Why am I like this? What happened to me? Was I always like this, and just never knew?
No. That can't be it. I would have shown signs sooner if I was truly always this... fu.cking mad.
This is all Lenny's fault. Ever since I met her, my whole life has been flipped upside down. She waltzed right in and... changed me. Or maybe she just brought out the real me.
Honestly, have I even really changed that much? The only thing different about me is.... well, Lenny herself. It's like we're in a serious relationship. The only changes I've made to my life so far are setting boundaries with my fans, finally being done with Stella, and... well, leaving everything I know behind.
It's the personal change within myself that I'm struggling with. I struggled at first, finally accepted the fact that Len
