- Josh, please I don't feel well, please let me go home, I need some fresh air.
My voice trembled. Actually my whole body was shaking. I needed to go.
- Eva, what's wrong, you want to sit down?
- No, I have to go out. Please.
But with that I couldn't hold it anymore, I slammed my keycard down on the bar, and ran out. I ran down to the entrance, I only grabbed my phone and house keys, and ran out as fast as I could, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I ran on the street, thank God it was a quiet night, only a few people were on the street, they looked at me, but I didn't care.
I ran to the seashore. There was a high tide, so I couldn't go down. I just stopped at the rail on the walkway, I grasped it as hard as I could. But I couldn't keep myself, I felt my legs were too weak, so I
