Day Nineteen: Running From Love
1025 Words
Dear dairy, I couldn’t breathe. The walls were closing in, the air suffocating, heavy with their pain, their love, their desperation.
I needed to escape. I needed to be free... free from them... from this impossible choice... from the guilt that was crushing me.
I ran, my feet pounding against the floor, my heart racing. I didn’t stop, didn’t look back.
If I did... I’d break. I’d fall apart.
I burst through the doors, the cold night air hitting my face, biting my skin. But it wasn’t enough.
It couldn’t numb the pain... the anguish tearing me apart.
I kept running, my legs burning, my chest tightening. I didn’t know where I was going. I just needed to get away... to be alone.
Because the truth was... I was a coward...
I couldn’t face them. Or rather, I couldn’t face my heart. I couldn’t face the fact that I was hurting them... that I was breaking them. I was selfish... weak... foolish.
But I was also in love. And that was the cruelest part of all.
So I did what I thought was best for al.of us...Hiding from the Pain..
Dear dairy, I stumbled into the forest, my body shaking, my tears falling freely. The branches scratched at my skin, the cold air biting my flesh.
But I didn’t stop. I ran deeper, hiding from the world... from my heart... from them.
I collapsed beneath an ancient tree, my body trembling, my breath ragged. I pressed my back against the rough bark, my knees pulled to my chest.
I was falling apart... breaking... shattering.
Why did they have to love me? Why did they have to fight for me? Why did they have to make me choose?
I never asked for this... never wanted this.
I was just a maid... an orphan with a weak wolf. I wasn’t meant to be loved by Alphas... by three brothers who were tearing each other apart.
I was nothing... worthless... a burden.
But they wouldn’t let me go. They loved me... they needed me. And I needed them.
That was the cruel truth. I needed them. I loved them. But I could only have one.
My heart twisted, my tears falling. How could I choose? How could I break two hearts... just to keep mine whole?
I didn’t deserve their love. I didn’t deserve any of it.
But they wouldn’t stop fighting. They wouldn’t stop loving me.
And I was too weak to stop them.
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I thought they would let go of I run away. But I was wrong!. The Alphas Search For Me Like Their Lives Depends On It...
I heard them, their voices echoing through the forest, desperate, pleading.
“Ari! Where are you?”
I buried my face in my knees, my body trembling. I couldn’t face them... not like this.
I was falling apart... breaking... and they would see it.
They would see how weak I was... how selfish... how unworthy.
And they would still love me... even then.
Aiden’s voice was raw, his power surging. “Aria! Answer me!”
His voice was filled with fear... pain... love.
My heart ached, his desperation tearing at my soul. He was hurting... because of me.
They were all hurting... because I was too weak to make a choice.
I heard Asher’s voice, his tone soft, pleading. “Ari... please... come back...”
He was worried... scared... his heart breaking.
Axel’s voice was rough, his anger thinly veiled. “Stop hiding... come back... where you belong.”
His words twisted my heart, his pain raw, his love guarded.
They were looking for me... hunting me... because they couldn’t let me go.
And I couldn’t let them go... even though I should.
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Dear dairy, what should I do? Should i be Hiding from Love..?
I pressed my body against the tree, my breath catching, my tears falling. I was weak... so weak.
I should go to them... I should stop hiding... I should face my heart... and make my choice.
But I couldn’t. I was too scared... too broken.
Because no matter who I chose... I would destroy them.
I heard their footsteps, their power surging, their wolves searching for me.
They would find me... they would force me to face them... to face my heart.
And I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t strong enough.
I stumbled to my feet, my legs trembling, my chest tightening. I couldn’t let them find me... not like this.
I had to run... to escape... to figure out my heart... before I destroyed them all.
I ran deeper into the forest, my tears falling, my heart breaking.
I was running from them... from their love... from my heart.
But no matter how far I ran... I couldn’t escape.
Because they were my heart... my soul... my life. And they would never let me go....
When I tried to escape...I heard Aiden’s Despair
I heard his voice, raw, broken. “Why... why did you run?”
His pain shattered me, his voice trembling, his power suffocating. “You promised... you promised you wouldn’t run again.”
I hid behind the tree, my body trembling, my tears falling. I couldn’t face him... couldn’t see his pain... his heartbreak.
Because I was the cause of it.
I heard him fall to his knees, his power fading, his voice breaking. “I can’t lose you... not again... not like this...”
His pain was raw, exposed... vulnerable.
My heart twisted, my chest tightening. I wanted to go to him... to hold him... to tell him I loved him.
But if I did... I would have to choose. And I wasn’t ready... I was too scared.
I was weak... selfish... a coward.
I heard him scream, his pain echoing through the night, his power shaking the ground.
He was breaking... because of me.
I covered my mouth, my sobs silent, my heart shattering.
I was hurting him... destroying him... because I couldn’t make a choice.
I was cruel... selfish... weak.
But I couldn’t let him go... I couldn’t let any of them go.
Because I loved them.
And that was the cruelest truth of all....
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