The reason I hadn't participated in the whole flower bouquet throwing in Cole and Sia's wedding was first, I didn't believe in the mantle being passed down tradition, and second, I was not in any position to get married.
I and Jay had just started dating again a couple months before that, and I wanted to not put myself into a weird position with him and myself by catching the bouquet. It would not have affected anything, but I just wanted to save myself from all of the sneaky glances and cheeky smiles I would get after it because somewhere deep down, I knew I would have been the one to catch that bouquet. Just call it a hunch. And, I was not even thinking of marriage or wanting to begin to think about it.
Still seemed like a far fetched dream to me. Or nightmare. I wasn't sure which one
