FIFTY FOUR
2059 Words
THANATOS' POV
*Knock! Knock!*
“Dianna, it's me,” I said while I was standing in front of Dianna's house.
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*Knock! Knock!*
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“Dianna, please open the door. I need to talk to you”
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*Door opens*
And when it opened, I saw that she was surprised to see me. I understand that she wasn't expecting me to come over at this time.
“Thanatos, why are y-you here---”
I immediately hugged her tight. I don't know where else I should go right now. My mind is in chaos. After what I discovered, I don't know what to do next.
I enjoy it. I enjoy seeing you like a fool believing everything that I said
Every word she said breaks my heart into pieces. I feel so stupid for believing her! How come I didn't notice?!
That's it? That is your only reason? So you just admit everything and that's all?
I can't accept the fact that she fooled me.
Y-yeah. That's all. I enjoy fooling you around
I am not a toy to play with. I cared about her! But it seems like she doesn't care as much as I do.
Everything that we talked about, it's all an act? That's it?
For a moment, I was expecting more from her. I was expecting that change that she was showing me is real.
Yeah, that's it.
I really thought she changed. I thought… she can't do such a thing like this.
About yesterday. The blood?
My own expectations broke me now. And I am lost.
Yes, it's just me. Part of my drama okay? EVERYTHING IS AN ACT.
Everything… is a lie.
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“Thanatos… What happened? I thought you were mad at me.” I came back to reality when Dianna started to talk. I then stopped from hugging her and moved away.
“You were right.”
“What?” She was confused about what I was talking about.
“You were right about her, about Makaria”
“H-how did you…”
“I remembered...everything” I remembered all the lies that she made and I can't help myself but get mad. I hate her. I hate Makaria for doing this to me.
“Did you tell her about it?”
“She saw me in pain. I remembered it all in front of her. And she admitted it” I seriously said as I looked into Dianna's eyes. She clearly noticed that I am angry and she looks so worried to me right now. She is always like that.
“She does? Come in, take a seat first and calm down” as she told me that, I quickly entered her house and went to her sofa to sit down. It's actually my first time visiting her in her own house, sadly, I came here for this kind of reason.
“I am trying to calm down, but I can't. I am so mad about what she did” then I clenched my fist trying to resist this feeling of mine. It is like fire burning inside me and I just want to scream the hell out of it.
“I understand. I tried to warn you. I tried to tell you not to get close to her. I also tried to say that she is no good. She doesn't have any conscience, Thanatos. That's what she is” and now, I totally believe that. At first, I still had little hope for her. I wanted to know the reason why she's become like that. Why did the Mara that I know become like that? I believed that nothing is born evil but… it seems like she is an exemption. She is just so evil.
“I am sorry. I am sorry that I did not listen to you. I am sorry that I did not believe you. I am just so overwhelmed by what's happening to me right now. You and Nemesis, me and Makaria… I just… I am so confused” I started to put both of my hands on my head and pull my hair. I somehow also hate myself, for being such an i***t. They are right, I am really stupid.
“Don't worry. I really understand. Don't push yourself okay? Time can heal every wounds” she went near me to pat my back, to help me ease what I am feeling right now. To tell me that everything is gonna be alright…
But…
I don't know if everything is still going to be alright.
“I don't think mine will. I don't know what to do Dianna. I don't want to see her anymore”
“Are you planning to resign?”
With this kind of situation, I do want to leave right away but… where do I go after?
“I actually am. But… I don't know what's next after that. It is hard to find a job nowadays”
“If you want to, I'll help you find a new job. I let you into that company so somehow I am at fault for why you are experiencing this. So I'll help you find a way out of it and be better. I'm sorry. Nemesis warned me not to let you apply there but I still did. I think we are both hard-headed.” right now, I can say that her goodness is not just because Nemesis told her to do so, it is her own will too. What she is doing right now, it shows me that somehow our friendship is not all fake. Somehow, we really bonded.
“I owe you a lot. Even though now that I know that you and Nemesis are working together, still, thank you”
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“What is this, Mr. Salvador?” she asked as I handed a small white envelope to her table.
“Isn’t it obvious? I want to resign Miss Antoinette” I said without even looking at her. I can’t, I just can’t. If I look I might not be able to resist myself from storming around. I wanted to just remember the memories that I had with Mara, not with her. She is just playing me.
