Ripped Away And Apart

Kafli 13.

The next day I wake up alone in my room but I remember falling asleep on the couch down stairs with Max, Noah and some other people. Did Max not sleep with me tonight? Oohh well does not matter, I get out of bed and go into the shower and as I am in the shower I think about the photos I saw yesterday of young Max. I put on some jeans and a tank top, when I am walking down to the kitchen I hear some people but I don't care. I feel like I live here now. I walk into the kitchen saying morning in german to the people but not really looking at them but while I am getting my bowl and cereal then I notice that it is silent in the kitchen so I look to the table. I sigh inside because by the table are the three mean girls and two guys just looking at me.

“I can eat later” I say with my bitchy voice. 

I put everything back, take a banana and start to walk out of the kitchen.

“You mean nothing to him you know” I hear one of the girls say. 

I look at them and with a bored face I say. 

“I know but can you tell him that?” 

They look a little confused but then they just stand up.

“He is going to get bored of you and realize you are a nobody” 

I roll my eyes at them.

“Yeah and hopefully soon so I can go home” 

They walk quickly close to me and I am surprised that the main girl is not talking, why are the others just talking for her? Is she hurting over this? Was she in love with him?

“If you would let some blood go to your brain but not your p***y you would leave” 

I look her dead in the eye.

“You know a way for me to leave?” 

She looks a little shocked by my answer but then she opens her mouth only to get interpreted by a guy by the table standing up. 

“Alright that is enough if he knew how you girls are talking to her then he would make you sleep in the dungeons so shut up girls” 

I narrow my eyes at him and he sits down, she is telling me how I can leave, this might be my shot. However when I look back at them they are walking past me and out of the kitchen, I sigh but I go back to making my breakfast. After my breakfast I am feeling a little down so I just go to my room and look out of the window at the people and wolves down there, I have to ask Max about them. With every passing hour I just feel more and more down, I feel trapped, I feel like I need to see something other than this normal thing, maybe a grocery store or just a candy shop. Then all of a sudden my door is busted open and in walks Max, as always he is angry. I am starting to think that he is never just normal, there is always something making him mad. 

“What the hell happened at breakfast?” he thunders at me. 

I just look at him with empty eyes. 

“Nothing” 

“Don't you dare lie to me, what happened?”

I raise an eyebrow. 

“what makes you think I am lying? What did you hear?” 

He takes a step closer to me and I am feeling a little threatened and also more trapped than before. 

“Tell me in your own words what happened” 

I just look up at him but he is standing too close to me. I stand up from the window and walk further away from him. 

“Nothing happened, I just talked to some girls and had breakfast. What is the big deal? And can you not crowd me so much?” 

My question and moving away from him has him a little confused.

“What is going on Ana?” he asks like I am a child that did something bad. 

“There is nothing f*****g going on!” I snap.

“Don't you snap at me” he warns. 

That made my blood boil, I am so angry at him, at the world, at this f*****g room!

“Don't you tell me what to do! I can snap if I want to! I can not do anything else! I can not f*****g go to the supermarket to buy my f*****g favorite candy! I can not talk to my friends! I can not do anything!!” I scream at him. 

I can see his face just turn from mad to boiling mad like me. I walk to the desk and pick up the lamp on it and throw it at the wall. He does not look surprised to see me throw that lamp but he closes his eyes taking deep breaths. There is silence between us but then he opens his eyes and walks towards me but I move away.

“Don't move away from me” he says. 

I narrow my eyes at him but I am on a roll.

“I am a person Max! I need my freedom! I need to see something else than just this!” 

“YOU WANT TO LEAVE? THEN LEAVE! I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD! I HAVE GIVEN YOU SO MUCH BUT YOU JUST KEEP INSISTING ON LEAVING! FINE IF IT IS SO HORRIBLE HERE WITH ME THEN LEAVE!” he yells at me and I see his eyes turn black. 

I stare at him very very scared right now, is he serious? Can I really leave? Do I want to leave? Before I could answer him Noah came running into the room. 

“I heard something break and then some yelling is everything okey?” he says rather scared. 

Max does not look away from me but I just look down fisting and unfisting my hands. 

“Everything is fine, Ana wants to leave so take her where she wants to go, I am done with this s**t” Max says walking past Noah and towards the door. 

“Wait Alpha! You don't mean that! She is not leaving!” Noah yells back at him. 

Then in like two seconds Max turned around and punched Noah in the face so he fell to the ground.

“I gave you an order so obey!” he thunders in a deeper harder voice. 

I am stiff, I just stand there looking at the two of them but to be honest I am scared of Max right now. Punching his friend like that? What kind of person would do that? Then all of a sudden Max looks from his friend to me. 

“I don't need someone that does not want to be here or me, there a bunch of girls here that want both” he says with an emotionless voice and then walks out. 

Those words hurt like hell, that really really hurt my feelings! How could he say something like that? Is this how he feels when I say I want to leave? I just watch him walk out of the room but I feel the tears run down my face and I begin to sniff. What am I doing? What is happening? Is this it? Am I leaving? 

“Ana didn't listen to him, he did not mean it” Noah says. 

I look at him but I can not really see anymore because tears are streaming down my face and I swear to god this is horrible. 

Fuck. s**t. Hell. 

I put my hand over my chest, the pain is back and it is so bad. I feel like I can not breathe, I put my other hand into my hair and pull on it a little. It does not help so I slide slowly to the floor. 

“Ana?” Noah asks concerned. 

I don't answer him because I am biting down so I don't scream, I don't want Max to hear me and prove me right that I need him. I start to bang my head against the floor. 

“Ana what is going on?” Noah asks again, now bending down close to me.

“Don't touch me” I warn him and I see him flinch a little. 

It feels like someone is holding my heart and squeezing so hard, I am breathing short and rapid. Then I can not hold it in anymore so I let it out. 

“AAAAHHHHH” 

Letting it out felt a little better but I am still on my knees on the floor with my forehead on the floor. 

“s**t, what is going on? Should I get the doctor?” Noah asks in a panic. 

“No just leave I need to be alone” I say but then another scream comes out and I bang my head against the floor. 

“No Ana I am not just going to leave you al” he could not finish what he was saying because someone came into the room. 

I feel with my head against the floor that someone leaves and closes the door without saying a word while the other stands very close to me. Then I hear clothes rip and then I feel mine rip off me but I have my eyes and teeth very hardly closed. Then I feel my naked self being lifted up from the ground like nothing and my bare skin meets another ones bare skin. By the way the tingles fly through my body I know it is Max holding me. He walks with me through the room, then he puts me down on the bed and climbs in himself. He holds me close tangling my legs with his and wrapping his arms around me. It is slowly making me feel better but I am still stiff and holding my chest hoping it is helping or something. 

“What are we doing? What is going on?” I ask 

“I will tell you one day when you are ready but not now”

“Max I have the right to know” 

“All you need to know is that you are mine and you are here for me”