A wretched sound leaves my lips and as much as I try to fight it, it feels like a dam has broken inside of me, and it cannot be stopped, no matter how hard I try.
There is an overwhelming feeling of grief, of pain, of hopelessness and I do not know what to do. All my life I have always kept things back, banished everything I felt to the depths of my mind. That’s what we’ve been taught to do. That’s what I thought was right and now that these feelings have surfaced, it is too far out for me to keep inside anymore. I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know. I don’t know.
I don’t know.
It feels like a wrecking ball came crashing into my mind, and these uncontrollable things just keep spilling out of me, whether it is tears or even more emotions that refused to be forced back in.
Not to ment
