The drive to our destination is daunting. I do not want to speak to anyone right now. I keep forgetting to breathe and I keep zoning out. I have never been so nervous in my entire life. I would rather take a million college exams than have to go through what I am currently going through. My stomach keeps turning at the thought of things going wrong. What if somebody gets hurt. It will be completely my fault if one of our warriors does not make it home to their families tonight. I can't imagine having to tell their families that their loved one died in the attempt of saving my loved one. Maybe this is a huge mistake. I should not be risking the lives of others just to save the lives of Kate George and Trey. Or should I? I don't know. Will I ever stop doubting my own decisions and have faith
