Chapter Six
2588 Words
(Brandon's Pov)
I sat on my bed with a confused look on my face. Evan rushed out of here like the house was on fire. I wonder what was so important? Well its not like I really care anyway. I got up from my bed and went over to my guitar. I started playing my guitar and singing Stomach tied in knots by sleeping with sirens. I kind of have a voice like Kellin but I can't hit all the really high notes like him.
"Oh, my stomach’s tied in knots
I’m afraid of what I’ll find if you wanna talk tonight
Ooh ooh
See the problem isn’t you, it’s me, I know
I can tell, I’ve seen it time after time
And I’ll push you away (mmm)
I get so afraid, oh, no
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can’t even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don’t want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
'Cause I can't live without you
Oh, my stomach’s tied in knots
I’m afraid of what I’ll find if I see you again tonight
Ooh ooh
See the problem isn’t you, it’s me, I know
I do this every single time
I’ll push you away (ooh)
I get so afraid, oh, no
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can’t even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don’t want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
I only have myself to blame
Let's start again
Let's start again
I can't live without you
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don't want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
'Cause I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
'Cause I don't want nobody else
Nobody else
Nobody else
I can't live without you
Oh oh." I sang. I heard clapping and j looked over and say daddy and mommy in the doorway.
"That was beautiful, honey!" Mom said. I smiled and said
"Thank you."
"My gosh son, you have a real talent!" Dad said. I smiled at him and saw he had a proud look on his face.
"Thanks." I said happily. They smiled at me one last time and mom said
"Where'd Evan go?"
"Oh he had to go home." I said. She nodded and they both left. I sighed and put my guitar down. I feel kind of sad right now. I mean, I lied to my parents about how Evan and I are friends. They don't even know I'm getting bullied! I usually cover up the bruises with makeup. I got up from my bed and went downstairs to talk to my parents.
"Mom, dad?" I said.
"In the kitchen!" She said. I smiled and walked into the kitchen to see dad and mom smiling and laughing. Gosh I love it when I see them smiling together. It really shows how perfect they are together.
"Yes?" She asked.
"Can I talk to you?" I asked. They nodded with worried looks on their faces.
"Of course! Have a seat." Mom said. I took a deep breath and sat down.
"What... what do you do if someone's bullying you?" I asked nervously.
"Honey, is someone bullying you?" Mom asked worried.
"I think so..." I said.
"Well, if someone's bullying you then you should tell an adult at school. Can you tell us who it is?" Daddy said.
"Um I rather keep it to myself." I said.
"Okay we understand, but please try and tell a teacher." Mommy said. I smiled at them and hugged them. They hugged me back and I said
"Thanks, love you guys." I said and went back upstairs. It's already 7:00 o'clock. I think I'll take a shower and then watch some TV. I went over to my drawers and pulled out my Black Veil brides pajama pants and a old oversized blood on the dance floor T-shirt. I yawned and went into my bathroom. I stripped down and started the water. I looked at all my bruises and sighed. Why does this happen to me? He acts like I do everything to him when really he's the one who does it to me. But today he said he was jealous of me. Why would he be jealous of me? He's the most popular kid in school and not to mention hottest. Wait what? Where did hot come from? Oh god... don't be getting a crush on him, of all people! Calm down Brandon, just think of how hot Rider is. I could look at Rider all day if he'd let me! I smiled to myself and got in the shower, not realizing it was only on hot...
"Ahhh!" I said and jumped out, that caused me to slip so I fell. Smooth move Brandon.
"Brandon?! You okay?!" Mom shouted.
"I'm fine! Just burned myself with the shower again!" I said. Keyword there is again.
"What are we going to do with you?" Mom said. I smiled a little and heard her walk away. I turned on the cold water and got in. I sighed, the warm water felt good on my bruises. I washed myself and without realizing it I started to cry. I kept thinking about Evan and how he just hates me so much. If it wasn't for him I'd probably have a few friends. But no one wants to be friends with the gay kid. I washed my hair and got out. I towel dried myself and blow dried my hair. I quickly got dressed and went to my bed. I got my sketch book out and started to draw.
After I was finished I realized I drew a realistic charcoal drawing of Evan. That just made me cry more. Why am I torturing myself with him? It's not like I even like him, right? I put it back in my book bag and then I fell asleep.
(The next day)
"Brandon! Time to get up!" Dad yelled. I groaned and pulled the covers over my head. "Don't make me get the water gun." He said with a laugh. I shot up in bed and ran over to my dresser. I quickly put on a white hoodie and black skinny jeans. I laughed a little at the thought that I'm basically wearing Jeff the killers outfit. I brushed my hair and and went downstairs. I saw mom and dad in the kitchen talking and eating waffles. I love waffles!
"Good morning parents!" I said.
"Good morning child!" They both said. I laughed and mom gave me a plate. I sat down and started eating.
"Mommy, these are delicious!" I said.
"Thank you honey." She said and kissed my head." I smiled and finished eating.
"I'm off work today so I'll be here after school. Is Evan coming over?" Dad said.
"Maybe. I need to get to school." I said.
