ALYSSA'S POV
I messed up and I can't believe that I did it all by myself. The look on Owen's face when he spoke to me yesterday will always haunt me. I failed to sleep the whole night because of what he asked me. I didn't mean to hurt him.
I have been worried about losing him after I told him how I feel about him that I ended up messing up everything. Amber promised me that she will help me win this competition but I can't help it.
I feel like if I go in too deep, I will never recover from it if something happens.
I should have given him an answer after talking to Amber. Everything would have been avoided. I know he wasn't going to let everyone know that he loves me, but it would have given him and me peace of mind.
He would know where he stands. I hate that I hurt him, but I am not a
