Married At 19

Chapter 12

《Nathan Harrison》

The weather seems to be rainy today, maybe I could drive her to the campus so she won't get soak in the rain. Usually I was a selfish person, I tried to avoid her by not to giving the ride, so everyone won't notice that we are staying together. Besides, I only ride my Superbike to university meanwhile for her, I don't know..... a cab maybe or walking.

It's kind of cruel for her, I know. Like I said I was a bad person. But I've regretted it now. I want to be nicer for her.

"Do you want me to give you a ride?” I offer to her. “Since it's rainy today and I also have class at 2.30...." I added more while she was packing her bag.

She then turns to look at me, "Um.... sorry Nathan."

Wait....what? She declined my offer?

"My friend already offered to give me a ride,” she continued. “He'll be here soon." She added.

He? Did she mean that guy?

Woah...I never been crestfallen like this before. Damn, it hurts!

"O-oh.....okay. It's fine....no big deal." I faked a smile to her, trying my best not to show her that I was hurt by her declination.

I swiftly slung my backpack on my right shoulder, "I'll be going first."

But she stopped me by grabbing my arm, "I'm so sorry, Nathan."

Our eyes met; the blue ocean eyes me with the pair of beautiful grey eyes.

I wish I just could confess to you.

That,

I love you.....

Isabella Dawson.

I gently removed her hand from my arm, "See you there,” then gave her a weak smile before walked away from her.

She looks a bit guilty, but....I don't want to force her to follow me.

"I....I...." I heard her tried to stop me again, but her phone rang so she cancelled it and she quickly answered the call.

"Hey Max!!!" I purposely shouted so someone on the phone will hear me. Man, I was so childish but I don’t care. I looked away from her who currently on her phone to my dog who ran towards me, "Behave while I'm gone, okay?"

He barked at me as he understands me.

She ended the call. "I'm sorry Nathan, but my friend already here . I think I should go now."

I nodded, "A-alright....see you there."

"Bye...." she swiftly ran towards the front door, leaving me who currently in the biggest disappointment in my life.

I rushed towards the window which I could see someone who will pick her up and there he is, the blond hair guy, Taylor Anderson. Bella came out from our building with the help of that jerk who already waiting for her with an umbrella as if like he was a gentleman.

Pfftt…gentleman, my ass.

Surprisingly, she even let him to hug her as he approached her which made my heart broke so much.

Oh god....

'I really wanted to talk about it

Damn it!!

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to yell.

I wanted to shout about it.

But all I could do was whisper.'

"I'm fine,” I whisper along with a sign.

I have to accept the reality that she is in loves with somebody else.

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I went to the campus with the broken heart, I even walked in the rain and arrived there with my clothes all soaked in rain.

"Hey dope!!!" Seth put his hand on my shoulder. "Woah…you are all wet, are you okay, dude?"

I didn’t turned to him at all, "Yeah...I'm fine,” then continued to walk with him walking along with me.

"Then, why your face looks so awful and your clothes…."

I cut him in, "No......it’s nothing, Hedgehog."

"Did Mr Goodwin called you again? Did you cause any problems again, huh?"

I sighed, "Do I really look like a problematic student to you, Hedgehog?

He nodded for once and then burst out of laughter, "Sorry.....I'm just saying, dude."

"Well.....did you have an argument with someone? A girl maybe?"

I wish that I could tell you, Seth.

"Dude....I'm fine, trust me." I removed his hand from my shoulder. "It's just....um....I'm hungry now. And do you have a shirt for me to borrow."

“Yes, I have it…let’s stop by at our dorm I mean, my dorm now,”

"Oh come on," I pushed him away from me. “That dorm still mine too. I haven’t check out yet, so I will come over whenever I want to,” I slung my almost fall backpack again on my shoulder. "Let's go to the cafeteria after that…my baby stomach is truly hungry.”

Seth let me borrow his shirt and pants since my clothes were soaking wet and both of us went to the cafeteria to grab some lunch. And guess what, I saw Bella was eating with that guy, she looks happy, the way she talks to him, so friendly with each other, the way she laughs when he jokes around and also the way she looks at him.... she must be loving him so much.

"Hey Nathan!" Henry called me. "Don't you wanna eat that? If you don't, can I have it?"

I turned to him. "Um... here take it. I don't feel like I want to eat it anymore." I pushed my plate towards him who is sitting in front of me.

"Hey, thanks dude." He gave me a grin. "By the way, who is looking at?" He turned to his back side where Bella and that guys table was.

"No one..." I replied, pretended to focus on my phone.

