be more hurt by this.