I wait for her response and it took a few seconds of silence. Maybe she tried to think, think of another way to play me again, fool me again just for me not to resign and remain as her toy.
“Well, that is easy. I thought you are not that kind of guy”
“What?” what is she up to now?
“A guy that can easily give up”
“I don’t know why I even talk to you right now. I am just here to give you that letter. I am out” I am done here. She is just starting that kind of talk for me to stay here for a little while. I don’t wanna be here anymore. So I turned around and walk towards the door.
“Oops, wait… I am still your boss so show some respect. Sit down”
I am about to leave the office but she stopped me, of course, she will. I know she won’t get easy on me about this.
I faced her, then I go back and sat on the chair in front of her table. Still, I am not looking at her. I don’t want to. I really don’t want to. That innocent-like face of her doesn’t suit her very well.
“Are you going to sign it or not, Miss Antoinette?”
“Hmm… I am not fond of reading some kind of long resignation letters so I am just going to ask you right now, why do you want to resign?”
What the hell is wrong with her? Does she even need to ask about the obvious?
“Really? You haven’t seen this coming? You really have no idea why I wanted this?” I took a glimpse of her then I face another way immediately.
“Well, as far as I remember I am giving you the right amount of salary, and it is ON TIME. You have all your benefits here as a janitor so… why? Is it because of our personal arguments? Oh please, can you separate work from what happened to us?”
Oh great, so that is how she wanted this to end up?
“No. I can’t. And I can’t even last a minute seeing you like this without getting mad. To be honest, I am killing you in my mind right now” I am so angry that I haven’t even thought of what I said. I shouldn’t have said it but… I did out of my burning feelings.
“Is that so? Then kill me *smile*” I was surprised. Well, she never fails to surprise me, in a negative way.
Great, she is smiling as if it is no big deal. She is really good at playing the antagonist part here.
“What?”
“Kill me, if that’s what makes you satisfied” hearing that made my hands clench I wanted to punch something right now.
“I really can’t believe you. You are getting worse. You know what? Before, I hoped that you might really change. I believed that maybe you went through a lot of pain that is why you became that way but now… I think you are really born like that. I am scared for you. I am scared that if I really had killed you right now, you die, and you rot on your afterlife”
“*smile* Well, you won’t kill me anyway, right? So I won’t rot yet”
DAMN IT! DOES SHE EVEN HAVE A SOUL? SHE IS CLOUDED WITH WICKEDNESS!
“Just wait for the time when death hunts you down. Good luck with your life. I am leaving this company no matter what. I hope this will be our last meeting.” And with that, I stood up and walk again towards the door. I hope she won’t stop me anymore because if she does, I may not be able to control myself anymore.
“Is that really what you wanted, Thanatos?!”
I stopped walking when I heard her saying that.
“Yes, so please sign my resignation letter”
“Sure. If that is really what you want then” great, I thought she would still say something that would make it so difficult for me to leave this company, I am glad it didn’t take that long. I really have decided to leave and there is no turning back.
I started to walk again and twisted the doorknob.
“Goodbye, Makari--ahhh!!!” WHAT THE?!?!
“Mr. Salvador? What happened?”
CRAP! WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY HEAD? REALLY?
“My head! Ahhhh!!! Damn it, why is it hurting again!!!”
Am I going to die? My head keeps hurting and it is too much! It is too much for this week! I can’t take it…
The last thing I knew is that I fell on the ground…
And… all went black
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“I know you don’t like to become a human. That is why it is your punishment.”
“B-but…”
“No buts. You told me that you will face the punishment of breaking the rules, right?”
“Y-yes.”
“Okay. So face it.”
He is very strict. He won’t let go of me that easily. I think even if I beg, he won’t even care. Rules are rules, and punishment is punishment. I need to accept it.
For a moment, my mouth just can’t say any word. I don’t know what to respond anymore. I really need to pay for what I have done. It will be difficult, but I have to.
“And, also, aside from you being a human. You also have a mission to do there”
WHAT? THERE IS MORE?! OH COME ON
“What is it?”
“Your mission is…” he paused, seemingly hesitating to say what it is. What could it be?
“Tell me, what is my mission, Rafael?”
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“It’s about a woman named Makaria Antoinette.”
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