To Love and Avenge

Chapter 82

He always had this effect on all of his subordinates, as his kind of reward was not something everyone wanted to experience. No one wanted to accept it but was forced to do so.

Funny it is that I, Dauis Suarez, have to accept and face such a kind of fate by my own choice.

Well, every head in such a kind of business is all the same, unreasonable, selfish, and ruthless. Every negative word you can think of can match it. Therefore, I must face all the consequences of my action, just to carry on with my plans.

“My Plans…” I uttered bitterly.

And now, me, being his subject, I am now scared. Scared not only of my own life but of my family’s life too. Considering that if it happens that he discovers my real status, then it’ll be the end of everything, thanks to Candy’s cover-up.

But…

Is there any room for fear and regret in my heart?

Of course, there should be none.

I shouldn't be overruled by my own fear, much more to submit and let anybody overpower me. I must think about the bigger picture of all this. I thought to myself, feeling indignant at the situation we are in.

Mustering every courage that might have left within me, I came to realize that I was actually dialing Ale’s number absentmindedly.

I don't exactly know what came into me, but it would rather be suspicious if I hung up now.

Later on, a soft melodious voice rang in my ear. Her angelic voice was like a drug to me, that I always liked to listen to again and again.

“Hello?” answered the other line.

I have neither tried to rely on my strength to others, nor talk to them just to boost my confidence, but recently, I got used to listening to her voice at times of my wavering and shaken self-esteem. And when I am in the midst of confusion and disorientation, hearing her voice surprisingly soothes me and sents calmness in me, like a fusion that helped me get through it all with overbearing strength.

Listening to her was like listening to a soft whisper of air, embracing me as it sends thousands of emotions though it complicates the chill, yet warmth falls around me. It gives me enough strength, as it exudes an undeniable comfort that no one can ever resist.

And it was quite addicting.

My emotions were like sea waves, even at how unstable and turbulent it can be, but it never forgets to submit themselves to its shore for comfort.

Am I becoming dependent on her now? I asked myself warily.

However, my stronghold in this situation was my desire to fulfill the promise that I vowed many years ago.

An innocent child’s promise that has never been forgotten.

So, enduring all those near-death experiences was nothing compared to when I had foreseen the possible outcome of my hard work.

Without giving her any hint of my current state, I continued to listen to her calm breathing as she waited for my response.

I can't risk any chances of ruining her now stable health. I believe that if she finds out that I am in trouble, she won't sit still and it will only cause further catastrophe for her, which was not good for her and for the baby’s health.

“Dauis?” She called out once again. Calm but worries can be sensed in her voice.

“I… Uhh sorry, I'm here, I was just a little busy. I am so caught up right now, I just called to inform you that I don't think I can still go home now.” I explained, drawing a deep breath in the hope that she would buy such an excuse.

Moreover, I know that it was just a lame excuse for her. Her silence told me so.

But, I have to stand and be firm about it.

Upon hearing her sigh deeply, the urge to run back to comfort or just to simply stay by her side was getting stronger every minute that passed by. To ease the heavy burden she might be feeling.

The urge to forget whatever mess I was in and just to hold her in my arms was tempting me.

Somehow, I knew it was impossible…

Impossible for now.

“Hmm, you’ll be home by tomorrow then?” I later heard her ask in assumption but in a worried tone after a long period of silence.

It saddened me and I felt sorry for her for the worries that I had caused her.

The mere fact that it was all temporary, and soon get over with it was what I am holding to.

The fact that I have hoped for her agony to end up soon sends relief and a sense of stillness in this unstable and cruel world of reality.

What I was so afraid of, was when the untold truth would unfold right before her eyes.

The fear of being hated and being the subject of her unforgiveness consumed and weakened my resolve.

With a sigh, I continued to speak calmly despite my own inner struggles.

“Hey, listen here, I promise to come home the moment I finish all things. Okay?” I promised in a light tone, trying to cheer her up.

“Hmm, okay, we’ll wait for you.” She simply responded.

Okay, we’ll wait for you… those simple words, simple yet, they lighten my mood even more. Those sweet words inform me that I can still come back.

“ Please take care,” she continued.

“Hmm, I will. I will come back to you. Please wait for me.” I said, unconsciously holding my breath for so many reasons.

“Okay”. Then, she hung up.

An empty promise… I once again sighed and smiled sadly at the thought.

How can I even convince her when, in fact, even I cannot guarantee myself.

Yet, I still wanted to hold on to that empty promise and to hope falsely for it.

Submitting myself voluntarily to Boss Guz was like giving him permission to do as he pleased me.

So as to my life.

This scared me more as it only had a very slim chance of survival.

No, no one should get in the way of my plans. Let alone him! I firmly stated.

After looking around, I was satisfied with what I saw as a result. I quickly sent Candy a short message saying…

“I will be responsible for my negligence and recklessness. I am informing you that I will fly tomorrow to face the consequences of my actions. Please never get yourself in the way, trust me.”

Then, I turned my phone off without waiting for her reply.

I knew she would be furious as hell the moment she read it and would act as she wished. I just hope that she will listen to me and will not interfere at this very critical point of my position in this kind of world.

“DAUIS,” she said aloud in disbelief.

'How dare he decide recklessly now? He would always have a word with me. How come? How come that everything has changed this way? He acted impulsively even when he knew how Guz treated his subordinates other than me. She furiously thought.

'He must not do as he planned.' She mumbled, starting to pace from here to there, trying to find a way to keep him.

“You’ve changed a lot recently.” Anxiously, she stopped, but this time, she started to pull back her hair out of frustration.

Starting when he came back here, he seemed to change in a lot of ways, at least that's what she had observed. But whenever she asked him, he would always answer that it was all according to plan, which she easily believed.

'This B*TCH has caused so many conflicts in my life already. She and her family have become thorns in my throat, a sore in the eyes that should be eliminated from this world. They caused so much pain that I don't think I will be able to live life unless they are completely eliminated.'

She always thought that if it wasn't for her and for her mother, she would have had a happy and complete family. She wouldn’t have suffered so much humiliation and pain and even felt left out.

'What now? Dauis, being the only one left for me, is now imperiled because of her.' She bitterly thought.

She smirked at the thought that, through generations, the Alforque family had become her mortal enemy. She wondered when they would ever put an end to this entanglement. Will there be?

She sat on her bed feeling exhausted.

From that day, even at a young age, she had come to understand all the tragedies she'd been experiencing. Therefore, she vowed to use her life to make them pay.

NO EXEMPTIONS!