Passionate mates

Blood and expectations

I closed the door behind me and breathed out heavily. I lean my palms on my knees and take a moment to breathe. Holy crap, that was too close, I thought.

Not close enough, my wolf sings. I could have had him then and there, and a part of me, a massive part of me, absolutely wanted that. That small part of me that wants to wait until we know each other better decreased significantly tonight. This was going to be hard, I thought.

I need a shower, I already miss his warmth and his hands all over my body. I stepped into the shower and found that it didn't erase the touch of his hands. I was so heated, and my body wanted to feel him inside me so badly. How is this even possible? Is this normal?

I reached my hand down to my core and touched myself. I let out a low moan at the thought of it being his hand, and it didn't take long before I came. I lean my head on the wall and relax, and slowly the embarrassment takes over me. If only he knew what I just did. I was also embarrassed that a bit of handsy-feely from Jax was all it took to get me this horny. I finished my shower and went to bed. And boy, were there some interesting dreams.

***

The morning after, I'm surprisingly up early. I got ready, and then I go to look for my dad. Jax's reaction to me going outside the pack border yesterday was off the charts. And he clearly wasn't going to tell me anything, so I needed dad to tell me.

I tried his office, which is usually where he was. I knocked twice, and shortly after, I heard him say I could come in. I walked in and stopped right in my tracks when I saw Jax by his side. He gave me an amused and knowing look, as if he remembered yesterday, and waited for me to announce why I was there. I looked at dad, and he was waiting too.

"Uh. Dad, I need you to tell me what is going on. Why are Jax and his men here?" I asked and seated myself in the chair opposite his desk. Dad sighed as if he had been waiting for me to ask. He gestured to Jax to have a seat too, and he sat in the chair beside my dad. Dad scratched his head and paused for a bit before he started to tell me. I felt Jax's gaze on me, and I had to control myself and only look at dad. I did not want to look at Jax, only to blush by remembering yesterday.

"Okay. There have been several reports of a massive clan of rogues nearby, clearing out small packs. We don't know why or what they are after, but they are getting closer. So, because Jax's clan is the strongest of our allies, we decided to get together to try and find a system in their attacks. We don't know when or if they get here, but we will be ready if they do", he explained. My eyes went to Jax, and he eyed me, as if he wasn't sure of how I would react.

"Okay... Have you found anything yet?" I asked, concealing the slight hint of fear I felt.

"No. Not yet," answered Jax. I looked at him, waiting for a more elaborating answer, but there never came any. He held my eyes, and I could see his amusement. He knew he irritated me by giving me such a short answer. I clenched my jaw and nodded.

"Okay. I expect to be updated," I said, looking at my father.

"I'm sure Jax would be happy to update you when we know anything," my father answered, and I took a deep breath. Is my father pushing me on Jax now?

"Sure," I said shortly and rose to my feet. I didn't take any chances staying in the same room as Jax for too long, not after seeing my poor judgment last night. I went out of the office and shut the door. Firstly then, it felt like I could breathe.

I finally went for breakfast, later than everyone else as usual. I made myself some eggs and ate alone. I then went to find Anna and Mason. They were playing with the pups, and I watched them for a while. The thought of my two best friends having pups together one day excited me, making me smile. I went over to join them. They were playing football, and it was a chaotic football match. I joined in, and there were three adults against 13 kids. We didn't even have to pretend that we lost. They outnumbered us, and there were kids everywhere. We really had fun, and I found myself laughing the entire match.

One of the pups fell, and she couldn't have been more than five years old. I ran over to her and picked her up, and placed her in my lap. I looked over the wound. It wasn't deep, but there was blood. And I think that was scarier than the actual pain. For both of us, as I can't handle blood well. I had to breathe with my mouth, and try to avoid looking straight at it. Mason came over and sat down beside us. He knew I didn't like blood, so he took care of rinsing it and putting a band-aid over it.

I could finally breathe with my nose when it was covered. The girl still cried heavily, and I tried to get on my feet with her in my hands. She was small, but I was weak. I never went to the gym. I was fast, though, and I could run for a long time, but I didn't have much strength. Mason laid an arm around my waist and hoisted us both up like nothing. I murmured a thanks. I heard Anna growl at me, and I blinked at her in surprise. She actually growled at me? Mason went to her and whispered something in her ear, and she sent me an apologetic look. I smiled and shook my head, amused.

I went inside with the girl in my arms and rested on the couch. We sat there until she stopped crying, and we watched some TV afterward. She soon slept in my arms, and I didn't dare move. I don't know how long we sat there, but Jax joined me eventually. He looked questioningly at the girl.

"She hurt herself and was sad. And I don't tolerate blood, so we both needed a breather", I whispered. He eyed me with the girl in his arms, and I am sure he was picturing me with his pups. I smacked his arm to get his attention, and he gave me a sheepish smile. I shook my head.

"You don't tolerate blood? How does that work in a fight?" he asked, brows furrowed.

"I've never been in a fight, so I don't know. And I don't want to find out", I said. He looked at me like I was crazy.

"Aren't the girls in this pack trained for fighting?" he asked, and I shook my head. That was how it had always been here, so I've never offered it another thought. He looked at me like what I said was unbelievable.

"That's insane. In my pack all the girls participate in guarding, fights, and everything the guys do," he explained. I didn't like him criticizing my pack's way of doing things. That may be the way they do it, but not here.

"We're not in your pack now," I reminded him gently.

"But you will be. And you will be trained", he said sternly. I eyed him, looking for a sign that he was joking. When I didn't find any, I put the girl down on the couch and turned to him.

"That's not your choice," I said. I didn't want to fight. I hated it. I know it is necessary sometimes, but I can't bring myself to think that I would ever hurt someone.

"Yes, it is. I'm your mate, and you're soon to be Luna, so you will do as I say. I need everyone to be able to protect themselves if ever needed", he said. His voice went a little darker, and the dominance that radiated out of him kind of turned me on and kind of annoyed me—what a confusing feeling.

"And I will be your Luna, so I can make my own choices," I said and tried to match his low voice.

He smiled at that and put his face inches away from mine.

"Yes, you will be," he said and kissed my cheek, totally ignoring the rest of my sentence. I scoffed when he went outside, and sat there pouting like a little child. It's like I got nothing to say!