Chapter Two: The Stranger in the Shadows

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"You don't want to know my name?" I asked. "You didn't ask mine." That was true. I realised I hadn't even thought to. I looked at him across the table, this man with his silver eyes and his careful stillness and his glass of melted ice, and something about the situation struck me suddenly as so absurd that a sound came out of me that was almost a laugh. Almost. "Aria," I said. A pause. Then: "Lucien." I nodded. I picked up my glass. He picked up his. We sat in the dark booth for another seventeen minutes and didn't speak much, and for the first time since Marcus had walked down that aisle, the shaking in my hands began to slow. I didn't know, then, what his last name was. I didn't know what I had just set in motion by sliding into that booth, by saying those reckless, desperate words. I didn't know that agreeing to each other across that table was the first move in something that would eventually cost us everything, and give us back more than we knew how to ask for. I just knew his name was Lucien and he had agreed without blinking, and when the car arrived to take us to the gala, he held the door open, and I walked through it, and the night air hit my face, and behind me three hundred people were still waiting for a bride who was already somewhere else entirely. We were two blocks away when it hit me: I hadn't asked what he wanted in return. I turned to look at him in the backseat beside me, his profile dark against the window, perfectly still. And for the first time all evening, something in my chest moved that wasn't grief. It felt, disturbingly, like the beginning of something. The Kade Industries gala was exactly the kind of event I had spent four years learning to survive. Black tie. Champagne that cost more per glass than most people's groceries. Women in dresses that were designed to be noticed and then designed to make you feel bad for noticing. I knew how to move through rooms like this, how to smile at the right people and forget the wrong ones, how to hold a glass without drinking it and laugh at things that weren't funny and make every person I spoke to feel like the most important person in the room. I had learned all of that for Damon. I thought about that in the car, watching the city slide past the window, the gown I had changed into (midnight blue, not white, I was not walking into that room in white) catching the light from passing streetlamps. I had learned an entire language for a life that had dissolved in three words this afternoon, and now I was sitting in the back of a car next to a stranger named Lucien, about to walk into a room full of people who had watched me fall apart, and the stranger was the plan. It was not a good plan. "You're quiet," Lucien said. "I'm always quiet before something terrible." He looked at me. "Is that what this is?" I turned from the window. Up close, in the dim light of the car, he was even harder to read than he had been in the bar. No nerves in him anywhere. Nothing that twitched or shifted or gave him away. Most people, when they're about to walk into a room of three hundred strangers on a stranger's arm, have some tell. A tightened jaw, a restless hand, something. He had nothing. "You've done things like this before," I said. It wasn't a question. "Walked into rooms?" "Don't do that." The corner of his mouth moved again. That almost-smile, controlled and brief, there and then not. "Yes," he said. "I've done things like this before." I looked back at the window. "Then you know how it goes." "I know how it goes," he agreed, and something in the way he said it made me feel, briefly and inexplicably, less alone. The car stopped. The door opened. The sounds of the city rushed in and with them the distant, polished noise of the event, the murmur of money and performance, and I sat for one full second longer than I needed to, my hand flat on the seat beside me, fingers pressing into the leather. Then I got out. Lucien was already there, on the pavement, offering his hand. Not grabbing for my arm, not rushing me, just there, his hand extended, waiting. Patient in that particular way of his that felt less like patience and more like absolute certainty that the world would arrange itself around him eventually. I took his hand. His fingers closed around mine, warm and firm, and we walked toward the entrance, and I felt the exact moment the door staff recognised me because the shift went through them like a current, that specific ripple of controlled reaction that meant: her, already, tonight, how. Inside was worse. We were three steps through the door when it happened. The room didn't go quiet the way it had in the cathedral, not all at once, not that terrible held breath. It went quiet in a wave, table by table, conversation by conversation, the silence spreading outward from wherever people's eyes landed first and then followed to the man beside me, and then the silence wasn't about me anymore. It was about him. I felt it before I understood it. The quality of the attention changed. It stopped being the rubbernecking curiosity of people who had watched a woman get publicly humiliated eight hours ago and wanted a second look. It became something else entirely. Something that had weight to it. Something that was, underneath the careful social performance of three hundred people trying not to stare, close to fear. I looked up at the banners. Drax Industries Presents. I looked at Lucien. He was watching the room with those silver eyes, steady and unhurried, and he looked exactly the same as he had in the dark booth of the bar, exactly the same as he had in the car, and nothing about him indicated that every person in this room was looking at him like he was weather. Like he was something you checked the sky for. "Lucien," I said quietly. "Yes." "Drax." A pause. "Yes." I kept my face very still. I had practice, tonight, at keeping my face still. "You didn't think that was relevant information." "You didn't ask for a surname." "I asked if you wanted to know mine." "And I said you hadn't asked for mine." He glanced down at me. Something moved behind his eyes, not quite apology, not quite amusement. Somewhere in between, in a register I didn't have a name for yet. "Would it have changed your answer?" I thought about the envelope. The three words. The shutter clicking. The hashtag. "No," I said. "Probably not." We moved into the room. I spotted Damon in the first sixty seconds. Of course I did. I had spent four years being attuned to where Damon Kade was in any given space, and the body doesn't unlearn things just because the heart has been informed of a change in circumstances. He was near the far bar, a glass in his hand, already looking at me, and the expression on his face when his eyes moved from me to the man beside me was the most satisfying thing I had seen all day. It was not just surprise. It was the specific, terrible surprise of a man who had believed, on some level, that the thing he threw away would stay where he left it. I smiled at him across the room. Unhurried. Easy. The smile I had spent four years perfecting for rooms exactly like this one. Then I turned away. Lucien's hand settled at the small of my back, light and deliberate, and I felt it through the fabric of my dress like a warning and a steadiness at once, and we moved deeper into the room, and the wave of silence followed us and then broke into whispers, and the whispers followed us too, and I was aware of all of it and none of it because somewhere between the entrance and the first cluster of guests, something had shifted. I wasn't performing anymore. Or I was, but it didn't feel like performing. It felt like something else. Something I didn't have the vocabulary for yet, standing in a room full of people who were looking at me differently than they had eight hours ago, next to a man I had met over expensive whiskey who turned out to be the kind of name that made entire rooms go quiet. We stopped near the edge of the main floor. A waiter appeared with champagne. I took a glass. Lucien didn't. "Are you going to tell me why you agreed?" I asked. I kept my voice low, conversational, the way you talk at events like this when you don't want the words to carry. "Ten thousand dollars isn't nothing, but it isn't something to a man whose name is on the banners." He was quiet for a moment. Watching the room. "No," he said finally. "No, you won't tell me, or no, it wasn't the money?" He looked at me then. Direct and unhurried, the way he did everything, and said: "Both."
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