"I'll take you." Dad said. I smiled and nodded, we both went out to the car and we drove to school.
"So Brandon, do you have a boyfriend?" Dad said.
"No, but I do have a crush." I said.
"Really, who?"
"Um I think I like Rider, but he's 17 and I sort of have a crush on another person." I said nervously.
"Well I hope it works out for you." I smiled and nodded. He pulled up to the school and said "Have a good day, love you!' I said I love you too and left. I walked into the school and went into my first period.
(Evan's Pov)
"He man, how was it?" Ricky asked.
"How was what?" I asked while slamming my locker closed.
"Hanging with Brandon yesterday." I rolled my eyes and said
"I wasn't 'Hanging' with Brandon. I was working on a project. But anyway it was fine, made the fag cry and s**t but that was it. We also played some soccer, learned that he was a natural kicker. Oh and I also learned he has a loving family and can play music like it's the easiest thing in the world." I said in a angry tone.
"Well then... um why did he cry?" Ricky asked. I rolled my eyes at him because I know he doesn't like me picking on Brandon too much. He says I have a limit.
"I was being nice to him because his family took me out to eat but when he
asked if we could be friends I said 'I can't be seen with the fag'." I said.
"That's harsh, even for you." He said and I shrugged.
"Maybe, but he's not the one who gets beat every night." I said. Ricky gave me a sad look and said
"Did you cut?" I nodded and pulled up my sleeve. He gasped and put his hand over his mouth. "Dude! You need to stop this. Are you f*****g stupid?" He said.
"I'm not stupid, you just don't understand. "I may not understand but I do know that if you keep doing it, you'll regret it someday. Would if you have a kid one day and he sees those scars. He'll think it's okay when it's not." Ricky said. I rolled my eyes and started walking to art.
"You can't keep doing this to yourself!" He shouted. I flipped him off and walked into art. Ms. Loss smiled at me and I nodded my head at her.
"Evan, I would like to talk to you." She said. I shrugged and said
"Okay." She gave me a worried look and motioned for me to follow her in the back room.
"Is everything okay?" She asked.
"Yes, why?" I said.
"The painting you did of your feelings had only grey, black, and dark red. That's worrisome. I told you to use bright colors to express your happiness but you... you used very dark and morbid colors." She said.
"I guess I was just having a bad day." I said with a shrug.
"Evan, is everything alright at home?" She asked.
"Yep." I said with a bored look on my face. "Okay, but just so you know. You can talk to me if you need to." She said. I nodded and went back to my seat.
(Brandon's Pov)
I smiled as the bell rang and ran out of the room. I ran down the hall and into the music room.
"Hi, Mr. Pair! " I said happily.
"Hey Brandon, I have a favor to ask you." He said.
"Anything!" I said
"Will you sing and play guitar for today's lesson?" He asked.
"Um sure, I guess so. What song?" I asked.
"Anything." He said. I smiled and agreed and then went to my seat. The rest of the students came in and sat down. Evan came over and sat next to me.
"I'm only sitting here because we need to work on our song." He said flatly. I sighed and nodded.
"Okay class, today I have something special. I asked Brandon to sing for us to show you how easy it is to sing in from of people." He said. People groaned and I bit my lip nervously. "Brandon, come on up." I grabbed a red acoustic guitar and sat down. I cleared my throat and started singing Stomach tied in knots like I did yesterday.
"Oh, my stomach’s tied in knots
I’m afraid of what I’ll find if you wanna talk tonight
Ooh ooh
See the problem isn’t you, it’s me, I know
I can tell, I’ve seen it time after time
And I’ll push you away (mmm)
I get so afraid, oh, no
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can’t even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don’t want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
'Cause I can't live without you
Oh, my stomach’s tied in knots
I’m afraid of what I’ll find if I see you again tonight
Ooh ooh
See the problem isn’t you, it’s me, I know
I do this every single time
I’ll push you away (ooh)
I get so afraid, oh, no
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can’t even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don’t want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
I only have myself to blame
Let's start again
Let's start again
I can't live without you
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don't want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
'Cause I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
'Cause I don't want nobody else
Nobody else
Nobody else
I can't live without you
Oh oh." I sang. People started clapping and Mr. Pair smiled at me. I smiled back and put the guitar back.
"Your voice sounds just like Kellin!" Mr. Pair said.
"How do you know who he is?" I asked.
"My son Rider listens to them." I smiled and nodded. I wonder if it's the same Rider I know? He started his lesson on harmony and tone and before I knew it it was lunch time. I got up and was about to run out the door when Evan grabbed me.
"Your sitting with us, we need to work on our song." He said and walked away. I looked at him in shock before following him to his locker.
The guys were standing there and when they saw me they got a confused look on his face.
"Why's the fag following you, does he like you or something?" Daniel said.
I shrunk away and tired to walk away but Evan grabbed me.
"Did I say you could leave?" He said in a annoyed tone. I shook my head no and he smirked.
"He's with me because we have a project to work on." Evan said. They nodded and Evan opened his locker. He got out a black notebook and slammed his locker causing me to jump and them to laugh at me. I sighed and said
"Let's just get this over with."
- Writer
