Carina
I need to get up and move. Staying in this bed is going to drive me insane and with everyone constantly around me, trying to do everything for me as if I am incapable of doing anything for myself is starting to work on my last nerve. I feel trapped in here, like I can't breathe and the flowers and teddy bears with balloons are making it worse. I know everyone means well with the gifts, but all I can think of is the fact that I am alive when I shouldn't be, yet I feel trapped. Jaxon seems to be the only one that understands that I need space, that I need to do things for myself. He is the only one that isn't trying to constantly feed me or fluff my pillow or wipe my ass. He steps in when I need him, doing it in such a way that I don't feel like I am depending on him, but like he jus