"Bella and that blonde hair guy look so friendly with each other. I think he is her boyfriend or something." Those words came from my friend's mouth really hit my nerve.

But I feel more rage when saw that guy helping Bella to wipe the sauce on her lips with his thumb.

Damn it!!!

I think I can't hold myself anymore.

I stood up from my seat. "I'll be going first."

"But... we....." Henry tried to stop me by grabbing my arm but I swatted it right away.

"I said I have to go, now!" I raised my voice a bit, that cause some people look at our table including Bella and that guy too.

"Hey dude, are you okay?" Seth looks so worried about me.

"I'm sorry guys..... I'm totally in a bad mood now. I need to go now. See you later." I said to them, trying my best to control my anger.

I took a quick glance at her, through the corner of my eyes. And then walked away from the cafeteria.

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I went back to the apartment, still in rage mood. The weather still raining so heavily and it's almost 6.00 pm now where she's still didn't return home yet.

I was pacing around in the living room, where Max is watching every of my steps from the couch.

Well, our apartment is on the third floor so I still can see people or even the cars which passing by our building clearly.

The black BMW halted at the driveway, that guy's car and the most surprising is, Bella is in there with him, alone.

I'm so pissed off right now!

I quickly grabbed my sweater and went out from the apartment.

Arggh.....why is the lift moving so slow!

I kicked the lift door for once and went to the emergency exit, where I need to climb down the stairs to the apartment lobby. It was so many of stairs but I don’t care. I went out from the emergency exit and headed straight to the BMW through the rain that pouring so heavily.

I saw the blonde hair guy standing in front of Bella with an umbrella above them. They are still talking, so friendly, but the most pissing me off is, he slid some of Bella's hair from covering her face, the thing that usually I did to her, but only when she asleep.

"Let your hand off her!!!" I shouted at him.

Both of them turned to me who was soaking in the rain.

"Nathan." Bella sounded a bit surprised.

I walked closer to them and then grab her arm, pulling her so she could stand beside me.

"I don't know you..... and I really don't care who you are.... or even want to know you..... but I need you to stay away from her!" I gave the guy a warning.

Bella just watches me who I could see her from the corner of my eyes.

That blonde hair guy smirked. "Who the hell are you? Who do you think you are that you can order me around?"

I smirked back at him. "I'm Nathan Harrison, her frie.......I mean her husband. And I don't like you to hang out with her anymore!"

He looks in shock, but not for long, because he moves his eyes to Bella.

"Is that true?" He asked her.

I looked at Bella who is at my shoulder level when she standing beside me.

She nodded. "Yes Taylor, he's my husband. Sorry for not telling you."

So his name is Taylor.

Taylor then looks at me and back to her in disbelief. "Since when?"

"A month ago." She replied, not looking at his face.

"B-but....." he tried to speak again, but I stopped him.

"No buts.....she's my wife so just stay away from her, and get lost!" I think I'm rude enough with him.

He seems like lost in his words.

"I'll be going now." He said while handed me the umbrella since Bella and I were soaking in the rain.

"Sorry for not telling you." Bella replied. "Drive safely."

I grabbed her hand, pulling her to our apartment building's front door. But she insisted to follow me by pulling her hand back.

We are standing not far from the main door under the umbrella.

"What is wrong with you?" Bella asked me with an angry face.

This is the first time I saw her got angry with me.

"You're being a jerk, Nathan!" She’s totally mad at me.

Seriously, I can't face her right now.

"What do you want actually?" She asked me.

"I want you....." I said in a low voice, not sure she can hear me or not.

"What do you mean?" Her pale grey eyes went a bit bigger.

"I......I.....I w-want you." I said it again.

She seems a bit surprised.

I turned my gaze down to the wet pavements.

I think it is the right time for me to confess to her. To tell her the truth about my feeling, no matter, she will accept it or not.

I took a deep breath and then exhaled it slowly, to gather my courage for the confession. "I.......I.....I.....love you, Isabella Dawson."

She looks more surprised with my sudden confession.

I closed my eyes, waiting for her answer, that she, of course, I know that she will reject me completely because she already has someone else in her heart.

Just hold yourself, Nathan.

It's good for you to tell her that you love her, from keeping the feeling deep inside your heart that almost make you lost your mind.

I will accept it...if she ever rejects me.

I know that I'm kind of a person that don't deserve the happiness with the people that I love.

I lost my parents.

My long time crush never love me back.

And you.... that obviously will reject me.

But I want you to know, Bella that I'm truly love you.... with the whole of my heart, believe me!!!!